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@Feeble Dave I found this too. But I need to buy an actual kit.

I think that I know how to improve programming tutorials to a huge degree. Is it okay that I am angry on the world for that I am not able simply do the work? Instead I have to work to save some money and only then I can start teach people. So if there is people who can change the world, they can't go after for that. They have to waste their precious time on earning the money first. Let's take Leo for example. As far as I know he can't just do his self-improvement and share the fruits. He have to pay his bills so he have to couch or do whatever to have the money. In fact, I wounder why he just don't ask for money. If I would do something like this and have no shyness issues, I would definitely ask for money. I don't know how shy he is, so if he shyless I really don't understand why he didn't make it still. So Leo if you are reading this I don't understand why you don't ask for money. Instead you choose to waste some of your time by earning them to do the thing you should be doing in first place. P.S I am not talking about Leo. I am using him to describe a problem.

If I overcome myself I feel relief and became a bit less shy for a while, but there is down side of it and this is sometimes when I overcome myself I feel more restricted then I was before I overcame myself. How can I distinguish it to decide should I overcame myself in this time or not. I am not trying to train my will or something, so if there is mo relief I no longer interested in doing that.

@electroBeam Nope, it's ligal in Russia and as far as I know in Mexico too.

Assume that I will have proper trip, not the hell stuff that will happen to me if I hold on, will it help?

What do you mean?

I want to overcome my shyness, but I don't what to do, so let's start with this: if you were shy and now don't how do you think you overcame it?

Hopefuly it is so, but eventually the only way to know is take the substance.

The problem is that everything we do goes in sense backwards. I have to think to go somewhere before I actually do it. Even if I get there, but have no intent to be there I simply will go somewhere else. So when I "meditate" I am waiting for magic, because I have no idea what am I doing there. So I need something to measure am I doing it right.

@Prabhaker You can't meditate and 'wait for magic' simultaneously I meant here that I have no idea what I am doing. How does it relates to me? I even don't know how the result is looks like.

@Frogfucius Leo's videos like meditation and I am done?

I want to make a text blog about self-actualization. Basicly I simply want to share any of my thougths worth sharing. What platform should I choose?

Leo says that the assumption "I'm can be localized" is false. But how can I know that it's not true, if all I had is the body experinces only? Any phenomena is happening within the body, so how can I know that here is something else? Also, if if I am not this body, why do I am experincing me only? Why do I cannot see what you see?

No. I am not trying to do this on a "level of thougths" and literaly here is nothing, but my experience and it certainly feels like that I am here. If I am not only here but everywhere how can I know it?

@Saarah Basicly what are you telling me either "take on faith what says Leo" or "have an elightenment exerience, it will clarify everything" Whatever Leo says, true or not, it doesn't help take on faith anything. I totally agree with the second, but the problem is not what to do after an elightenment exerience, but how to get it first. Right now I consider a bit different possibility that may be I know about me only is not because "I" look on things, but because things looks on me. Kind a freak, but any ideas how can I check this out in first hand experience?

I have a post for this forum, but the problem is that I can't explain what I want properly. I've tryed to rewrite it many times, but still it's not that thing. So maybe some of you had the same problem and solve it, If so I want you to share it.

Let's take a dogma before we dig in. You can't help me become enlightened by talking to me. Let's say that it's not your bad. I just have complete disability to learn anything from others. Hence I have to discover every thing by myself. The core: How can you speed up the learning process as much as humanly possible without teaching me anything? Enlightenment looks like a thing which I can't learn from others, but at another hand I want to speed up the process.

I have a lot of experiences when i clearly saw that it's true, but nevertheless still when i encounter a situation when the map doesn't fit by logic i understand that it, but here is that intence feeling that i am write and something there is wrong. This is a bit duplication of this thread with more clarity, because the thread did work well.

I'm talking about this moment then the model doesn't fit and you start blaming that something is wrong with the thing. The point is that i have a situation debug(this is a process of finding error in a program), when i clearly know that is model doesn't fit - in 99.99% cases it's me and nothing wrong is there. But still the voice says that i am right and the computer is broken. This is weird because i have a lot of experiences when i was absolutely sure that something is wrong with programming language, when actually it is not. So every time when i encounter an error i know that it's i did something wrong by logic, but here is still this intense feeling that i am right and something is wrong there.

@Dummy when i was absolutely sure that programming language is wrong, when in fact it wasn't?

What is the thing we are trying to do? It looks like trying to equalize your perseption, like in music with equalizer we could remove the basses to listen what is going on at the high more clearly.

We have to do a combo. Just fucking one which concerning to everything. It has to be one or you not gonna make it, so you have to be very strategic. Let's take shyness for example. I can do something that makes me a bit less shy, but in three days the effect will pass away. Can I become shyless by doing that once in a week for a very long time? No, you can't. The problem is that you fall again and again into default state. This is like trying to get out of the earth by jumping for really long time. Yes, when you are jump you are closer to the goal, but you are fall into default state every time. It's not gonna work. So the only way to do that is not fall back into default state. This is a cool idea and i tryed(not with shyness, it doesn't matter what exactly i did), but i fall down into defaut state where I'm right now. Any ideas how to do this combo thing? It looks very cool, but just one mistake and you defeated. P.S forgive my english and messy explanation of the problem,

What if i just sit down and will try to discover who i am are without listen to any tutorial. Will it slow me down?

We can't see any contradictions in real life so we applyed this to our thoughts => contradictions do not exist so if thougths contradict, they are wrong. I can't see any mistake in it, but Leo says oppsite. Could anyone clarify that?

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