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I'm kinda tired of the Summer heat and humidity. Ready for fall weather to get here. I've been putting up security cameras around my house and driveway. The cameras have audio as well as night vision. For $20 a piece, they are a great deal. Really convenient also that I can access them through I phone or IPad. Allows me to see any traffic approaching the house. Should have done this a long time ago. The Source of Some of Your Anger by Dr. Jim Rosen ©2020 Dr. Jim Rosen You have a need to feel important and worthwhile. Not more worthwhile or important than other people, but no less either. If you think that someone is controlling you or disapproving of your lifestyle, you can easily get the idea that your worth as a person is being threatened. So you’re going to get angry. By lashing out with anger, you are trying to push away the other person’s control and regain your self-esteem. But the anger only gives you a false sense of control in a situation where you think that you lack it. It’s not really the anger or the striking back that put you in charge of your own life. Your real power, the real taking charge, is in your ability to choose how you’re going to respond in those situations. When you are the one who makes the choices, and then you stand by your choices, this source of your anger melts away.

Very much so. Oftentimes it's related to the idea below and that I'm trying to constrain and force the process in a certain way. In effect, setting up conditions beforehand that guarantees suffering in the future and not realizing that I'm doing it.

In the past I remember more than once of having such an inner torment that it was a distinct feeling of " I would not wish this on anyone." I respect your openness and you continuing to share your experience. Self hatred has been a part of my journey. Thinking it had been resolved only to later discover a deeper layer. Ive found it interesting and strange also that emotional pain can notiicably come in waves like the physical pain of a tooth or earache. Don't know really what that means,,,,but it reminds me that sometimes all I can do is to let go and allow whatever the experience is to unfold instead of fighting against something that will do nothing other than wear me down. There are a lot of subtleties it seems. A lot of back and forth,,,, sometimes revealing something unexpected and pleasant. I don't want to get in your space. Just felt like sharing some. Your sharing what you do will most likely be a help to someone else doing their work. In a way, were all in it together. Peace.

“I’m gonna fix brown rice everyday,”??‍♀️?? The epitome of 3 Mars essence types. Lots of adrenaline and sexual energy. Very embodied with their natural rhythm in expressive, raw, jubilant capacity for dance. Dusty Hill is Mars/jovial. That gives them some extra flair overall. I think they’re a riot, Hilarious and brilliant in their own way. Mars FORTHRIGHT, CONFRONTATIONAL, ACTION-ORIENTED Martials are brave warriors built for self-assertion and combat. Even their silence has an ominous quality to it, as if they are ticking over before the next outburst. Their eyes have a fixed and fiery stare, their voice is bullishly projected. With fast-moving adrenalin, their style of action is sudden and powerful, using gestures and movement that are willful, punchy and jerky. They relish causes to fight for or to campaign against, aiming for and achieving one goal after another. Socially, they are blunt and direct, not knowing how to be insincere with niceties or flattery. Martials are energetic in work, thriving on challenge and adversity. They favour the instantly effective physical approach, which can be over-forceful. When led by another, ideally a wise Saturn, they are loyal, painstaking and disciplined. As they are impetuous and quick-tempered, they fall easily into quarrels. Having released their adrenalin they quickly forget, and their animosity turns to impulsive, selfless generosity.

Any space that evokes more of a 'belly centered' quality for me will most often allow the intellectual center the space to settle down into just a receptive condition,,,, The flexibility of doing spontaneous 20 minute Centering Prayer meditations works out good for me. It's argued that just 2 of these /day has An accumulative effect.,,

Its only Friday. I thought it was Sunday.

More about 3 times 4 from R.C.L., a Spiritual Lawyer About integration and Individuating THE THREE REALMS These three levels we now call the realms of Body, Soul and Spirit. The realms follow the classic tripartite division. Body is the realm of the material world, Soul the realm of energy, including psyche and personality, Spirit the realm of ideas, qualities, cognition and mentation. In space our consciousness always emphasizes one of these three. This is the basic law of three the trinity which is found in all cultures of the world as a kind of spatial hierarchy. Like the four time-like functions, the three spatial realms constitute a basic structural law, a constitutional principle, that appears in all fields and scales of experience. Every phenomena has a physical, energetical and spiritual quality. On the microcosmic level, every electron has a body level where it appears and acts like a particle; a soul or energy level where it appears and acts like a wave; and a spiritual level where it has certain "quantum" characteristics, behaves in an unpredictable manner and has unique qualities. On the scale of human consciousness, all phenomena again appear in these three realms. For this reason each of our four functions has three levels. For instance, Sensing does not occur in the abstract, you either sense a thing an energy, or an idea; In space, every event, every phenomena, every time function, happens in these three realms. Spirit means the following fields of consciousness, the following experiences: animating vital principle; meaning; ideas; representations; quality; space-time continuum; intelligent or sentient part of a being; essential principle; significance; in corporeality; intellect; concept; thought;noesticity; event; information; pattern; gestalt; the abstract; ideation; idea, human brain; knowledge. Soul means the world of people; psyche; energy; wave; time; vitality; bio-plasma; Chakra; I or Chi; vital force; ego-self; self-other; sociality; individual; entity; mind as in body-"mind"-spirit; limbic system, mammalian brain; instincts. Body means physical; solid; matter; mass; space; particle; cerebellum, brain stem, reptilian brain; conditioned learning. To understand and integrate our consciousness, it is not enough to understand and improve the four functions, we must also understand the three realms. We must learn to identify and recognize where each component of our consciousness lies. This classification helps us to make sense of the chaos. It facilitates our thinking, allows us to better comprehend what is happening in the world around us and the inner world. By having a basic schemata to refer to, you can learn to verify a thought which may come to you. It is a kind of legal citation process, a structural analysis involving internal precedent checking. Is the thought complete, is it holistic? Does it have all three components, body-soul-spirit? What component is missing from the idea? Which realm is emphasized? Which function does the thought pertain to? Where in the overall schemata does the thought fit? What does that tell you about it? This is all part of the thought discipline process described in the Opening Statement. In addition to helping you to think better, learning to recognize what phenomena involve which realms also helps you to identify and sort out the functions. Knowing the three realms, understanding how they are different and how they work together, facilitates the fourfold integration process. It helps you to separate and strengthen the functions, and then to unify them. The integration process can be better understood by including the law of three. Recall that the problem with the four functions at first is their hodgepodge intermingling, where one function tends to dominate others, and all get stunted and weak. The problem at first with the three realms is just the opposite. They are completely separate from each other, even alienated. The body and mind are disconnected, too far apart. When we are into our bodies, we tend to lose our soul and spirit. The clicheé example is the muscle-builder with enormous body and tiny head, and even smaller mind and personality. Conversely, when into spiritual things, we tend to forget, even reject our body. Just look at some monks, nuns and priests. When into our psyche our personality, our soul we tend to lose both body and spirit. The problem is to bring these three separate worlds into one. We must strive to unite our physical consciousness, with our consciousness of our psyche and our spirituality. Again, like the functions, these three realms should be of equal importance. The spirit is not better than the body, and visa versa. But like the functions, we naturally tend to emphasize one realm to the detriment of the others. We need to observe our self and learn which one we emphasize. Then we need to make conscious efforts to boost the weaker realms. We need to bring the three realms into balance. For instance, an intellectual prone to the world of ideas would achieve balance with exercise, by developing the body. They also need to interact with people more and develop their soul. The spiritual tend to ignore the body, sometime even punish it for the sake of their spirit. They also tend to want to go live in a cave without the distractions of other people. The body and soul are as much our home as the spirit. All three realms should be cared for and respected. Likewise balance must be sought by the physically-oriented, those who spend all their time concerned with their bodies, how they look, what they weigh, what they eat, and how they exercise. They should also be concerned with their mind and soul. What we feed our head is just as important as what we feed our stomach. A good heart is as important as a pretty face or healthy body. Finally, there are those who emphasize their social life above all else. They would rather talk than eat or read. They are constantly talking, to them self and others, and usually they are quite in love with the sound of their own voice. They are devoted to personal issues, to themselves and to intimacy with others. They take themselves very seriously and can talk about themselves for hours. The soul is important, but it is all too easy to become self obsessive, "overwhelmed with me". Both the body and the transpersonal spiritual elements must be included for the soul to develop harmoniously, for individuation to be possible. Another basic law of the individuation process is that failure to unite the three realms will obstruct the integration of the four functions. After the functions have been strengthened and separated, and are otherwise able to begin their backward trek to integration, they will not be able to do so unless the realms are also in a process of balancing and uniting. The total integration of consciousness into Awareness, super consciousness, as described for instance by Jung's individuation process, requires the three realms to be brought together into a unified field of awareness where each component supports the other. From http://www.lawsofwisdom.com/course-overview/statement-of-the-law/laws-of-human-consciousness/ There is much more on this page about Integration, the four functions, Jung and Freud's interaction, Jean Houston and Robert Masters work with Lsd back in the day, Paul McLean and the triune brain.

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We are living in the Age of Information. The Age of Aquarius. Guru's are passé. No longer necessary. I don't know if that applies to Spiritual Masters or not, I know that some Spiritual Masters walk the path of the Malamat. Also known as the Way of Blame. They are the eaters of suffering. I believe the more influences we can have the better. We can take life as a Teacher. Trees are good too. The higher in Consciousness can SEE the lower but the lower in Consciousness cannot SEE the higher. grain of salt,,,,,

Ocke de Boer describing Conscience as the "intellegence of the Universe" fits into this quite well. There are a certain percentage of those who are reading this that will have 33/6 a their Life Path number vibration. Have you already determined your numerology? If not, Just add up and reduce down all the didgets of your full birthday in the Pythagorean method. From: I welcome hearing of others Numerology or Life Path number.

LIstening to this short clip, it felt like a realization. McKenna said the world is made of language. In The Oracle of the Cosmic Way, Carol Anthony says basically the same thing. What Terrence describes here sounds like a Holon. He uses the phrase Superego synonymous with Overmind. He also says his Overmind is the higher collective mind. I contend that as long as we're coerced by the Superego we will endure the phenomena of guilt. Conscience doesn't awaken in ourselves until we've individuated and have become free of the Superego. The awakening of Conscience marks the arrival of the beginning stages or the birth of the Pearl beyond Price. Guilt will not be experienced after this but the feeling of Remorse then becomes a part of our inner barometer. Perhaps the global awakening of Conscience is the shift to a higher vibration or density that others speak of. It would also fit very closely as well to Yogananda's description of the Second Coming of Christ.

Bubba aka Slick Willy said to a congressional hearing during the Lewinski scandal- "That depends on what the meaning of 'is' is."

3's and 4's This is just a starter kit discussion is God, humanity, the universe and everything in it, holons? Created out of 3's and 4's? Most of what follows was taken from Arnold Keyserling's Chance and Choice or Ralph Losey's Laws of Wisdom,,,, http://www.chanceandchoice.com/course-overview/energy/ http://www.lawsofwisdom.com/course-overview/ Four elementals Four consciousness functions that occur in Time The Law of Three A combination of Active - passive - neutralizing produces a new arising; a Fourth Three Spacial Realms,,,, The seven electron shells are at a distance of 0 - 1 - 4 - 16 - 25 - 36 - 49, following the central diagonal of Gamma, the multiplication field of the Pythagorean Chi, as is shown by the following diagram. Here is a concise summary of each chakra - 1 through 7. This should allow you to make sense of these energies in connection with the other ideas presented in this book, especially the ideas in the next chapter on space. Sensation relates to the data of the senses: colors, smells, tastes, sounds and tones, and observation of the sense of touch. The point of gravity is in the organs of generation and excretion. It is the base of all energies and is present in most people as sexual energy. Its basic potential is for creative imagination, revelations. It's vocation (practical application in society) is that of a "Worker" who has confidence, trust, intuition and an ability to heal. This energy feels like a force emitted from yourself in order to do something. Its direction is the East and it partakes of the "Power of Fire".(3) Breathing relates to Thinking. All thinking is based on language which is heard by the vibrations of air. Its point of gravity is, however, found near the sacrum, which is also the point of gravity of bodily movement. In Japan and the martial arts this center is known as "Hara". Its basic potential is to discern and affirm the differences and the similarities between all things. Its vocation is that of a "Designer" who adapts and conceives new things, including a unique style of life and a creative understanding. This energy feels like experiencing movement from out of the center. Its direction is the West and its Power is the Minerals. The function of Feeling has as its contents the impulses, and drives, the point of gravity lies in nourishment, in the digestion and de-posination metabolism. Its basic potential is for creativity and inner growth in the synthesis of creative new forms of understanding and learning. Its vocation is that of the "Helper" who heals through understanding, personal growth and through cognition of the underlying archetypes. This energy feels like awakening. Its direction is the South and its Power is the Plants. The Will means the capacity to decide yes and no on the basis of the inner void, the force of attention, the fourth dimension in connection with the Zero dimension. You have to get behind the rhythms of the heart, of the circulation, and get to them from being. Its potential is self affirmation, finding your unique "medicine", in the Native American sense, that puts the Ego into a healthy, positive relationship with the greater Self. Its vocation is that of the "Leader", with affirmative energies, strategies and imagination. This energy feels like finding your role. Its direction is North and its Power is the Animals. The contents of thinking, feeling and sensing are conscious. Being (deciding = uniting) puts them together in willing. Their continuity, their putting together, changes the data of the functions into data of consciousness ordered in the three spheres. The Body continuity, steered by the genetic code, has its point of gravity in the spinal cord and in the central nervous system which is activated from the brain stem and cerebellum just above the neck. This is the basis of material experience; movement activities are stored in the memory so that the force of attention can remain free. Its potential is start new things and become more human, responsible and discerning. Its vocation is the "Friend", who assists in projects and helps others to see the world and themselves more clearly. This energy feels like becoming an expression. Its direction is the center and its Power is the Sacred Earth. The continuity of the Soul, which puts Man into family in its farthest sense by endogen engrams, conditioned and unconditioned reflexes, has its point of gravity in the limbic system. There all personal relations and memories, as well as those of Man and our whole evolution, are stored and unite Man with the animal realm. The potential is to heal and to synthesize opposing forces into a larger whole through communication and discussion. The vocation is the "Teacher" who helps set priorities and values and who has strong communication skills. This energy feels like partaking of an abundance, a plenitude of beings. Its direction is the South East and Power is the Ancestors. The highest Spirit field of the cerebrum or neocortex with its two hemispheres shows the capacity of mental representation of knowledge in its largest meaning - from language up to opinion and world conception. The basic potential is for responsiveness, to take the lead in reacting to the environment. Its vocation is the "Facilitator" who takes action, questions, cajoles, even fights, so that every one can find their unique potential and resolve conflicts. This energy feels like becoming aware of the physical totality of the entire Universe. Its direction is South West and Power is the Natural Spirits. This chakra is sometimes called the "golden egg" and should be located just inside the skull, not above it.

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Good contributions @Preety_India @DrewNows "If you could float above the earth and become aware of all the negativity that is going on, you would never laugh again. The world is ruled by negative emotions."- Ocke de Boer

I can relate very much and recommend work on understanding Superego. I'm leaving a bookmark below from a recent post in my journal which begins with how I phrase the situation. Below it though and more precise, are some very good quotes from A. H. Almaas about understanding the workings of the Superego.

I'm a former coffee and Dr Pepper addict,,,, Terence McKenna Quote about this issue- "Modern industrial civilization has very skillfully promoted certain drugs and supressed others. A perfect example is caffeine. Caffeine -- I hate to tell you this -- caffeine is a fairly dangerous drug. It isn't dangerous in that a cup of coffee will kill you, but a lifestyle built around caffeine is going to -- you're not going to live to be a hundred years old, or even seventy, unless you are statistically in the improbably group. Why is caffeine not only tolerated but exalted? Because, boy, you can spin those widgets onto their winkles just endlessly without a thought on your mind. It is *the* perfect drug for modern industrial manufacturing. Why do you think caffeine, a dangerous, health destroying, destructive drug, that has to be brought from the ends of the earth, is enshrined in every labor contract in the Western world as a right? The coffee break -- if somebody tried to take away the coffee break, you know, the masses would rise in righteous fury and pull them down. We don't have a beer break. We don't have a pot break. I mean, if you suggested, 'Well, we don't want a coffee break. We want to be a ble to smoke a joint at eleven,' they would say, 'Well, you're just some kind of -- you're a social degenerate, a troublemaker, a mad dog, a criminal.' And yet, the cost health benefit of those two drugs, there's no comparison. Obviously, pot would be the better choice. The problem is, then you're going to be standing there dreaming, rather than spinning the widgets onto the nuts."

Bill Clinton "I did not have sexual relations with that woman." George H W Bush "Read my lips: no new taxes."