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@Opo My experience with using steroids was very interesting to say the least. I was using them for 2 years give or take when i was in my early 20s. What lead me to using steroids, was low self-esteem and not feeling good about my body. I was already going to the gym for years at that point and i just wanted to take it to the next level. Definitley i was heavily influenced by numerous youtubers who were also taking gear. Something else that made me wanna take steroids was this picture i was getting from some documentaries and videos that steroids are not that bad for you. And to a certain extent there is some truth to that. Steroids can be used relatively safely but still there were tons of unkowns that i didn't know about. I didn't know about all the risks involved but i thought i did. When you compare your body to a steroid user, usually there is no comparison. That can make you feel bad about yourself. Back then my happiness depended a LOT on how i looked. I was heavy into Stage Orange mentality. So a combination of low self-esteem and being influenced by other steroid users lead me to start using them. In the period when i was taking them , my strength increased to ridiculous unnatural levels and my body looked better than ever. I was going to the gym and bench pressing or squatting the most weight. People were constantly looking at how much weight i was pushing. I was getting compliments . People were asking me for advice. That was highly addicting. The feeling you get from being one of the strongest people. Or waking up and seeing your body change every single day. This is very alluring. Because you constantly see changes. Anyways, after some time i matured, and i no longer wanted to keep taking them. I decided to quit. Thankfully i am in good health now but still there is some fear for all the possible future health complications that i may encounter. If i knew what i know now i would never start using steroids for those reasons. But when you are young, dumb and ignorant you don't know any better. You just crave looking good. Many people fall into this trap. It's inevitable the way our society is. People are constantly being judged about how they look. There is always that pressure of looking the best you can.

I usually eat a salad every day with couple of tomatoes, 2 cucumbers , onions and whatever else i can find. I eat the salad with some rice cakes or oat rusks. Then i'll need to eat something else to keep me full that has some protein. It will be either eggs or yoghurt or something else. Then as a dessert i'll have 3 pieces of fruit. This is a staple meal i almost have every day. Keeps me full for many hours. The second staple meal i'll have, is some sort of protein and fat source like eggs, meat or dairy. And after that i'll eat a big bowl of porridge. Basically i try to get as much protein and fiber with every meal so i can be full for long periods of time.

What will heal your OCD is stopping doing Compulsions. That is the bottom line. You must stop engaging with your mind and trying to get reassurance and certainty. Yes it will be hell for a little while but if you're suffering from OCD your life is already a living hell that i wouldn't wish upon my worst enemy. OCD is one of the worst things that can happen to someone. I know from personal experience. Because i have sufferred and recovered from this terrible terrible condition. Psychedelics could help you see some dysfunctional patterns and loops that you are getting stuck on. But from my personal experience what has helped the most is learning to live with uncertainty, CBT and watching helpful resources like these from people who have actually suffered from OCD themselves and recovered. Meditation can help you stop reacting to thoughts also which is always a good practice. Watching and acting on this information over the last 2 years has completely transformed my life for the better. Everyday i used to suffer enormously from anxiety and uncertainty. Nowadays almost every day is a good day for me. I feel blessed.

Shunyamurti says that DeJavus are happening because you have experienced this life infinite times already. So sometimes you remember.

I watch him also. Very cool dude.

@kieranperez Dude you are completely missing the point. I know from 1st hand experience.Who is the one thar draws the line between good and bad reasons? Myself ofcourse. People's motivations is the best criteria to judge them. When i see someone on YouTube being irresponsible and influencing thousands of other kids who will be doing the same sh*t 5 years from now , then of course i am gonna criticize that. It would be better if he came out and said something like Instead of what he said here PsychedSubstance can do whatever he wants. But he is a public figure. He is gonna get criticized. You can judge my criticisms of him as valid or invalid. But at the end of the day, everyone will have their own preconceptions about what is good or bad.

@kieranperez I don't know if there are long term studies nowadays. My point is that when trt will be around for 100 years then we will have 100 years worth of research around it and a better picture. Trt is basically a newborn baby.

@flowboy Incorrect not. He said it himself in one of his videos. I don't keep track of what decisions he is taking every single day. He has quit kratom countess times so far. His reasoning basically was ''let me start trt so i can quit kratom''. That would be 10 times lower. @flowboy Increased risk of detecting subclinical prostate cancer, growth of metastatic prostate cancer, erythrocytosis which can lead to blood clots and complications. Still there are many others that we don't know since trt is very very very new. When you inject testosterone is doesn't have the same affect on your body compared to someone who produces their own testosterone. It may be the same compound but still quite different effects. It messes up your body chemistry. Your body would never produce 100% testosterone all the time for example. It would be higher in the morning and lower towards the day. Yes it a personal choice. I just believe PsychedSubtance made a rush decision about this that he may regret few years from now. He obviously loves muscles & working out. I can understand that. Personally i have used testosterone as well. But i was dumb and stupid. If i knew better i would never touch anything. I would only do so if it was absolutely necessary. In his case , obviously it wasn't necessary. He could resolve the Kratom issue, and see if his testosterone levels return back. His life was still pretty manageable before starting trt.

@Leo Gura Joe Rogan works for Dana White and the UFC. That pretty much explains it all.

@Flowerfaeiry I do.

@AtheisticNonduality Ahahahaha

Very Nice report.

I still haven't read the book but i want to in the near future. From the videos i've watched about The Law of One it definitely has a lot of truth and wisdom in it. Very good content overall. A lot better than i ever expected. Aaron Abke talks a lot about the Law of One. I like his content. He is a cool dude with Pure Intentions overall.

A post infused with tons of passion. I like that

A friend of mine believes that God creates with randomness. Imagine God like an infinitely intelligent painter who just throws a bunch of colors randomly and creates this way. Personally i don't buy this. But i don't know for sure either. This is a good question actually. @Leo Gura What do you think about this?

@iboughtleosbooklist Nice post! It made me feel better :-) Despite all the difficulties my life has been pretty good so far i can say. I like this quote from Srikumar Rao ''I am ok, i have always been ok, and i'll always be ok''.

@mp22 I don't believe these experienced are caused by preparing yourself or somehow brainwashing yourself. I know for a fact that i have become Infinite. I have become infinity. This was a direct experience. As real as whatever i'm experiencing right now.

I deal with the confusion part also. I guess it's part of the process.

@Flyboy Yes you made some good points. I try to avoid projecting myself into the future. But still the understanding/knowing that you are God can be frightening at times. It can be a hard pill to shallow.

@mp22 Mostly yes. I've had some awakenings sober too.

@mp22 Yes but Leo being wrong about this flies out of the window when i am having the non-dual mystical awakenings.

@Flyboy Maybe it is not suffering for God but sure it is for me.

@Nahm Yes but that still doesn't escape me from experiencing Everything and all those gore videos i've watched. Non duality is not a conjecture.

@Nahm Why you say that it can't be inevitable?

@nistake Yes but Leo says ''You will Experience EVERYTHING.''