Zigzag Idiot

In a hot shower just a moment ago I thought, A global brush fire of Metanoia in the human population will trigger the eschaton.

Having strait posture is pretty key in meditation as opposed to slouching. Only recently have I felt ok with openly being an advocate for cannabis. Discovering the lives and biographies of Terence McKenna, Graham Hancock, Rupert Sheldrake, and others makes the point that we are not all the same biochemically and that many people function much better self medicating with cannabis juxtaposed to industrial pharmaceuticals.

Sitting with sad songs. Processing. Feeling it and letting it go.

@rNOW I share your appreciation of A New Earth and Conversations with God. In the past 5 years I've been more into rereading books. The Oracle of the Cosmic Way by Carol Anthony and Hanna Moog has been very influential on me. It's a modern reworking of the I CHING which I consult almost daily as a tool of Divination. Two books by Red Hawk. Self Observation - The Awakening of Conscience Self Remembering - The Path to Non-Judgemental Love. Two books by Ocke de Boer. Higher Being Bodies Two Souls

Allow Your True Self to Blossom by Dr. Jim Rosen ©2019 Dr. Jim Rosen It is absolutely not possible that you are not a good person on the inside. You are a child of God. You’re a creation of God. And God is pure love. It is not possible that you (the real you on the inside) are made of anything other than what God is. Remember, you are not a body. You are pure mind and spirit. You are not your outward behaviors, nor are you your emotional reactions. You are your essence. You are your true self and only that. So, building your self-esteem in not a matter of making yourself over and changing who you are. It means instead to recognize who you really are and allow your true self to blossom.

We're all transparent. Be horrified,,,,

I'm just waiting around until I die I guess. I worked my ass off for thirty years. Paid in a lot of taxes, social security, etc.,, I'm not rich enough to travel the world but that's alright I've seen a good bit of it. Im just sittin around on my ass and feeling ok about it.

My father was a self made man. He drove his own Commercial big truck, always had 5 side businesses and would shovel shit or run a chain saw, etc. whatever was necessary. In 66 years he done a whole lot of living. So don't get the idea, I've had an easy time of it.

Hey,,,,You got something there. I'm getting ideas!!! ?

Up keep of the ranch was the bottomless money pit. The lifestyle turned me insane but then I'm sure I would have gone insane anyhow.

My Father, the paradoxical Saint. That's the title of a book I should write. He passed away in 2006. I turned over 2 herds of Cattle and responsibility over the family ranch to a partnership formed by my niece and two nephews. My mother is in control of the land through a Trust. I just walked away from everything within the last year. No I'm not wealthy but at least I'm now free to do whatever I want. I have no debt. I got sick of working my ass off just to pay more taxes. Besides all the violence that's an unavoidable necessity with ranching and it being an endless money pit. I'm glad to be free of it. Now what?

@Preety_India ? You're right on that. Although I'm very adrenal (Mars) Essence (body) and in outer personality. Inwardly I'm influenced heavily by swift, secretive, Mercury.

I only thought I had been taking fairly pure lsd. Whew,,, This stuff was really something. @Bill W I hid a couple of nonsense posts that I made in your Journal. I appreciate your patience. Still trying to get my head screwed on,,,,,,

Anna, I see, I understand. No problems,,, everyone is welcome to post here ?

I'm somewhat indebted to other beings such as my brother/godfather, William, an iconoclastic heretic in his own right who happens to possess heart.

Thank god it's perservred.

Yes! Im busted! ?✌️

I'm checking out for a while.this mornin /evening what ever it is I the meantime,,, thank you all of you placeholders,,,,,

I love her heart. Her blessing and burden is embodiment of adrenal (Mars) warrior essence type in a feminine Automaton.

I shouldn't be communicating for a while this evening. Experimenting with a higher intake of Lsd leaves me as messed up as a soup sandwich. ?