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@outlandish Nice to hear this!! Yes it was also very unexpected for me also. It caught me by surprise... Now i really consider the Paranormal stuff Leo talked about in his 5-meo Outrageous Experiments video. What he said doesn't seem so crazy to me anymore.

@Kalo It is Nice to hear that others have similar experiences. This is super interesting!!

Why are we afraid of losing things in our life? I mean we all certainly do unless we are living in a cave somewhere. We are afraid of losing our health, our youth, our good looks, our money, our intelligence, our partners, our friends, our good habits, our spititual evolution, our skills and etc. Basically whatever you Love , you are also Terrified of losing that thing... Why is that? Is is because we are are Terrified of Unhappiness and Misery? Why do we care so much? All of my fears have their root in a fear of pain , suffering and misery. And why do i fear suffering? Just because it's very uncomfortable. I don't fear being old, sick or living in a tent. I just fear the misery associated with some of these things. I don't fear death. I fear that after death i may be in a condition where there is too much suffering or pain.

@snowyowl This is so true. And we can't really help ourselves too much. I mean we like certain things and dislike some other things. The only reason we like something is because we like it. The only reason why we dislike something it is usually because we dislike it. No matter how much Contemplation you do, it's pretty hard to like certain things (like Torture). Lol . But still i believe that if you reach insane levels of Consciousness then your likings may dramatically change. If we liked everything then life would be a paradise for the ego.

@Inva Yeah i agree. I view fear as something helpful for survival . It's a wise mechanism. But on the other hand i want to transcend the need to survive as much as possible. I want when the moment of death comes, to welcome it as much as possible.

@Shin They definetely fear Suffering more than death. Not everyone fears Death the same way. Sometimes i get heart palpitations and i am like 'mmm ok' and i brush it off whereas other people would get freaked out. The only reason why you would fear death is because you are afraid of what's afterwards. You don't know if it will be for better for worse.

@Question Interesting. If someone was really able to do that, he would no longer be considered 'human' anymore. At this stage you are more like a God, rather than a lil petty human who is only concerned about preserving his 'body'. Going against your own self-preservation is maybe the hardest thing to do.

@ivankiss It's a double-edged-sword..

@Shin No i don't care about death. I care about suffering and pain. Of course when the moment of death comes i may be quite terrified of it because i don't know what's next. But behind the fear of death is a fear of pain and suffering. I disagree with this whole concept that we are all afraid of Death at the root and that's it. I think we are afraid of pain, suffering and misery at the root. Someone who commits suicide, isn't afraid of death. He is afraid of misery. There are many people willing to put an end to their lifes just to escape the misery of their existance.

Thank you~!

I wanna share this story here so maybe i can get some feedback. I have been experimenting with Semen Retention for the last couple of years and it is one of my favorite things to do. It helps me psychologically tremendously like nothing else. Anyways the last 3 months i was on Semen Retention for 94 days actually. My intention was to Complete 1 year of Semen Retention (no sex also, hardmode). 3-4 times during this whole period were really really hard but i managed to do the right thing, practice Impulse Control and not masturbate. Other than these few hard times everything was quite easy and manageable (i have quite experience at this point). After 1 and a half month of semen retention i began to ejaculate in my sleep which was cool. The noctural emmisions were happening like every 1-2 weeks . At the final days of this Semen Retention journey i began to feel a mild pain in the groin area, a little bit above my penis. I think it was the prostate. I am not really sure though. The pain was kinda like a feeling of some sort of blockage. It was more of a Sensation of some sort of Blockage rather than a Pain. I can't describe it better. At day 94, i felt this blockage again and i got scared to be honest. So i decided to masturbate to avoid any sort of complications. I hesitated a lot before doing it but i felt that it was the right thing to do. Afterwards i felt very disapointed. Disapointed because i reached a point where i could keep my semen retention journey a lot longer but i had to stop because of this health concern. When i began to masturbate again, i noticed that i didn't ejaculate as much semen as i did before the semen retention. Also it seems like the semen took few seconds longer to come out after the climax. I really don't know what to make of all this. I heard a monk who was celibate for 8 years talking about some prostate exercises you can do to keep your prostate healthy because if you practice semen retention for many years there is a risk of prostate cancer they say. I don't know what's going on. I haven't researched all this extensively. I know many peole on semen retention for years who didn't have a single problem. So i was operating on that train of thought. Now the pain/sensation i felt during semen retention is gone. Maybe the pain i felt during semen retention wasn't something serious to be concerned of. I really don't know. I still want to keep practicing semen retention but now i think that maybe i need to masturbate maybe once a week/month.

@TheDao Interesting stuff. I don't really care about getting any orgasmic pleasure to be honest. What i want to is to be on Semen Retention for as long as possible without any health concerns. How do you circulate the extra energy??

@Salvijus Thank you , i will check it out.

@Peter Miklis The pain was not gone completely after i ejaculated. It was gone after couple of days though. It was more like a blockage sensation rather than a pain.

@Endangered-EGO Yes it is But after you reach an extreme level of Suffering, then it isn't that 'bad' or terrifying anymore. I thought that i had suffered in my life previously but no.. The level of suffering i experienced the last 6 months was beyond the scope of anything i could imagine. There are levels of suffering that your mind cannot comprehend. But God is infinitely intelligent. There is nothing to worry but good luck convincing that the ego-mind.

@Osaid After the Semen Retention, when i masturbated, i did not get the 'watery semen' that you've experienced. What i got was very much reduced semen volume which is still the case even now after couple of weeks. Great advice. Thank you~!!

@Osaid No. I wasn't edging. Maybe only while dreaming i guess. Also my libido remained normal , it didn't flatline. Is the build-up of prostatic fluid something concerning? I haven't heard about it. Do you think that i could continue my semen retention safely? I think i have experienced this mild pain other times when on semen retention as well but it went away with time. I am not sure though.

@Nahm Thank you~!!

Yesterday i took 15grams (fresh) of Magic Truffles (Atlantis). I made a tea out of it and had a Beautiful and also quite Difficult Experience. I didn't really had a specific intention out of the trip.. I just wanted to do it recreationally and also to see things from a different Perspective which always very helpful. I know Leo is against doing psychedelics recreationally but to me i prefer to take mushrooms instead of drinking a beer or smoking pot. And i trip very sparringly. Usually 3-6 times a year. Pros from the trip: It is Amazing how much your Perception of Reality changes when you are on Psychedelics. Materialism gets thrown out of the window. It is I-n-c-r-e-d-i-b-l-e~!! It is always still a mind-fuck for me because my brain still kinda operates from the Materialist paradigm because when i am sober it seems impossible that reality isn't grounded on something external like brains and etc. The difficult part is that when all dualities begint to Collapse there is also a Fear of Losing your mind. This time i kinda surrended and didn't try to figure anything out which was super helpful. Also i realised that maybe sometimes low doses of Psychedelics are better than higher ones. Because one a high dose sometimes you feel like losing your mind when dualities collapse and your ego-mind tries to grasp the ungraspable. With lower doses you can tolerate the confusion much better. Also the Incredible thing about realising Non-duality is that it is almost more like a Feeling rather than a logical abstraction. Now i understand why every 5-meo trip report video mentions that the their realisation its more of a feeling rather than anything else. I always enjoy watching Leo while tripping. Every time i trip i realise that i am him and i feel very grateful for being part of this spiritual work. I admire all the work he has put into this. This is some very advanced and radical stuff that most people are not aware of and it's a shame. Psychedelics are a game changer. Of course it shouldn't be your only tool. I understand that now even better. I don't expect psychedelcis to solve all my problems . I need to combine this tool with others tools like Contemplation. The understanding i get from tripping is profound and worth it to me more than a million dollars or banging a hot girl. Incredible Understanding. Everything becomes Crystal Clear. Almost All the human ego-mind BS get cleaned out of my Consciousness, Also now i have a deeper trust in God. I know that i might experience 'bad' things , pain , suffering etc but in retrospect everything is always Good. Everything is Perfect. God is incredible in his widsom and intelligence. You have to trust 'him'. 'He' is fn God. If you don't trust God who are you gonna trust?? Cons from the trip The bad part is that i tripped while i hadn't slept well the other day and was feeling very sluggish and tired. I knew it was better to trip the next day but i was feeling kinda sad and wanted to experience something different to be honest. The trip was incredible overall. Problem was that it interefered with my sleep and the other problem is that i ended up masturbating a lot while watching porn. I broke my streak of 103 days of not watching porn. I felt bad afterwards for engaging in porn. If my mind was at 100% i would have the willpower to not watch porn. I need to be more Conscious of how Different Systems affect each other. If you haven't slept and take a drug it's much more likely to engage in behaviors which you later can regret. Your willpower muscle is so weak at certain points that it's stupid to take drugs.

I was watching this video with Anna Brown. And basically it is like she is dismissing that different States of Cosnciousness exist . She seems to be dismissive of lower consciousness/ higher consciousness, higher vibrations and etc. I have heard similar opinions from other spiritual teachers. Rupert Spira and Frank Yang seem to have a similar approach. How you make sense of all this? In my experience there are higher states of Consciousness especially when i take Psychedelics. Some people seems to be dismissive of all this 'states' thing just for the sake of the simplicity of what already is.

@BipolarGrowth I agree with you.

@Leo Gura So true.

Are plants conscious like animals or humans? They are definetely alive like we are. In this video Sadhguru suggests that even eating plants is cruel and talks about a communication system that trees have developed. What do you think?

@Leo Gura Yes. Only Consciousness is conscious in actuality BUT.. still in the dream it always seems like different entities are Conscious. For example Consciousness imagines my body and uses it to experience the world. It imagines having your body also. Anywhere i go , i always see my body. That's the most consistent thing i experience. Thats why it seems that consciousness is always located in this body. I can't imagine Consciousness being a table and having any sort of experience. Consciousness seems to dream of being some living thing and then viewing all other inanimate objects. That's the confusing part i think .

@Ry4n Ahahahahahah :-)