Sukhpaal

Hey everyone, I've noticed that when I get into deep self-inquiry and cannot locate who I am, I feel a sensation running through my whole body almost as if it was trying to jump out of my body literally. It is like energy trying to get out, and then it stops when it hits its peak. Then I come back down to my normal state of awareness. Does anyone else ever feel that or know what it is?

Hello all. I have been on and off with practicing personal development for years. I used to be able to meditate for 20 minutes a day, now I can barely stand 3 minutes. I have been practicing non-duality since 2016 but I have wasted around 4-5 years back sliding and going through life unconsciously. I try to build habits slowly, but still eventually fail and fall back into old habits. I find it odd because I've had a few enlightenment experiences, including one on LSD but I can't even get close to how conscious I used to be. I'm tired of knowing what I want to pursue in life (consciousness work) but am unable to maintain habits after a few months of practice. I've watched Leo's homeostasis video, and have a strong theoretical background as I've read many non-duality books and watched videos--but in practice, I can do only 0.1% of it. Any tips? Thank you all.

I like both theories, second one feels like a big possibility. Thanks for your input, its nice to come to the forum and hear out more experienced people speak on the topic!

Hello, I've been practicing Kriya Yoga for only a few weeks. However, I've noticed some noticeable benefits, I noticed I don't want to consume porn or masturbate nearly as much as I use to. Did anyone else go through this, is it temporary or does it last? I'm not complaining at all, was just curious if anyone else went through this as well. Thanks, Sukh

Severe anger issues Manipulative Judging Gossip Trying to push other people to grow in a toxic way, ignoring my own journey many more that don’t come to mind right now

I found mine through volunteering, try finding an area you may be interested in then volunteer in it. Most convenient way of finding which work place you want to spend your life in.

For me personally, I volunteered in multiple places. The places I enjoyed volunteering the most, I of course was also successful at them. Then I reflected, how was I successful in those experiences? I observed what came up. For example, I volunteered as a teaching assistant. Through that, I found I am very skilled with children, communication, assisting others, expression, leading by example, etc. Try it out! Good luck, its a process.

One tip; never ask questions that can be answered with a yes or no. Always ask open ended questions, and try to relate to them.

Thank you everyone for your input, it is greatly appreciated. I stopped doing kriya yoga 3 days ago hopefully I get better. @korbes I am currently on vacation in India, I’ll go back home to Canada later this week and I’ll double check the book and let you know which exercises I am doing.

@Salvijus Well whatever it is, it is driving me crazy literally. I’m scared I’m gonna be like this forever

@nistake possibly, I feel the dark side of meditation video applies moreso. If I keep doing Kriya Yoga I feel almost sure that I will harm myself. Maybe as an ego I am way too immature at the moment to take on Kriya Yoga

@nistake I’ve had issues with depression but nothing like this. I’ve lost all meaning in life it kinda feels like dark night of the soul in a sense. Everything feels like it has no meaning and therefor I feel like its just never ending suffering, I’ve even had very strange day dreaming which I could never had imagined

@Salvijus thanks, I too think I’m not ready. @OmniYoga Just the first 4-5 exercises they teach and Kriya Pranama, my practice is around 13 minutes. My life is just getting out of hand, I can’t make sense of a lot of things anymore. Its becoming hard to even function without losing my mind. I think I bite off more than I can chew.

I’ve been doing Kriya Yoga for 3 months every morning and it was nice at the beginning but now it’s getting scary. At first, I started having out of body experiences, I was having mystical experiences basically everyday for a few weeks. But then everything fell apart. Lately I’ve been having extreme suicidal thoughts, hyper horniness, hyper anger, and just dark thoughts. Has anyone else here experienced anything like this? I’m thinking of taking a break because this is too much.

@DrewNows For me, I noticed I've always chased relationships. I always made sure the girl was super attractive so I could have other people envy me. This gave me a sense of power and status. Similar to how rich people show off their wealth through cars and houses, I showed my status off through my girlfriend. I also would manipulate the girl I was dating so I could have power over her. I loved having power over my partners, and when I got bored of it, I'd dump the girlfriend and go chase another one to repeat the cycle.