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@tsuki Throwing the coins to receive a hexagram, most often for me anyhow, will have changing lines which creates a second hexagram. The changing lines of the first hexagram are usually the most pertinent in my understanding and then the general commentary of the second. My routine is usually to do a reading at the beginning of the day. You may have read how Carol Anthony in the beginning wrote her hexagrams from the top down, which is actually backward. They are to be written from the bottom up. She wrote that even though written backward she still received applicable advice. The Sage later communicated to her that was because of her sincerity combined with some disaplined objectivity. After her correction in method, the advice given became even more in tune with her life and needs. That message about her sincerity in asking really stuck with me. My relating of it could be somewhat inexact, though. I just now threw the coins asking if my poor results in using the rtcm, (retroactive three coin method) which I didn't mention before was because of my asking specfic questions that should be answered by my Being, instead of the Oracle. The answer was two heads, one tail. Which is a mostly yes. In rephrasing my question while writing it down, I asked the Sage if my rewording was more correct. The throw resulted in 3 heads. A definite yes. Pretty neat, I'm thinking while sittting here about to hit the submit reply button.

Yes. Yes and pretty much. I'm in awe of the Retroactive three coin method but have not made it a practice I've used except on rare occasions. Can't really say why . I plan to though. I think it's great you use it a lot. I love the whole translation they've made. It's really a unique work.

I'm glad to be free from Ranch responsibilities. It's been a couple of years now and I'm still getting used to it. Any Good Jokes Lately? by Dr. Jim Rosen ©2020 Dr. Jim Rosen Did you hear the one about the man who went to his medical doctor because he was having muscle spasms? The doctor gave him three kinds of drugs: a shot for pain, pills to relax his muscles, and an anti-depressant medication. The funny thing is, the man accepted these things as if they were actually treatment for his problem. The doctor didn’t teach the man any techniques for relaxing his muscles. He didn’t examine the man for tensions and stresses in his life. And he didn’t teach him anything about overcoming or managing his particular stresses. In addition to all that, the man wasn’t experiencing depression. A qualified assessment revealed that he was actually anxious, upset and afraid with physical pain. Now, what sort of doctor do you suppose this man should have gone to for real treatment?

Anymore I don't even frame a question because I was essentially asking the same one every time in a way. What do I need to know or consider right now. Some might say that it's going about it incorrectly but it seems to work,,,,? As you probably know Terence McKenna was fascinated with the I CHING as many great thinkers have been. What blows my mind time and again was Carl Jung writing the forward to the Wilhelm/Baines English translation and it was then he coined the term 'synchronicity' and how much that word is used in the present day. ? That is, if I'm not completely mistaken.

Here's an old YouTube of Dwight I forgot about. The timing is right in that he speaks about Christmas time and points out how mechanical people are in going about things of tradition and cultural ritual.

This image that I've used before was also copied from Dwight's website. I assume he created it. A different perspective of the human energy centers or chakras. He was never proselytizing. It was always, if it's not true for you, it's not true. Verify everything for yourself over time. I'm not taking credit or altering the wording. He simply wanted for those who were interested in digging deeper into this kind of material, to provide it in a way that's understandable. I believe I will try to make contact and perhaps obtain his other writings and permission to share. Also I should say that I do not hold myself up as a teacher. I like to share as a friend and fellow student of the human condition to whomever it interests.

Thanks @MuadDib I would have pasted the gallery link but I uploaded them out of order. Think I got them in correct order below. I don't think he copyrighted his material and made sure to accredit the article to him. I might give him a call or email to see how he's doing. From here I'll work at getting this posted in type. Esoteric Christianity by Dwight Ott https://postimg.cc/WhNb5YYb https://postimg.cc/dkRwBG8y https://postimg.cc/G8nbGXsR https://postimg.cc/5HCxXhyp

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Thanks @MuadDib Maybe, just maybe I can pull this off. By the way. You look good with a beard.

Just within the last couple of weeks the idea has came to me. I haven't made a fool of myself in a big way. Should be any day now,,,, I put on my psychonaut helmet and tried some 3 meo pcp last night. 10 mg of that stuff insufflated will really grab you by the boo boo. Yeah, that's enough for me, thank you very much. It's classified as a dissociative like ketamine. The comedown was ok and today I felt nice but dissociatives are just not for me. I like the name Angeldust. It sounds friendlier although 3 meo pcp is probably not considered angeldust proper. Doesn't matter. I've about washed my hands of that stuff for good I think. Dissociatives, that is. Still trying to figure out how to get Dwight's article on Esoteric Christianity posted in one piece. Wouldn't think it would be that difficult but for those who are onlooking, it's pretty easy to gauge my technological ineptitude. Still haven't a clue as to why or how my paper clip icon button at the bottom of the page has disappeared. I could use a technological guardian angel,,,,   

I'm probably a candidate,,,, Enjoying your Journal!

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1554UNFSUBYxvZQwmBX_XmGvF3m7_r_z8/view?usp=drivesdk https://drive.google.com/file/d/1_t-w3LPNF5BtR-0KFKsphfSffClY_GZL/view?usp=drivesdk https://drive.google.com/file/d/1d3-Ec7sA0E1Yaylyh7Eol5NWjhdWuVit/view?usp=drivesdk https://drive.google.com/file/d/1CllrzGMvBnhXD33ocLzE_o8P0sizm-LD/view?usp=drivesdk Testing,,, 100 monkeys at work here. Does this link to Dwight's four page article work for anyone?

My paper clip icon thingy has gone away which leaves me unable to finish adding the rest of the article about Esoteric Christianity in the forum. I’ll try to figure something out. I went outside and was cutting and piling brush and got my eye poked by a limb. Built a fire and and was unable to fully enjoy it because my eye was hurting. Playing with fire most always cheers me up but not so much this evening. I’m thankful to still be able to see out of my left eye though. Here’s Jim’s weekly mini-column- The Strength of Dependence by Dr. Jim Rosen ©2020 Dr. Jim Rosen The idea of independence can be taken too far. The thought that you can be completely independent -- that you should be so strong within yourself, that you will not need other people for your self-worth or your happiness -- is a false teaching. Total independence is not reality, and it’s not the true way to self-esteem and happiness. If you never depend on another human being, you can never be complete. Perhaps without realizing it, you are affected by other people’s thoughts, feelings and actions. You are especially affected by those you’re closest to, in particular your partner or mate. You can and should achieve some independence; in fact you have to in order to be a whole person, and stand on the two feet that God gave you. But total independence is not a worthy goal. It is a sign of strength for you and your partner or mate or friend to depend on one another. The deeper your love, the more you rely on each other for love, support and reassurance. When you can do this for each other, you both grow stronger. When you can’t, you hold each other back.

Thanks, @Preety_India @blackchair @seeking_brilliance I agree, @kbone Moderators or anyone who can answer. My button on the left for adding from photos has disappeared, how do I get it back so I can ad the rest of the article? Thanks

This was written by a former Teacher of mine, Dwight Ott. Of the different Gurdjieff lineages, so to speak, Dwight studied with one of the Nyland Groups. http://www.nyland.org/ When I met him, around 2003, he was a fairly recent widower, an early retired school Teacher, Vegetarian, and a portrait Artist in the resort town of Eureka Springs Arkansas. I'm glad I had copied this off his website that he had available for a few years. I just wished I had saved all of his writings concerning the Fourth Way and Esoteric Christianity. Around the time I met Dwight, Charles Tart had ran across Dwights writings on his small website and paid him compliments. I guess that's all the name dropping for now. These were poor copies and not helped much with my photography. I plan to clean this somehow and then put it in the Christian High Consciousness Resources where I think it belongs. I would like some feedback about that if anyone has objections or comments. There are 1 1/2 more pages I'll load tomorrow,if not sooner. .

Worry is praying to the devil - Terence McKenna

Martin Butler talks about Schadenfreude.

Hell is only terrible first few days,,,

Blows my mind that Don Beck would be a Trump supporter. Very, very sad. Being so asleep would possibly put him in the subcategory of being an objectively Hopeless Idiot, perhaps. I pray that this embryo of a soul may awaken to a degree and at least become a subjectively Hopeless Idiot with at least a slim chance of dodging an extended vacation in the lower astral realms. Tear runs down my cheek, throat aches a bit. I would like to live in a world where the President of the United States would hold an impromptu press conference and looking into the camera would tell U.S. citizens and the world - "A good number of you people just have no idea of how Loved you are." Biden is at times a kind of wild card. I could almost see him doing that. That would make for a really cool and likeable President. At least in my warped opinion. It seems that Trump has always primarily fed negativity to the populace.

You might want to consider Emerald Wilkins. She seems wise as well as practical. I usually like her YouTube's

Cannabis and insomnia + LSD good and bad trips I went to an Iridologist a few tears ago. In the conversation we had as she looked at my eyes and also did some kinesetic testing, I told her that I smoked Cannabis fairly regular. She said, "Oh, that stuff is good for stabilizing your blood sugar." I've never had any issues with my blood sugar, as far as I know. But for some reason her statement really stuck with me. I've never stoped to research if anyone else is saying this, though. Being somewhat of an energetic person. Some might even call me a bit high strung at times. Using cannabis has helped me to offset some of that. Meditation did also after it became more established as a steady practice. As I've mentioned before with cannabis, using it played a role in my quitting Paxil, an SSRI. My mother has had trouble with insomnia all her life. So I come by that honestly but not quite as severely as she has to deal with it. I attribute that to my use of Cannabis as well. She's way too uptight and conservative to even think about smoking some weed. If she did, I think it would really freak her out so much that she would never get over that hump to where it would start becoming beneficial. Long time smokers of cannabis will understand what I mean by this. I see this same issue with people trying psychedelics for the first time. A bad or unsettling type of trip can unnerve a person to where they can become so shaken to the core that not only will they abandon the idea of ever trying it again. The impact of this trauma can also be so overwhelming they may actually stop associating with anyone who does them and also their previous goals in Spiritual development. I believe this kind of backlash more easily comes about if they have an idea of what the trip we be like before with far flung notions of full of blissful transcendency. Or also if they begin a trip with a good deal of fear. Some of the more unpleasant LSD trips I've had has been where I've taken 100-200 ug. I'm more likely to resist it's coming on and then with the mind getting involved in the resistance, it will begin to start issuing thoughts which are more negative. That's why I'm a believer in taking a good stout dose of 500 ug or so. There's no resisting that. It just overwhelms you and with proper set and setting, next thing you know boundaries drop away. Then one just becomes childlike and full of wonder and often experiences subtle forms of things paranormal. Tripping with someone who is experienced and psychologically balanced, I believe also makes it possible to have a great trip instead of a nightmare trip. Anyway, back to the point I was wanting to make in regard to insomnia and sleep deprivation. Cannabis for myself anyway, has had some good effects. An indica strain combined with reading on a book really does me good for the times I wake up and can't get back to sleep. Just as pronounced, if not moreso is when I find myself sleep deprived to the point that I feel super tired and my body is flushed and feels almost feverish. A good mixed indica/sativa strain will revive me in a sense but also get rid of that sensation in the body of it feeling flushed and feverish. Then I almost feel somewhat like I got more sleep than I actually had and then have a decent start on the day ahead.

Undoing Errors in Judgement by Dr. Jim Rosen ©2020 Dr. Jim Rosen Suppose you’ve been sick with a stomach virus and you’re still feeling weak. But wishing you felt OK, you push yourself and get up and get out. And then this lands you in bed again, but now with an even longer recovery time. Or suppose you really like that car, but you can’t afford it. And you buy it anyway, wishing and trying to make yourself sort of believe that you can afford it. And now you’re burdened with payments that put an extra strain on you. Or let’s suppose that your relationship with your mother has never been good. You keep hoping it will magically turn around. So you make another trip to see her and spend too much time with her. And now you get to experience the distance and the disappointment yet again. You appear to be suffering from a kind of MADness that psychologist Richard Kluft calls “Mental Alchemy Disorder.” You are believing in magic when you respond to the way you wish things were instead of responding to the way things are. This can lead to some pretty stressful and costly mistakes. You may not like the way things are, but if you deal with what is, you put yourself in a place of peace by your acceptance. And you release yourself from the consequences of yet another unfulfilled fantasy. Your willingness to see it as it is enables you to deal directly with life events. You are undoing an error in judgement. You are expanding your abilities to focus your efforts and manage your life.

@tsuki For whatever it's worth, I see nothing wrong with flirting. Ken Wilber once stated that he admired the openness and psychological flexibility of Bi-sexual men and he kinda wished that he were bisexual even though as he says that he's a hardwired heterosexual. I identify with James Franco's statement a few years ago when he said that he was just a little bit gay. That perhaps he was just a gay cock tease,,, lol. Around that same time (2015) I told a relative a that at times I felt perhaps, psychologically gay. Just a different way of expressing what James Franco did. It immediately got twisted and blown all out of proportion. Although as a hardwired heterosexual, as Wilber phrases it, in having friends who were gay and bisexual, I've had a lot of experience in witnessing and dealing with homophobic pathology in our patriarchical world. I admire your courageousness in being authentic, friend.

I respect you and others here on the forum like @mandyjw and @DrewNows who take the initiative to get in front of the camera. I get tense, uptight and nervous more often than not when being recorded on video. You come across as authentic and at ease in front of the camera. That's a gift of sorts. I can see where encountering bullys would almost be a given when anyone puts out YouTube videos. As you know, bully's are just hurt, insecure people who compulsively try to hurt others but they still suck. With English being your second language, I have to pay attention a little more closely than normal. I seem to be kindred spirits with Romanians for some reason, similar to the way I feel/am with the British. Regarding your perspective that there is an elite Left who are manipulating things in the world. I have to say take a real close look at news sources who mischaracterizes the left while camouflaging their own right wing world view and agenda. I saw this happen with my sister, somewhat. Then again, maybe I misunderstood your perspective. I'm not saying I'm correct and the other way is not but,,,, well, yeah, I guess I am saying that. Perhaps in being an Idiot, I can get by with that. ? Hope your trust returns soon. With having trust, we're more likely to be happy and also protected by the Cosmic Forces that are of harmony. Let's hear you rattle off a few sentences of Romanian sometime on one of your YouTubes ,,,,.?‍♂️

That describes him very much in giving this talk. Tonight being the first time I've heard it. Found this one here in my browser. Thought I posted it previously but I guess not. If anyone runs across Ram Dass telling the joke about Nussruddin identifying himself at the bank, I would appreciate a time mark and also which lecture it is in. I lost track and would like to hear again and how he tells it.