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You carry all the lessons and wisdom from the stages you transcended, ey. I think there are some key points that are overlooked quite often regarding this. This might clear up some common confusions, in case I am right about it. -The amount of time you spent and the effort you put in while being in a stage will influence how much juice you will milk out of it. (duh) -Ego,Shadow and repressed material that you picked up will also have an impact on this. (duh- but lets not talk about it, it hurts) -Transcend and include is very rare while moving trough T1. Transcend and repress seems like the norm to me. (might be) So taking this in mind while creating an imaginary RPG world scenario. Player 1 might have: -4 years in orange. -did shit tons of self work, nutrition, fitness, career, psychology -transcended and included a lot of healthy blue and red. -realized there was smt more to life at some point. -slowly got and spent 1.5 years in green -screwed around with some new and cool concepts there -was amazed with all this new world -learned new things, but did not put much effort -did not repress his previous orange -a new crisis came, something clicked -gathered his points and got to yellow. Player 2 might have: -2 years in orange -did not do to much self work, was a toxic materialist -transcended, repressed and judged stage blue -a friend gave him acid once -his world fell apart -gathered his shit and started working in green. -transcended and repressed stage orange. -spent 4 years in green. -did ACAB activism. -realized its not going anywhere -did deep and dedicated healing work -got to yellow. P1 - stats blue: 8/10 orange: 9/10 green : 5/10 P2 - stats blue: 5/10 - thanks to shadow/healing work at green orange: 6/10 - thanks to shadow/healing work at green green: 9/10 You do not have to have all your stats 10/10 in order to be T2, when you get in T2, you will still need to do lower stage integration and learning. This may be misapplied integral theory, so take it with reserve. This is just me thinking loudly Hope it helps And btw, welcome

@The Lucid Dreamer Got couple of questions on mind fellow psychonaut. My questions are: -Do you have any experience with astral projection, or are you focused exclusively on lucid dreaming. -If so, how do you even distinguish between them ? (The thing is, I had a couple of spontaneous of these experiences and I never got to know what was an astral projection and what a lucid dream. ) -If able to, do you find it more efficient to go into a lucid dream and convert it into projection. (I've heard people doing this, not sure if it is a shortcut, or if it is energy waste, aside from trying to convert an already occurring spontaneous experience ) -Do you know of any legit supplements ?

@Emerald Hoy. What are the next key lessons I need to learn ? Btw its a fun self-exploratory thing. I don't think folk around here is taking it way too literally and giving away their power. I see tarot as a deck of mirrors. The interpreter just helps you do your self inquiry. Its more like a therapist than an oracle.

Nice work guys, had a good time These also deserve to be here.

@remember Man, whats that deck name ?

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Its alright. I don't think it is at odds with what we are doing. I'try to clear it up the terminology of what he is saying a bit, with some extra spices of mine. I've been exploring this level of being quite a bit, so I think I might have something valuable to say. By happiness he most probably means: - Pleasure, instant, even delayed. - A constant state of comfort and joy. Its the rat in the wheel. A cat chasing its own tail. Its what 99% of people pursue. By suffering and sacrifice : (with some extra spice, it also is not a coincidence they are used in pair) -Suffering - the states of absence of pleasure, comfort or joy. -Suffering - the urge and the will to hold on to known comforts. -Sacrifice - deliberately letting go in order to transform. -There is no gold at the bottom of the ocean. There is gold and a kraken. -There is no gold in the darkness of the cave, there is gold and a dragon. -Something valuable in the midst of the dark, protected by unknown chaotic wisdom. Accept that there will be suffering, accept that you will sacrifice and that that is the way to grow. You can not change and remain the same at the same time. Something will have to go, and you will want to hold on to it. Even when you transform and lets say let go, you will find ways to hold on to those new things, a new transformation will be on its way, you will yet again hold on before letting go and transforming. Point is, do not avoid suffering and sacrifice. Embrace and own them. Most of what seeking happiness is the fear of these states. Seeking happiness will create suffering, disowned suffering, lurking beneath the surface, eating one away. To folk interested in astrology this is Neptune and Pisces, it is the gateway to Pluto, The guardian is Neptune, the gate is Pluto, to tarot folk its the Hanged Man. The archetype of Jesus on the cross, or even better Odin on Yggdrasil. I know that I hung upon a windy tree for nine whole nights, wounded with a spear and given to Othinn, myself to myself for me; on that tree I knew nothing of what kind of roots it came from. I did add and interpret things ofc. But I am sure if Elliot read this he would nod in agreement. Also I might not be there yet, but what I've seen Happiness is, is the radical acceptance of Love, and Love is everything, its the master emotion, one where-from everything originates, it contains everything, its not pleasure, its not Joy, its everything.

This may be a stupid idea, but here it is. If there is a way for him to stream on his website... while being able to link the users with their forum accounts, that would be great. If anyone is there to monkey around, perma IP ban. And there you go. This is far more difficult to do with you-tube or twitch. You can't moderate thousands of accounts, even with AI, its better if the creation of those accounts is in his hands and that will be on his website or the forum. This will also lead people directly here, instead of youtube. Simple 1 hour QnA streams might do. Sometimes it is difficult for people to read of what Leo means when he does a 3-5 word replies on the forum. No voice, no face, you've seen it.

Mostly neutrally. Plus some added neat bonuses. -It outsources my excuses to go outside for minor reasons. -Big food stocks clear up a lot of mental baggage regarding nutrition. -Toxic internet environment made me hook off from social media. -Daily workout/nutrition habits are easier and way more desirable to maintain. -Meditation and other spiritual practices are easier to maintain, plus there is more time for more of them. -My apartment is cleaner than a baby ass. -More time for reading. -More love and focused time on the art/music project I am doing. I am loving this. Pickard - Damage report!! -PC repairs have been delayed quite significantly and is affecting my income, found a semi-replacement, I'll make it. -Insufficient psychedelics, insufficient tegridy weed. -Chillin around with some very potent alcohol. The idea of me going somewhere away, isolated from the city, stocking up and doing my work/s, while going out once/twice a month for a restock, or for some trance/goa, dnb/neuro or metal show/festival started to grow on me.

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@Preety_India Alright, you know best, just be careful. This is how I have deceived myself in the past, beat myself up over things, not admit it and play though and in control. Most people wont admit this, especially while they are going trough it. Its just a friendly reminder, I am not claiming anything.

Alright, good luck. This might lead a way

It is, but it is also a gate to blue and even red.

Yea... this is what I was worrying about. Its rock bottom. I think you did well. Good luck with it.. Just be careful not to hoard any anger,guilt ....and all that stuff. Its best to express it and work trough it. I know you know this, its just a friendly reminder. Times can get dark and muddy.

Try out the Orbot app on your phone, you can route apps trough Tor there, it also has bridges option. Its free and open-source.

I can understand him, he is in very dark place right now, trying to get hold of anything he can regarding this relationship, the thing is, its not going to work and it will even make it worse, it drips like water trough his fingers, there is a lot of pain connected to it, the ego can't handle it, it will do anything, blame, project, play victim, play - the above, bait, anything to assure this attachment persists, severing of this connection causes pain, and he tries to establish new connections any way he can, mental, emotional it does not matter. How can I relate to it ? Because I did the same in the past, it all sounds way too familiar. It was actually what got me into personal development,act.org and into stage orange. It was a damn heavy chain Tower moment. One where your relationship breaks, your career breaks, your hobbies, health, everything.... and the last question you would be asking is - do I kill myself and end it all, everything around me is pure unknown and chaos anyway. Luckily there was voice that said - you start from what you know, learn, grow, you've been trough hard times, you'll make it out again. Not everyone will have this voice or more likely listen to it, when the thing hits you, dark portals will open up, leading you to a bottomless pit, baiting you to make that "wrong" choice. Suddenly weird things will become reasonable. You yourself may be the last pillar of light there is for you. My point with this is, when you will cut him off, it will be the peak of the Tower moment for him, it will all become black. So I think it would be honorable to cut him off at least in a loving and understanding way, so there would be light at the end of the pitch black as he falls. You don't have to, you are not obligated ofc, but it is honorable. It will also help with reducing the chance that he will see you as someone against him, which can turn later into - the whole world is against me, which can turn into - let me make this weird dark choice that may also include you. All this may be an overkill, but still it is worth having it on mind. Tell him that it is final and that you are not replying any more and commit to it. These would be my thoughts/advice. Honor yourself, honor the "other", tell the truth, bow, turn away, start walking, accept whatever may from that interaction. That is what I would do. I wish you well too. Just wrote this in this spirit so you may understand better regarding what may be happening with him.

Ah, damn, this whole thing may last for long. Try going to a fitness-supplement shop and buy couple of bags of protein. You can have about 30 shakes/small meals per kilo, you can cook with it too, people aren't going to the gym now and regular folk will overlook it, it also might be on sale because of this reason. Other than that, if there are any stores that do delivery around you go for it.. As a last resort I would do a quick research and find the nearest market dense area, protect myself well, get a big backpack, avoid crowds and head there.

I use labradoride combined with a clear quartz cluster for a lot my of work, including healing work. I like to approach it from the point of transformation . Here are my doggies.

Yeah, I usually click the "blog" button that is up here on the forum to go to the main site. And on the main site there is a "forum" button. ts linked well I'd say. Btw It would be so amazing if there were an android app for the forum

@Applegarden Nice axes man! @modmyth You remind me of Teal Swan,

WhoOOO!! Disturbs !!!! I forgive you for your trespassing. And I will grant thee my eternal knowledge of tag deletion. It is..... .... one heroic toke of Changa. For the machines, its press and hold the backspace key, it just works. Maybe something got stuck in your case, duno, I didn't want to be deleted I guess. Its natural

Neat!, I love the guy. I've only seen him on rebel wisdom so far.

Woah this was an amazing ride. Channeling starts at about 24m in, but still the first biographical part is worth watching. This is the YT channel bellow, more long, 2 hourish channeling videos there. https://www.youtube.com/user/themooreshowofficial/videos Enjoy!

FitNotes is amazing for tracking workouts and other measurements. It is super easy to use and has almost no unnecessary clutter. Generates different graphs and charts where you can visualize your progress. Its free and ad free ....... damn I love charts ...

It sounds like old school norwegian black metal band story. Tolkien was a master at capturing these archetypal stories, a lot of human wisdom in them. Reading the works of Jung and Campbell, along with x10 marathons of LOTR is a valid spiritual retreat.