Carlita

@Emerald @ The Diamond Net yes i have a few times, the first time, i couldn't stop crying! it was more like a joy cry, but i could feel everything, like every single thing. things within me, but also everything else. it was an over whelming experience and afterwards i just held onto my friend crying. It lasted for about 10 minutes.

The beauty of the illusion, of ego, the intricate details of everythingness, blows my mind every time. At different times of the day, i forget all about it because my ego is back in the illusion. Sometimes i know it clear as Day! As soon as i start thinking or talking, i know nothing. I bounce in a out of knowing on a daily basis. Sometimes i catch my ego thinking silly thoughts, other times my thought say 'where did i go?' those are the good days i guess. Has my life changed in the 4 years of personal development? Yes! i was so asleep comfortable (or so i thought) i only knew about the duvet! So i changed in terms of realising there is more, I changed because i'm happier, or more to the point calmer. Sometimes i feel guilty for my egoistical wants and needs, but then, my ego reminds me that there is no me, and i feel better!