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Im my personal experience there is no good Iboga trips, they are either bad or half good half bad. Max dose is 0.6g of TA on 60kg body.

in my terms bad trip is what happened if you fuck up set and or setting. I don't mind the experience to be "bad", yet for me it didn't teach me anything, so I consider it bad. btw no sure if it's me or iboga tend to do this, but during probably all my trips on it I thought that there is no value in pleasure.

@JustinS what was the dose? was it a good trip? in my experience all my iboga trips are half good half bad.

@DoubleYou now imagine what a bad trip would be like)))

@herghly no idea, but in my personal experience the substance(or me) is very prone to bad trips. People report that bad iboga trip is way worse than say how bad it could get on mushrooms. The trip is 24-36 hours long and you could have problems with cardio.

Imagine a white screen. Do you see a white circle in the center? Now make it all black except for a circle in the center. The circle appears, but yet it was there before the black. In other words in order to have an experience of something, not only you need to have the thing you want to experience, but also the background on which the thing could be seen, in other words experience is difference and vise verse. But what is the background to sight? I can't see any, yet by this logic I only should be able to do so if I had the background, so what is it? PS btw I am not here to preach you, this is more kind of a question: I tell you what I got and you react to it and I learn something from your reaction.

Can't figure out whether am I orange or yellow. I deliberately don't give you any info about me, because I don't know what relevant.

@Sashaj yeah I seem to be orange, but what if I would be yellow, what the answers would be like?

I guess, I like spirtuality, but I hate when someone aping it. I ape it, and it's pathetic, well at least I know that I am ain't shit. How do I know that their practices are bullshit? I don't. I am just assuming that, and I can't check because in order to do so I have to be more developed than them and I don't. I don't, I actually don't understand what you mean. Do you mean when people talk emotionally? I feel nothing about it, if someone could be vulnarable in public I respect that, cuz I can't do that myself. I feel nothing about it as long as they don't try to force me into it. No problem there. 23 ahah quite the opposite

Could you give me some examples, I will react and you will tell.

@martins name To looks like absolutely not. Is the typical left nowadays is blue? I was a lot of that kinda vibe.

@MrDmitriiV >Take the test. Almost all yellow humans will get a form of "Architect". I had a better idea, I took the second time, but now I not answer what I am, but as what I want to be. I ended up as a COMMANDER.

@MrDmitriiV LOL because I don't like it

yes to me I look like a jar with grains of every stage, not equaly of course, the lesser I have is the turquoise) I used to be a huge communist supporter, who viewed capitalism as a form of a criminal organisation, if that count. Now I my pet theory is libertarianism. I ended up as a MEDIATOR, so what I am green now)?

One has a blog and teachs just as Leo does, but the purpose is not to teach someone. The purpose is feedback. Tell what's wrong with the teachings, so they will be refined, so someone could actually benifit from them. I actually made alrealy one and I want to know if there is any point in doing so. (hope Leo won't ban me, cuz it's an invitaion basically) It's rather not a blog, but type of asking questions.

@aurum sure - Thoughts are not in my head because "Thoughts are in the head" is just another thought. - Whether something is real or not could be distinguished by "realness" of the experience. For example sight must be real because the experience is bright and steady, and "pictures the in head" are not real because they are dim and flashy. But actually it's not the case. You can't think something is not real, even though the experience has exact same "brightness" as real experience. Take a mirror and ask: "Does the room exist in the mirror?" The room in the mirror does not feel real even though is look exactly the same is the real room.

Until last night I had been using iboga for 4 days straight. dosage by days: 1.8g 1.11g 2.22g 6g All the trips were bad, but I could handle it, so ye feels like absolute shit, but I was hoping that I could learn something from it. The last trip was really bad, I definitelly take a break from psychedelics at least for a year, I stared to the face of death for 12 hours, and even the experience were for like 1 min and were hundreds time worse. I was up for 45 hours(24(trip) + 12(before the attack) + 9(after the attack)) After 36 hours I tried to get some sleep. I lie in bed, trying to sleep, I don't really wanted to, but I needed it to reset myself and like one hour in bed it happened. It started with low entensity and then it exploded exponentially. Just when it hited me I realize that it's way more than I am(in fact I think no one can handle it) able handle, so I started to think about killing myself to get rid of it and simultaniously freaking out that I don't have will power enough to do it, so I will have to experience it. Oddly enough my heart weren't racing at all, not even a little bit. I was also freaking out because it was way beyond I thought it possible to experience. The feeling wasn't pointing to anything. It wasn't like "I am afraid to die". Just terror/anxiety/fear(I cannot use the right word for it, it's very unique feeling) with no reason behind it. It didn't stopped by itself, I somehow understood if I lower my attention to it, it stops growing and it slowly started to decrease. After it happend I coulnd't sleep, because if I lie down I inevitably start to focus on emptyness, I realize if I continue, I will be there, so I have to stop. I talked to a couple of people about the experience, watched some stupid youtube vids to distract myself after 9 hours I took 2mg of Corvalolum and I finally get to sleep. I have no ptsd from what happened. The mind is very tricky, I am absolutelly calm, just like nothing happened. sry for rambling I am a shit writer, but sharing such experience has more value consider this a draft, maybe I will write some more. Does anyone knows what was it?

I think he meant that the mind construcsts things out of thin air and them treats that thing as though this is not a construction.

@egoless What you just described is the result of deception, my question was "what is self-deception?"

@aEOf What do you mean? I mean I can google about ibogaine I probably will encounter these. Are you just googling for myself or it somehow something I won't find on my own?

I want to do an ibogaine retreat. I am going to take small doses(2-3g in root bark) just to make me hallucinate slightly everyday for a month(or less depends on how it will going). I am not going to do any meditative technics. Just lie down let go of control and see what happens. I am doing this because I want to fix my social anxiety. Am I doing this right? I've never done this before so I've no idea about how effective this could be. My relatives are completely against that because they think that it is useless because I am doing this to avoid doing the job(fixing it through AA), and I am wonder if I am actually doing this just find a way to avoid doing the job. - As I said before I am doing this because of my social anxiety, but actually I am not doing it for any particular purpose. I simply could not know what do I need. So asking me "what do you wanna fix?" could be fatal.

@Joseph Maynor 4g of root bark. I am not sure if I was it "naive spirtuality" and I was deluded, but this is what happened. Think of an "I" that is making a picture. and inside that picture he draws several "I" who are drawing the same thing. You are one of these "I" who realized that he was drawn by someone else so you tell to "others" in your picture that we all drawn and you celebrating that, and at this point you become the creator of that particular "I" you was a few second are. Basicly the trip is just like you reading this text, except we don't realize that we are drawn and go to the upper "I". You don't go to the "untimate creator" just to a slightly above one". And this goes for like 4 hours. The trip goes for like 8 hours(in case if you wondering 10g would last 30 hours). This is vague description, I cannot be very persise about it. I simply not remember it well.

@Girzo but I am going to basicly take a threshold dose, I don't mean to flood.

This didn't happen to me at all when I did 2g(in root bark) before. 10g did. What was the dosage? Did you took all the dose all at once or partially serveral times?

Do you wanna hear the best athistic joke ever? This is a joke I heard from a hardcore atheist. - Do you know why when you die, you become closer to god? - Because when you die, you cease to exist.