Zigzag Idiot

My I CHING reading this morning. hexagram 2- Nature line 4 forming 2nd hexagram 16- Enthusiasm Just a part of line 4-

Got this on 8 track tape when I was about 10 or 11,,, late 70’s,,, I like that above. When I was done dying. I had forgotten about it but I saved it this time.

Integration and Individuation Should and ought to are usually coming from the voice of the superego. I’m not completely done by all means but I’ve come a long way. I got the following in my email a couple of days ago. To me it looks like work on superego. That’s good,,, A liberated sexual energy is fuel for the spiritual journey. Dear spiritual voyager, What is actually happening in you when you respond to a situation with strength and confidence? What fuels that boldness? And why can you do this sometimes, yet at other times, you shrink back; from your boss or your parents, or from overwhelm at the immensity of current events like the pandemic or environmental crises? How can you be more consistently courageous and self-assured? On April 24 & 25, Diamond Approach teacher Zarina Maiwandi will host Boldness to Be, the third installment in our six-part Lightness of Being series. Zarina will guide us back to that subtle quality of being, the red latifa, that supports our natural fieriness of spirit and sense of adventure, that allows us to, as she says in this short video, “get big in the face of something big.” In Boldness to Be, we will learn that: Inquiring into where we are in this moment is the portal to reconnecting with the fiery initiating force of our natural boldness and strength The purity of our boldness and strength can help us channel our anger and aggression in healthy and effective ways in our lives This force helps us dismantle old assumptions about our bigness that come from our personal histories, our conditioning, our society, and other sources We can meet the world’s difficulties—and our own—in bold and daring ways “What if the scale and might and vibrancy that you see outside…is also possible inside you?” asks Zarina. “What would that be like?” We invite you to come find out for yourself.

Self-love or Just Plain Selfish? (part 3 of 3) by Dr. Jim Rosen ©2021 Dr. Jim Rosen Perhaps you haven't learned to balance your own needs with the needs of others. So you don't yet have true self-love. You're either too far one way or the other, and you need to learn the skills at the other end. If you've been too self-centered, you need to acquire the skills of giving before you can have self-love. You won't learn these skills by doing them occasionally. Instead, you have to make a devoted study of other people's needs, and forget about yourself for the next year or two. You need to be like Scrooge after being visited by the Spirits of Christmas. But if it's your life pattern to be the people-pleaser, then you need a long-term visit with the needs of self. For the next year or two, your task is to say "no" to other people and "yes" to yourself. Your primary questions have to be "what do I want?" and "what do I need?" You will not become a selfish person. That's just your fear. You'll actually learn to value yourself, and you'll discover that others value you too. With much practice, your new learning becomes your new habit. Now you’ve acquired the skills at both ends of the continuum. So, now you’re able to make real choices – you’re not just stuck in one place. This is where balance and true self-love come to the forefront. Sometimes you choose to take care of yourself, and sometimes you choose to take care of others.

Still a lot of projections and miss interpretations going on. IME I’ve been pretty busy lately. I’m tired and sleepy now. I’m going to try not to overanalyze if I can remember that there’s nothing wrong with having nothing to say. For now anyway. ✌️

The amount of projecting that goes on in the world is staggering. The amount of identifying that goes on in the world is staggering also. Its not sex but negative emotion that makes the World go around. People unconsciously feed on negativity. Observe the media,,, Everyone is a multiplicity but everyone thinks they are the exception.

What I was describing above is ‘inner considering’ using Fourth Way lingo. Itoklanoz awareness was the phrase used in Beelzebub’s Tales to his Grandson which means two centered awareness. Three centered awareness which is proper for 3 brained Beings was referred to as Fulasnitamnian awareness. To enter the Kingdom, which is at hand by the way, requires Fulasnitamnian awareness. We can’t maintain any kind of balance or “have our being” if we’re lopsided in our awareness. This morning,,, well, yesterday morning now, in my I CHING reading I got - hexagram 27 - Nourishing lines 2,3 and 6 creating a second hexagram 11- Peace I’ll share the interesting commentary from line 6 of hexagram 27-

Friends don’t let friends get stuck and stay in their head. A good friend will recognize the phenomena and say, “Hey, you’re thinking too much” or “”Hey! -friends name- do you realize you’re stuck in your head?” “You’re not going to be able to embody diddly-squat while you got that going on,,,,” A good friend will be a placeholder and their effectiveness in busting someone out of neurotic thought and thinking too much can be a measure of their skillful means. This can mean initiating conversations with friends while they’re in different states of consciousness and help to stretch their frame of reference so that later on a simple statement can be enough to help bust someone out.

Robert Thurman, Buddhist scholar and Deepak Chopra toss it back and forth. I bought this dvd off Amazon a few years ago. It’s both entertaining and educational.

Good commentary from Stan Grof, Francis Vaughn, Charles Tart, Ralph Metzner and a few others.

Stanislov Grof https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stanislav_Grof https://www.inspiringquotes.us/author/2131-stanislav-grof http://www.holotropic.com/ Charles Tart I recommend his book Waking Up https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charles_Tart Charles Tart Official Home Page https://www.paradigm-sys.com/ In videos I've seen where both Grof and Tart claims to have coined the term 'Transpersonal' in relation to psychology. ?‍♂️

Projections can quietly and steadily gain momentum. To gain clarity is to become free inside of all the others in order to hear again one’s inner truth. Inner truth connects all the way back to beginners mind. Cleaning one’s atmosphere is paradoxical in that becoming free of everyone, unity is attained with all others. Clearing the luminous egg and then metaphorically making it hermetically sealed is an act of Will and Love. The luminous egg needs to be clean while the assemblage moves or slightly shifts to keep one’s awareness free from liens and mortgages. Don’t put a property tax on a burned out village. Let go and become free once again in unity and inner quiet. In times past that seemed extraordinary, I found it necessary and worthwhile to build an adjoining pen to my luminous egg in order to let the ego run wild. The pen encircled the luminous egg making it seem larger than it actually was. Having attained inner quiet in a particular way, there is an obscure bylaw which allows one to make up rules within certain parameters. It was an unexpected discovery. Being free from negativity and violence bestows on one a curious power. If you expectantly look for it though, it will not appear.

Two more depressing songs from the Eagles. I sang this song above before a huge audience in one of the few lucid dreams I ever had. TMI,,,

Just my 2 cents Head voice = ego, superego, and uncontrolled imagination Heart voice = awakened conscience and purified emotional center In spiritual sleep, conscience is buried in the subconscious.

Self-love or Just Plain Selfish? (part 2 of 3) by Dr. Jim Rosen ©2021 Dr. Jim Rosen Self-love is a feeling of positive regard. When you have true self-love, you guide this positive regard toward yourself and toward all of humanity. You show love to yourself because you're a person - a creation of God. You show love to the rest of us for the same reason. Of course you don't love everyone's behavior. What you love is their heart, their core. You love the soul of humanity, because they hurt and yearn and need like you do. Deep feelings - of love, trust, faith, and security - give birth to self-love. When you love yourself, you put trust and faith in yourself. You recognize that your needs and wants are real. You feel worthy and you want to be good to yourself. So, you learn to be giving and kind to yourself and appropriately assertive. You strive to pay attention to your own needs, and you give them equal importance to other people's needs. (To be continued.)

The quickest way to become miserable and confused is to reach conclusions. Most of my life I’ve been terrible at living with ambiguity, though. It’s gotten easier somewhat as I’ve grown older.

We are a different person every 5 minutes, all day long. Terence. McKenna said - “Rome falls nine times an hour.”

About 6 years ago I was in a little online ACIM discussion group. This idea popped into my mind one day and I produced a quote of my own. There’s nothing wrong with having nothing to say. At the time it produced a sense of groundedness. I’m usually a quiet person. The more quiet I am, the more grounded I feel, as a rule. I don’t get trapped up in my head in inner considering. Inner considering is a Fourth Way term roughly synonymous with neurotic thought. The more insecure a person is the more of a plague inner considering is, IMO. I’ve posted this little two minute video several times. With only 300 views, I bet 50 of them are mine. I really like all the short videos this guy made. I remember Castaneda writing that sometimes for the truth to stick we must repeat them to the point of exhaustion. He said something close to that anyway. Another thing which keeps me grounded in the body more and stuck less up in my head is not wearing glasses. I can’t see far off and I can do without glasses. A few years ago I noticed that with glasses on my frame of vision is closer to tunnel or predator vision. With glasses off I feel more spacious,,, more oceanic, more embodied and I’m tuned into my peripheral vision. Having split attention between predator and peripheral vision for me is a hallmark of or a part of being in Witness consciousness. In witness consciousness there is never a startle response experienced. In my experience anyway.

The Law of attraction and the flow state Years ago after beginning self inquiry I began to notice a peculiar phenomena. On days when my internal dialogue was filled with negativity, it would mirror outside in the world around me as being clumsy, stubbing my toe or getting fingers smashed, etc.,, Also my efficiency In carrying out tasks would go down the tubes. On the reverse side, when experiencing a state of flow, tasks would be knocked out with rapid efficiency accompanied by a quiet inner state. Yesterday while climbing up the side of the paint booth in our shop I recalled an incident years ago. I was on the roof of the shop near the peak temporarily removing a sheet of tin to repair a bad place in the peak. In doing so I mistakenly removed all the screws in the sheet of tin which sent it flying outward and down dumping me into the shop. God saved an Idiot I thought yesterday in going by that spot. Fortunately I fell downward two inches onto a rafter rather than 18 feet onto concrete with steel scattered about. My task yesterday was repairing some high pressure air line. Just a few seconds after going by the spot where the incident happened years before I walked across the top of the paint both and grabbed the high pressure line with intentions of snapping it off where the air was spewing. I thought enough air had been released that it would be safe to do so. I was wrong. It exploded and laid a raspberry across my face and shoulder and slightly blacking one eye. Even while the pain was still throbbing I thought something like “a benevolent God has once again saved an Idiot”. Knowing that I had just came extremely close to having lost my right eye being partially hit by the blast. The Oracle of the Cosmic Way points out how we create fates in our lives by the words we use which become spells in creating those fates. The spoken words and phrases we tell ourselves as well as the internal dialogue going on as we go about our day have very real consequences. I notice this phenomena more and more as time goes on. There’s a subtlety here as well I’ve noticed. In acknowledging a benevolent God/Universe, I was indeed spared from a more serious trauma. Had I been in a really poisonous frame of mind, things would probably been much worse. Despite years of noticing this phenomena, still there are days experienced in varying degrees of spiritual sleep. That’s a pointer to the difficulty in being and remaining in a state of higher consciousness.

I’m a phony if pretend to know much about the Socratic method. I know it’s the method used in Law schools and that more or less, it’s not adversarial. I watched Arnold Keyserling summarize it in a video years ago. It’s the method also for the School of Wisdom founded by Keyserling’s Father in Germany in the early twentieth century. The same with the Way of the Malamat. It was mentioned by Robert S. de Ropp in one of his books on inquiry - The Master Game or Self Completion and also by Maurice Nicoll in his Psychological Commentaries. Doing a search just now I see there is quite a bit to be found. It didn’t seem that long ago that I couldn’t find much about it doing a search. Looks like there is a way of Blame in all the major Religions. I was only familiar with the Christian Version. I’m attracted to the idea of developing better skillful means in giving advice. Giving unsolicited advice has been partly in my blind spot in the past. From my own experience with this I know the value of being a good listener more so now than in the past. Just by looking at the forum it seems giving unsolicited advice is a fairly widespread phenomena/behavior. I think it’s fine though here if done with goodwill, sincerity, and discernment. Isn’t learning from each other kind of what the forum is about? Rhetorical questions would seem to me to be in the spirit of the Socratic method. The spirit of the Socratic method was really my intentional aim when I thought of bringing it up this morning.