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I experience homelessness for the past 8 months. I would like to share some insights about the whole learning experience: First of all , let's talk about people. As Leo has stated, we indeed live in the Dark Ages of Consciousness and Spiritual Development: I have not yet met a person in close, that i would regard as high quality. (Not to mention about Awake) People simply don't have the luxury to care about you. It would impair their ability to survive.. Also, most people will try to determine your worth, put it in a box, and then try to put you inside that box. You have to say no sometimes to their limitations and ideas about you. You have to constantly face their stupidity and lack of Consciousness. Also you realize that , death is natural. And it's okay to die. All your ideas about how life should be, or Unfold, or look like get demolished and Crushed.

@Spiritual Warrior You assume that i am in a rut, when i am already doing my best. Meditating, attending NA meetings, taking calculated risks, etc. But noone is really helping me. So it's a lot harder. Just to go out and find a job is a real challenge because you have to be clean , shaved , and with a belly full of food.

@JosephKnecht Lol . When did they teach you about Death, low consciousness and Survival in grade school mate? You are funny.

@JosephKnecht You are talking non sense. Born in Moldova. Poorest country of EU.

All the suffering i experience, is mostly located, in my throat area. Despite having practiced Meditation few years now, i found myself Suffering a lot.. At first i was like WTF : "This Eckhart Tolle guy must be full of crap. Because i don't actively think, but yet i still keep suffering" But lately, somehow i managed to relax the painful contractions (suffering) in my throat and now i feel much bettter. I realised that somehow, everytime i experienced something "negative", i was contracting in my throat area, despite having not many thoughts.. What has helped me also is Peter Ralston saying "Your mind doesn't have a Mind of its Own. You are DOING your Mind". This helped me because i was stuck in a victim mentality, because of the Truth of no free will..

@PenguinPablo Thank you

@Santiago Ram I like this. Remind of this great video:

@PenguinPablo Currently i don't have much time. Can you give me some technique though?

@Wilhelm44 Thank you brother

@Wilhelm44 That's actually pretty accurate. I suffer from mild stuttering. When i was younger, it was much much worse. Being told, you are worthless over and over again by parents & society didn't help much with my confidence growing up. But now, i am doing better

@Yimpa Inspire me for what purposes?

I remember Leo saying: "you assume, you can reach crazy levels of Consciousness, while mainting , your sanity". And i was WTF . This makes no sense. But in my recent LSA trip, i experienced a state of Consciousness, where my mind, began questioning things, that most humans never question.. Am i really gonna die? Is Pain and Suffering really that bad? Do others really exist? Am i all alone? Am i fooling myself into believing others exist separate from me? And many more such questions.. The mind doesn't wanna go there.. Thankfully, i didn't react negatively to these difficult thoughts, and it was quite pleasurable too (besides a little bit disturbing). This is where true Spirituality begins. When you finally see clearly, that you don't know what the crap is going on, but yet insist on believing a bunch of crap for comfort purposes. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=2u5M6tDc5TE&t=6109s&pp=ygUiYWN0dWFsaXplZCBzdGF0ZXMgb2YgY29uc2Npb3VzbmVzcw%3D%3D

@Yimpa Thanks

I took 4 capsules of good LSA powder, spread out, throughout the day. Because of karma, i get this strong desire to have sex, while being on a higher, more godlike, plane of Consciousness. I go downtown , to the worst places of Athens, have sex 3 times with prostitutes, and then return "home". I did not enjoy the prostitutes experience because there was impossible to find a decent brothel, without filthy cigarrete smoke. And also the prostitutes are so low-level and undisciplines that they manage to destroy your mood 99% of the time. Because you supposedly can stay in the room and have sex for 10 minutes , but after 4 minutes they start complaining that you need to hurry.. When i returned home, i remember sitting still on a nice place , in the woods, and all sense of me completely evaporated. There was no 'me' left. It was all gone. And it was such a relief. I wish i could have stayed in that state of Consciousness longer. Overall the trip was incredible, but i feel bad now for wasting 80% of my trip, on stupid, low-level drives. (But what you do?) Also, after some time, i began feeling some pressure and discomfort in my heart. Not too significant though. If i had stayed in the woods, overall the experience would be much better. Live and learn.

Hell is not some place you go, when your body dies. Hell, is where you are born. Born into a body that is always changing (for the worse after some period of time). Born into a world, where the average person is more stupid and unconscious than a doorknob. Born into a world, where power, money, status and women is given to the worst of the worst. (Genghis Khan, Donald Trump, Cartel Bosses, etc). Born into a world where nobody truly understands you, and in most cases doesn't care much about you. Born into a world , where the only thing that matters is brute , animalistic survival and everything else is considered nonsense. Born into a world, where everything around you, is filled with toxic pollution and chemicals. Born into a world where all your spiritual gurus and teachers are hypocrites to some degree or another. Because they talk about peace, meanwhile they have a super privileged life, where they are teaching people , having sex, earning money. Born into a world, where none of your so called 'achievements' truly mean anything. Born into a world, where most of your aspirations and illusions about life, eventually get decimated and crushed. Born into a world, where you have zero free will, yet people keep giving you nonsesical advices that do zero to help you. Born into a world where you never quite get what you want, but even when you do, its fleeting and leaves you empty and wanting for more. Welcome to Hell. Enjoy your time here. It won't last very long.( I promise you that)

@Lyubov Say that to a poor person in Mexico, who is getting his feet and head chopped off, while some psychopaths, record the whole 'miracle'. Yea it's a miracle. But it's not that great of a miracle for lots of people on the planet, right now.

You are not spititual. You just have good enough circumstances.

@Lyubov You are probably a privileged white young person , living in some of the top top places in the world, who hasn't yet been hit hard by life.

@PurpleTree Problem is not the duality per say.. Problem is that the suffering is 95% of the time, whereas peace is only 5% of the time. Why it has to be that most of the time we feel crappy, i don't know.

A lot of people get confused at to why there is rape, incest, beheadings and all these 'nice' things all throughout history. The first usual response is : " Oh that person be evil, that's why". This is a very crude, low-level response, which does not explain anything as why that person is evil. Even though many people seem to be okay with that kind of an explanation, lol. The reason people are evil is because we are all animals. This us vs them distinction we have created : "Over here we are, the humans, and all the other creatures are animals" is a false distinction. Isn't it funny that all the people who act all nice and good, usually have money sitting in the bank, a fridge full of food, good past experiences, and etc? The reason we are animals is because we have to automatically satisfy urges and drives. And there is no escaping this Law of cause and effect (or otherwise called no-free will), no matter how awake you are. I guess there are some very very very very rare exceptions , like Ramana Maharshi who seemed to have overcome his humaness permanently.. Bottom line is that if you were thrown into an island forever and left there alongside with a beautiful woman, you never know what you might and won't do under a lot of stress and a lot of need, lol.

@ExploringReality Nice. The problem is , these drives can't be really be neglected, even if you wanted to. You will just run yourself mad, if you try to neglect them, lol.

Is philosophy a waste of life? Key arguement is: you can forever keep trying to solve problems inside your mind.

The bottom line in almost every subject we discuss is : There is absolutely no free-will at all. Even Leo, seems to be missing that some times. You are not free to become succesfull. You are not free stop being a hippie or a 'bum'. You didn't earn your success. Only reason you're succesful is because you were 'lucky'. You don't deserve to be treated better than others , no matter who you are.

The social conditioning we get from everywhere around us, since birth is: "push harder, do more, etc". But this approach doesn't work many times. Pushing your opinions to people doesn't work. Pushing others to agree with you doesn't work. Pushing the opposite sex to love you, doesn't work. Pushing your happiness and succcess to materialize doesn't work. I found these last few months, that i've gained a deeper sense of peace and serenity despite all the chaos and destruction around me. I feel a lot less stressed , even though im in a challenging situation in life.. What i've found is that the reason people push is because they believe too much in their 'stupid' ego-mind program and Cannot let the Divine run the show. What does letting the Divine run the show? Nobody can't really answer that for you.

@Leo Gura Ok.. What about people like Eckhart Tolle who are ultra succesful, without having destroyed their bodies in the process? Peace and success can be combined (maybe). Also, what about reward based learning? The only reason , someone works hard , is because they get a good, strong reward out of it. It's not that miserable after all.