@Benoit Jazy Those past 2 years were (and currently is) really stressful. I would say the reason may be:
*An unpleasant (for me) situation in my family - my ideas and thoughts and actions really confronts with my family's ideas so I tend do hold everything inside
*The consant feeling that I'm failing myself
*Can't really do what I wanted to do (because of the family)
*Consant comparisons between myself and "others" (I find it hard to fight it)
*A fear of becoming as closed-minded as my family is
I should add that it became depressing once I started to open my mind to new things and now I'm struggling to maintain my mindset.
