Carlita

The beauty of the illusion, of ego, the intricate details of everythingness, blows my mind every time. At different times of the day, i forget all about it because my ego is back in the illusion. Sometimes i know it clear as Day! As soon as i start thinking or talking, i know nothing. I bounce in a out of knowing on a daily basis. Sometimes i catch my ego thinking silly thoughts, other times my thought say 'where did i go?' those are the good days i guess. Has my life changed in the 4 years of personal development? Yes! i was so asleep comfortable (or so i thought) i only knew about the duvet! So i changed in terms of realising there is more, I changed because i'm happier, or more to the point calmer. Sometimes i feel guilty for my egoistical wants and needs, but then, my ego reminds me that there is no me, and i feel better!

@Emerald @ The Diamond Net yes i have a few times, the first time, i couldn't stop crying! it was more like a joy cry, but i could feel everything, like every single thing. things within me, but also everything else. it was an over whelming experience and afterwards i just held onto my friend crying. It lasted for about 10 minutes.