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Balance

MEMENTO.

Staying conscious, focusing on love and understanding, being honest with myself, forgiving myself when I fail, wisdom.

At stage 10 you see reality for what it is and understand it. It's not that reality becomes magical, it's that the magic of reality becomes obvious. You can't imagine enlightenment, you can only be it.

I've shared Leo's videos with many people, and many people aren't ready for the material. At first, I was surprised, and I would pressure people to give it more of a chance; but then I realized, if people aren't ready, then people aren't ready... you can't force it. That being said, there are also lots of people out there who are ready, but haven't found the right teacher, and that's why I continue to spread the wisdom of Actualized.org with people I meet, because I know there are people out there that are ready, and I've met and befriended many of them also. It's not necessarily important how big the channel is though, what's more important is that the channel exists, and that there are lots of people who vibe with it. That's a good sign. The people who vibe with Leo now will be the leaders of the future.

Always remind yourself of the things she does for you, and the gratitude you have for her. This can help you look past the things about her that bother you. However, that being said, don't let her stunt your growth, either. Just because she is your mother, you still don't need to attach yourself to what she thinks of you. If you were younger, say 10 or 11, it would be a little different, but if you're 18, you're old enough to make your own decisions. If she truly loves you, she won't force you to do anything, because she'll recognize that you have to figure things out yourself at this point. She probably loves you anyway, but if she's still forcing you to do things, she might not be a very conscious parent. The best way to get her to relax, is to be relaxed yourself. She might be addicted or in the habit of attracting / creating hectic, chaotic, negative, argumentative energy. When you notice her trying to start a battle with you, don't react to it. Instead, stay calm, talk with poise and tranquility, stay true to yourself, don't let your ego try to be loud or right or judgmental. Recognize her unconscious mind patterns and see them with compassion. She's your mother after all, so you ought to love her, even when you disagree with her actions. And if she recognizes that love (which she probably will; if she doesn't then I would just move on from her, which is sad because she's your mother but luckily there are many other people out there) then she will calm down. My mother was overprotective, but when I showed her that I'm intelligent and responsible, and when I stood my ground, she eventually realized that I’m an autonomous adult and gave up trying to control me.

It's a video depicting Plato's Allegory of the Cave

Great question. A truly developed person is both extremely complex and extremely simple. You could say, in some sense, they’ve mastered both sides of the spectrum, both yin and yang; they’ve gone full circle in the cycle of growth. They do everything to help the world, because they recognize that the world around them is them, and by helping it, they help themselves; BUT they aren’t attached to the outcome of the world around them because they recognize that if they are true to themselves, nothing outside their self can threaten them. In other words, they plan for the worst and hope for the best; but, either way, they’re chillin’. A developed person lives a balanced life, lives in moderation; but also lives moderately in moderation, and isn’t afraid to the extremes when necessary. A developed person simultaneously sees reality for what it is, and is a visionary at heart with a vivid imagination for a beautiful future. The developed person learns from the past but doesn't dwell on it. The developed person looks toward the future but doesn’t wish to be there, because they (almost) always consciously live in the present, and rest in its infinite beauty and understanding and love. I could go on for ages, but you get the gist

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That's awesome that you wanna be a conscious rapper. I used to think that the 9 to 5 and family lifestyle was empty, but recently I realized that the work you do to contribute to your community and the family you build are two of the most important things, and there are good reasons why everyone works from 9 to 5 and chills on the weekends, because we're working together as a society. And if you find a career that interests you and gives you purpose, then having a stable job isn't so bad. That doesn't mean you should give up on your artistic dreams though. Just don't assume that every alternative is bad. Based on your talents and observations about the world, I'd say you're on a very good path to happiness and success. I'd suggest continuing to work on yourself, grow and develop, and also continuing to practice the skills you think you might need (writing, rapping, philosophizing, interacting with young-ins, etcetera) to pursue what you love and change the world.

Yeah, don't isolate yourself too much if it doesn't feel right. Living alone in a cave isn't for everyone. I've tried longterm isolation, it sucks. Idk how they do it. I've also gotten lost in "forcing" myself to do things for the sake of "spirituality." Then I realized I was just being neurotic. True spirituality is often the path of least resistance.

You never stop doing theory and only practice. It's a constant balance. But there is "wasteful" theory. Arm-chair philosophy type stuff. It's okay to ask yourself: "Am I spending too much time on theory?" BUT spending too much time thinking about whether or not you're spending too much time on theory IS THEORY... so don't get caught up in that. I've been there lol.

Analyze it a little though, don't suppress it by ignoring it. Get to the source of it and resolve it so it doesn't linger.

Let go of things needing to be perfect. A little analyzing is okay, because it keeps you sharp; but, like you said, too much is a headache. Also, don't let small things like that distract you. Once you've sent the email, or whatever it is, accept that you did the best you could, and move your focus to something else. You'll be more productive and efficient that way.

You gotta push yourself to be more expressive around other people, or at least more receptive. Listen to others, and when you feel like you have something to say, say it! If nothing to say comes to mind, then at least give them your full attention, without worrying what they're thinking of you. Worrying about what other people are thinking of you only makes interaction less productive. People want your attention, so give it to them, and they'll love you for it.