@Lynnel
I have been in a similar position too (and still am in some measure).
What I've learned reading the book Ask and It Is Given: Learning to Manifest Your Desires by Esther Hicks is that we as human beings tend to cultivate a state of resistance to new both good&bad things in order to maintain homeostasis. This inner resistance prevents us from receiving things. Otherwise speaking our vibration when being in this negative state does not match the frequency of our desires (wealth, health, good relationships, etc).
One (of the many, I guess) solution to your issue is to naturally allow things coming to your life without trying to block things and events with a repulsive state of mind. If you don't (or haven't) read the above mentioned book just google "The art of Allowing" for more details.
Besides, there is no shame in having success, my friend.