SQAAD

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  1. I take 4 capsules of this supplement a day. I've been taking it close to 2 weeks now. Initilally i began taking 1 capsule per day. But due to tolerance i increased the dose. This supplement is one ot the few that makes me feel good. It just makes you feel good. That's it. I really like it. Has anyone taken it before? Am i taking too much? Check the labels on the pictures below, if you like.
  2. Hello. Im facing homelessness the last 6 months. Got kicked out by my family without a warning. Anyways, ive managed to survive and even find a job. But currently i am not working. Mainly because most jobs here are super toxic and not worth it. For example, i went for a job interview at a kiosk nearby. The owner wanted to hire me. But the car pollution at that spot was scary.. The owner also was a smoker. Nowadays i survive on the food i get from a church. Which is just one meal and most times its just some type of carbohydrate with a bunch of oil. I have some skills and could work. But its not easy . These jobs are occupied by people who know people, who know people, etc. I dont know what to do anymore. Im really getting tired..
  3. If someone is intereated, send me message.
  4. @Dan502 "Apparent and trivial health concerns"? What are you smoking bro?
  5. @Thought Art Nope. Ruining your health for any amount of money is not fine in most situations. Lol
  6. @UnbornTao Nope its not irrelavant at all.
  7. Owner of the kiosk got his spleen removed because of his toxic work environment. Yet people encourage me to destroy my health for a few bucks. I stayed in that kiosk for 2 hours and i felt toxic like i was getting cancer afterwards. Im surprised by some of the comments here..
  8. @Princess Arabia You are talking non sense.
  9. @UnbornTao You just assume its a theory. There is not a sense of you. Only thoughts and sensations appearing.
  10. @Buck Edwards I dont feel like failing. Especially when there is not a you doing anything.
  11. @Applegarden8 Yea im gonna ruin my health for a few bucks. Brilliant!!
  12. I was watching this video and noticed that Robert Sapolsky could not stop himself from making some very non-scientific claims such as that depressed people see Reality for what it is because they can't rationalize it away, that it's all Random and that there is no God. I don't like watching him because he is very sure about his materialism but i find the subject of free will very interesting. After watching his content, i always feel sad and threatened metaphysically but it passes. Also the host of this video was very sure that we are just having a biological experience, lol. Any thoughts about Robert Sapolsky and how should i navigate all of this?
  13. This is the episode that gave me the biggest scare, shock and upset in my life. Few months ago , every day that i was about to sleep i was experiencing an existential terror for the 1st time in my life. Because i had certain very gore images in my head (of decapitations and sh*t i've watched in the past). Just imagining experiencing some of that sh*t make me shiver Nowadays this understanding doesn't scare me that much. I mean i am very functional with no problems. But.. still in the back of my mind i don't want to experience many many many many many many things and i am quite terrified. (Most of the time i don't feel scared though). I believe that people don't really talk about this issue how to cope with it. Any advice would be appreciated. I would like to know how do other people deal with this issue.
  14. Lately i have been making changes in my life but it's incredibly difficult because i experience heavy and very scary ego backlashes.. Please give me some advice how to navigate all this stuff.. because there are moments where i am quite terrified by this whole process.. Thanks a lot.
  15. Do psychedelics put strain on the body if used appropriately?? I have been using psychedelics for the past 5-6 years with no issues thus far. Mainly mushroooms and now i finally got my hand on some pretty powerful LSD. The magic mushrooms are definietely very benign & well-tolerated and do not cause strain on my body i feel. I prefer to take magic mushrooms over alchohol every day of the week. I feel it's very easy on the body. With the LSD i have some mixed results and nothing conclusive so far. It's definitely very strong and can elevate your stress hormones too much if you are not careful. The man in the video below says that psychedelics open channels that should not be open all the time. Also he says that he took San Pedro and it strained his system, causing his to have worse eyesight.. I don't know what to make of all this. I just wanna keep exploring psychedelics because i am very passionate about accessing different states of Consciousness. But at the same time i am terrified of causing irreversible damage to my body. I'm asking Leo specifically because he has massive experience with very strong psychedelics. I would love anyone's feedback on this topic who has massive experience as well. Thank you for the time.
  16. @James123 What were your symptoms? And what psychedelic specifically caused this?
  17. @OBEler I agree . I also believe that most psychedelics are pretty safe on the physical body. I don't see mushrooms or LSD at moderate doses causing any harm to the physical body.
  18. @Leo Gura Were your health issues caused by psychedelics? And if yes, which psychedelics strained your system the most? I remember you saying that you had taken to so much 5-meo-malt that it could kill a horse, implying that its pretty safe. I feel some psychedelics are safe on the physical body (not talking about psychological damage). Moderate amounts of magic mushrooms and LSD won't damage your physical body i feel.
  19. Leo you've claimed that you've accessed Alien Superhuman levels of Intelligence.. If an alien were vastly smarter than humans, it would be because they have a much more advanced brain with lots more neurons and connections. So, intelligence is based on biology. This is also why God/Infinite Intelligence must be formless/non-physical because if it had a form it would need to be infinite in order to be Infinitely Intelligent. But how could a psychedelic drug make you that much smarter when it just changes your neurotransmitters? Since it doesn't affect the number of neurons in your limited physical brain.
  20. Why does Leo call Reality Love? I think Being or Truth, or God is enough. Love implies that Reality is Loving itself or accepting itself. But that's not what i experience. I just experience Being. Or just reality. Or if you want to be more poetic you could say ''reality being itself''. I don't understand the actuality of Infinite Love. Leo says that God loves torture, rape , everything. But my interpretation is just that God is all those things. The Love part i don't get it yet.. If God was struggling to love something like torture and then eventually managing to do it in a second or two then i would understand the need of the word Love. Is Love just a way to poetically sugarcoat things and make ourselves feel better about the horrors of existence??
  21. For five years, I've been on a journey exploring spirituality. I used to not believe in anything beyond what science could explain, but then I found Leo & he talked about some really interesting ideas, like how there is not a 'self' controlling everything inside us. He also talked about using psychedelics to explore the mind and Reality. Trying mushrooms changed everything for me. It made me realize there's more to reality than just what materialism teaches.. I started meditating & tripping and having these amazing Enlightnment experiences, even connecting deeply with God a couple of times. But when I'm not in a spiritual state, I'm not sure if what i experience is God. I believe it's God but i can't know for sure in this current state. Lately, I've been through some really hellish, horrible & nonsensical experiences that have made me question whether God even exists. It feels like suffering has no reason at all & it's completely senseless & d*mb, and it's hard to see any purpose in it. Why would a wise, all-knowing God let that happen? Why would God let people suffer enormously (rape, torture, crappy situations, health-problems, suicide) for no apparent reason at all? It's not my problem that God allows suffering. My problem is that God allows senseless, Nonsensical suffering that seems to serve no purpose whatsoever. Sort of the suffering you would expect a d*mn mechanical Universe to generate. Suffering that doesn't stop & makes you wanna tear everything to pieces & end your life. It also bothers me that most people (not to mention all the other animals) never get to experience or understand God. And it's not great at all that I only feel close to God when I'm on drugs & i am always confined in this very limited, stupid state. All this seems very depressing and has made feel disillusioned with Leo's work. Nothing makes sense anymore.
  22. Today, i spoke to a beautiful woman. The conversation went fine. But as we were about to leave.. i touched her super briefly on the shoulder... She didn't seem to be bothered by it.. But later i was thinking maybe.. this was not the best move to make.. because i know that this move is good for creating friendships and i don't want her to view me as just another friend.. Any thoughts???
  23. I found some LSD a few months ago and have tripped about 5 times since. I believe it's real LSD but i don't know for sure. It gives me a big boost in awareness without any bad effects. But twice, things went wrong. Once, when I was sleep-deprived, I felt a weird toxic sensation (that lasted for 1-2 seconds) in my torso after taking it. And the worst time was when I took LSD in the morning and then again in the afternoon. Afterwards I couldn't sleep all night and felt pressure in my body and weird ''crackling'' sensations in my neck and head. If i did not trip again in the afternoon, i know for sure i wouldn't feel all these bad effects. I was feeling great with my 1st trip until i decided to trip again in the afternoon.... I didn't realize LSD could be so goddamn strong. Now I haven't tripped for a month, but I want to try again without making the same mistakes. I'm scared though. Can someone give me any advice? Is the substance i am taking toxic or is it toxic when not taken properly? I have taken this substance at least 3 times without any issues whatsover. Also something similar has happened with LSA. I have taken it with 0 issues multiple times but once i took it sleep-deprived i felt a sense of electrocution running through my body..
  24. @DJ Comaschi Because God is essentially a Mind. A Mind has Intention and a Purpose. Dumb physical objects do not have intention or Purpose. Suffering is okay but it just becomes too much for my liking. If i was God i wouldn't allow for torture, beheadings and etc.