SQAAD

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  1. @JosephKnecht You are talking non sense. Born in Moldova. Poorest country of EU.
  2. I experience homelessness for the past 8 months. I would like to share some insights about the whole learning experience: First of all , let's talk about people. As Leo has stated, we indeed live in the Dark Ages of Consciousness and Spiritual Development: I have not yet met a person in close, that i would regard as high quality. (Not to mention about Awake) People simply don't have the luxury to care about you. It would impair their ability to survive.. Also, most people will try to determine your worth, put it in a box, and then try to put you inside that box. You have to say no sometimes to their limitations and ideas about you. You have to constantly face their stupidity and lack of Consciousness. Also you realize that , death is natural. And it's okay to die. All your ideas about how life should be, or Unfold, or look like get demolished and Crushed.
  3. @Santiago Ram I like this. Remind of this great video:
  4. @PenguinPablo Currently i don't have much time. Can you give me some technique though?
  5. @Wilhelm44 That's actually pretty accurate. I suffer from mild stuttering. When i was younger, it was much much worse. Being told, you are worthless over and over again by parents & society didn't help much with my confidence growing up. But now, i am doing better
  6. All the suffering i experience, is mostly located, in my throat area. Despite having practiced Meditation few years now, i found myself Suffering a lot.. At first i was like WTF : "This Eckhart Tolle guy must be full of crap. Because i don't actively think, but yet i still keep suffering" But lately, somehow i managed to relax the painful contractions (suffering) in my throat and now i feel much bettter. I realised that somehow, everytime i experienced something "negative", i was contracting in my throat area, despite having not many thoughts.. What has helped me also is Peter Ralston saying "Your mind doesn't have a Mind of its Own. You are DOING your Mind". This helped me because i was stuck in a victim mentality, because of the Truth of no free will..
  7. @Yimpa Inspire me for what purposes?
  8. @Yimpa Thanks
  9. I remember Leo saying: "you assume, you can reach crazy levels of Consciousness, while mainting , your sanity". And i was WTF . This makes no sense. But in my recent LSA trip, i experienced a state of Consciousness, where my mind, began questioning things, that most humans never question.. Am i really gonna die? Is Pain and Suffering really that bad? Do others really exist? Am i all alone? Am i fooling myself into believing others exist separate from me? And many more such questions.. The mind doesn't wanna go there.. Thankfully, i didn't react negatively to these difficult thoughts, and it was quite pleasurable too (besides a little bit disturbing). This is where true Spirituality begins. When you finally see clearly, that you don't know what the crap is going on, but yet insist on believing a bunch of crap for comfort purposes. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=2u5M6tDc5TE&t=6109s&pp=ygUiYWN0dWFsaXplZCBzdGF0ZXMgb2YgY29uc2Npb3VzbmVzcw%3D%3D
  10. I took 4 capsules of good LSA powder, spread out, throughout the day. Because of karma, i get this strong desire to have sex, while being on a higher, more godlike, plane of Consciousness. I go downtown , to the worst places of Athens, have sex 3 times with prostitutes, and then return "home". I did not enjoy the prostitutes experience because there was impossible to find a decent brothel, without filthy cigarrete smoke. And also the prostitutes are so low-level and undisciplines that they manage to destroy your mood 99% of the time. Because you supposedly can stay in the room and have sex for 10 minutes , but after 4 minutes they start complaining that you need to hurry.. When i returned home, i remember sitting still on a nice place , in the woods, and all sense of me completely evaporated. There was no 'me' left. It was all gone. And it was such a relief. I wish i could have stayed in that state of Consciousness longer. Overall the trip was incredible, but i feel bad now for wasting 80% of my trip, on stupid, low-level drives. (But what you do?) Also, after some time, i began feeling some pressure and discomfort in my heart. Not too significant though. If i had stayed in the woods, overall the experience would be much better. Live and learn.
  11. @Lyubov Say that to a poor person in Mexico, who is getting his feet and head chopped off, while some psychopaths, record the whole 'miracle'. Yea it's a miracle. But it's not that great of a miracle for lots of people on the planet, right now.
  12. You are not spititual. You just have good enough circumstances.
  13. @Lyubov You are probably a privileged white young person , living in some of the top top places in the world, who hasn't yet been hit hard by life.