@Esoteric yeah it is a quick relief, I agree, it creates a false peace for a short time, but I can't be deluded by it, as everything still comes up each second, just the emotional reaction is a bit milder. And I intuitively sense that this numbing can only damage the process, if there's any..
I also know that I should let go, but as soon as I have an intention to let go and surrender, mind starts making stories and comments about this "letting go" and "surrendering", then I try to let even that go, and so on.. constant anxiety loop.
I just want to ask, what do you exactly mean by it "stopping"? I mean, what can be the outcome of it stopping? Like, then what...?