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I completely agree and have experienced it in myself before. Many times,,, Anger Is higher in the scale of emotional tone than shame or apathy.

Not complaining doesn’t mean repression or blowing sunshine up everyone’s ass either. It’s just not giving expression to a negative emotion. Has anyone noticed how expressing negative emotions seems to drain one of chi energy or life force? Not expressing negative emotion is good cooking! @Preety_India I didn’t say everything negative is wrong. Do you think you could have projected that this thread is about toxic positivity? Lets talk it out friend,,,

The enneagram is a deep topic. Study or typing of personality types is the most superficial of the concepts it represents. I don’t mean to dismiss the personality studies it frames. I’ve found it very useful for working on myself within my own inquiry. The enneagram shows the law of 3 and the law of 7 or octave which frames the Ray of Creation. In this YouTube, some of the text from Beelzebub’s Tales to his Grandson is being read.

Underneath I’ve pasted a bit from Chance and Choice. It goes along with the excellent material @kinesin posted. Esoteric traditions have always known that the autonomic nervous system is the key to Awareness and thus to spiritual development. The autonomic system is the doorway to the wisdom of the body. The body systems may be unconscious, and the autonomic nervous system may be outside "our control," that is, our ego control, but it is still a part of us, the holistic self. For this reason some people have learned to control some of the autonomic systems, and a few Yogis for instance, can slow down, or even stop, the heart for a short time. The autonomic nervous system is divided into two parts: sympathetic and parasympathetic. The sympathetic system accelerates the twelve organ systems of the body with adrenaline. It is tuned to the left hemisphere of the brain -- the ego, time and waking consciousness. The parasympathetic system does just the opposite. It slows down the organs. It is tuned to the right hemisphere of the brain -- to self, space and dreaming. The sympathetic design system connects the organs to the spinal cord horizontally. The spinal cord is related with one nerve to the cerebellum, and 20 nerves to the organ systems, through the twelve chest vertebrae and the five lumbar vertebrae. Thus in waking we are not just apprehending the real world, but are also processing the reactions of the organs. For that reason we naturally create the human environment in part as an organic projection. For example, we build kitchen's for our stomach, and toilet and sewer systems for our waste elimination organ system. Our skeleton is like our machines, our brain is like our computers. We build facilities like our liver for power and energy production, and our fashions are related to our skin and sensation system. We have to get in tune with our body and its twelve systems to understand our environment. The slowing parasympathetic nervous system is only connected to the head nerves and to the sacrum. There are no connections with the vertebrae. The directive tenth nerve, vagus nerve, which actually changes it position over time and is thus known as the "wandering nerve," branches out to other organ systems. But the vargus nerve does this in a 1:1 relation, not 20:1 as in the sympathetic system. The deceleration side of the nerves is tied to the spiritual side of man. The quickening is tied to the material. For example, in the male sex organs, erection depends on the parasympathetic system, on romantic love. Ejaculation comes from the sympathetic system, from the movement of love making, from quickening. Consciousness is inherently fragmented. It follows the numbers one to infinity. Awareness is holistic, unifying. It follows the number zero. Slowing down and quickening have a limit which leads to the same experience from two different directions. Slowing down the associations in Yoga creates a state of meditation. Quickening can lead to the greatest velocity, the speed of light, illumination. The slowing down is stopping, absolute zero, which again is illumination, but of a different character. As soon as you come to a full stop and reach complete silence and center, you are in the same place as the speed of light, and illumination will come by itself. This has been described by many Asian traditions and scientifically by transpersonal psychologists like Charles Tart. Thus Yin/Parasympathetic and Yang/Sympathetic blend in total awareness of Chi. With this blending a human can be totally awakened to both this and the next world. Taken from chapter four - http://www.chanceandchoice.com/course-overview/brain-and-mind/

@Preety_India I’ll smoke to that! Maybe it will result in more frequent- Symptoms of Inner peace http://www.halexandria.org/dward774.htm

http://www.halexandria.org/sitemap.htm A little bit of something for everyone,, maybe An old favorite of mine. Beware of getting terminal seriosity. Become a Bozo-Sattva http://www.halexandria.org/dward015.htm Find a webpage you like and share it with the rest of us if you like.

I think it’s a great idea. A lot of people will not give up their unnecessary suffering. I used to be one. Still am sometimes. I practice letting go of reaching conclusions and that saves me from a lot of suffering sometimes. Life is often unfair. I use to complain a lot about how things were often unfair and it only aggravated and prolonged my suffering.

Had a nice fire this evening. It was too hot to enjoy it though. I’m still burning underbrush that I’m clearing out on my hill. It’s going to take a couple of months next fall and winter to finish the whole hill. While grocery shopping this morning a woman whistled a cat call at me. Not from a distance either. This was as we passed each other in a grocery isle. It caught me off guard. I just said -“why Thank ya” and walked away not really knowing what else to do. Of course my ego really got some mileage out of this. That’s the first cat call I ever got as an adult. I think.

I can understand why some people I interact with are possibly concerned about my mental stability. I’m not saying that they are or I think they are because I don’t know and so to state that would be a projection. Looking in the rear view mirror at my life. The past has been a series of ups and downs in several areas of life. Mental acuity , physical health, psychological balance, spiritual insight, inspiration. Human beings are definitely multidimensional. Okay???? Okay,,,, In an earlier post I admitted to my life being on more of a left hand path within the last couple of years. Not in an Aleister Crowley kind of way but kind of. I’ve had episodes of delusion that mixed with paranormal phenomena to the extent that I can’t say for certain what constitutes actual reality as I write this down, here in my journal, in a non delusional frame of mind. That rather bland statement surely feels like an understatement. To go more out on a limb might just invite high minded conventional do-gooders into my life again and that is something I don’t care to do. Whoever originally remarked that the world of the mystic and the schizophrenic are one and the same knew something a large percentage of the population will forever be clueless about. IMO. That’s enough about that for now,,, Within the last month I’ve began to put my phone on -Do not disturb- for long periods of time. Here is one result. People began projecting like crazy. Some more than others of course. Some who are reading this might find this an inviting thing to do for two reasons. 1) As a Malamat practice to see if it’s true in how it results in many projections towards oneself and 2) paradoxically, an act of Self Love in reclaiming sovereignty over your own life in the form of being free from that damn thing that keeps you at the mercy of everyone who has your number. To put it dramatically. ?

A few years ago when I was doing dream work I found that this was key. It’s almost like movement of the body after awakening acts as a dream eraser. So writing the dream down as soon as possible is very important. At least it was for me.

I’ve learned through the I CHING that avoiding eye contact with someone who is completely taken over by the pain body is a beneficial thing to do. While at the same time asking that their higher self can come through. I remember my father not making eye contact with me when I was younger. Times when I was bad out of sorts and acting ugly. Recalling these times helped me realize the truth in this. Making eye contact with someone who is acting completely from the ego only feeds their ego. The I CHING says when someone’s pain body is in complete control they rob others of chi energy by making eye contact . I’m paraphrasing by using Echart Tolle’s word pain body but I think it communicates the idea clearer.

I have a friend who does Rolfing. Or a form of it.He’s a colorful character. He’s a self taught chiropractor. That should tell you something,,,He went to massage therapy school but he never bothered with getting a license. I would go so far as to call him a healer because he’s so talented. Over the years he’s worked on quite a few people so he can stay fairly busy if he wants to. The paradoxical thing about him is that in addition to being a healer, he loves to fight and will act like he’s bored if there aren’t 3 or 4 at once trying to take him on. He has taught different kinds of karate in the past. Mostly with his massage therapy he does a pressure point therapy mixed in with it he basically beats the hell out of you. What I referred to as a form of Rolfing. He’ll also crack your neck if he thinks you need it, even if you ask him not to. A few years ago he got into a scrap with another local over a woman. They met one another in town on the five lane. One going north and the other going south. I don’t know for sure but I think the other guy just stopped and got out and started running at my friend who was driving in the oncoming traffic. When he saw how he was being challenged, he didn’t waste any time abandoning his truck in the middle of the highway, just like the other guy. That’s how I he told me it went anyway. Long story short,,, they fought back and forth across the highway something like 1 1/2 times. Much like those stupid bulls of ours I was telling about a while back. Similar to the bulls, these guys was going at it oblivious of the traffic. This is kind of sad for my journal that I’m just basically gossiping. It was an entertaining description of my friend, I thought though. I guess the moral of the story is that we’re all multidimensional and my friend just provided a good example of it. I might show him this sometime. He’ll probably just laugh. I got attacked by a big pit bull when I went to visit him a couple of years ago. Some guy went to prison and his girlfriend was staying with my friend for a few days and kind of abandoned the dog for a while. The dog was absolutely crazy and had to be kept on a chain. Well, the chain broke when I approached his front door. He broke the skin an my abdomen. It would have been a lot worse if it hadn’t been cold and I had about 3 layers on. My friend was right there on it too. Even while being attacked I was amazed at how little the dog regarded the ax handle that was bouncing off his skull. The dog was put down not long after this. I thought it was the best thing to do given all the circumstances. That dog could have easy ended up killing someone’s kid(s). I guess that’s enough gossip for now.

To Be or Not to Be by Dr. Jim Rosen ©2021 Dr. Jim Rosen Be the things that you want to have. Do you want love? To be loving is the way to have the love you want. By extending your love, by expressing your love, obviously you add to the love felt by those around you. Not so obviously, you also add to the love that you feel. It makes you more whole, more full, more complete, more joyous, more love-filled. You want inner peace? To be peaceful inside yourself, express feelings of peace and calm to others. Grab onto every little bit of peace and calm you can find within, and then share it. Put it out there. You will find that it calms others and adds to your own calm and peace and well being. When you share love, when you share peace, you do not diminish the love and peace that you have. Indeed, you add to the love and peace within you. Your mind is a powerful thing. By using it to express goodness, you increase the goodness felt in the world - everyone’s world.

Harvard Professor of Psychology, Richard Alpert, peer and friend of fellow Professor Timothy Leary https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Timothy_Leary, later to become initiated into Hinduism as Ram Dass. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ram_Dass https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Be_Here_Now_(book) Great talk in which he shares in his usual rich way. I had forgotten that he taught at Chogham Trunpa's Naropa University in Colorado. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chögyam_Trungpa He starts out deep in this talk and on into his lecture and he reads some biographical events out of his Book; Be Here Now. He relates some personal stories with some humorous events sprinkled through out. One of which was his interaction with Bhagavan Das https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bhagavan_Das_(yogi) and his giving Lsd to his Guru https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neem_Karoli_Baba

Back talking and sassing at the superego towards successful individuation Back talking and sassing at the superego as practice in reading Almass's books, To build up your red energy. Rarely was it all role played by me. I observed getting identified in emotion and passionate in imaginary speech . (back talk} That's ok. That;s the red energy. This makes possible available energy for spiritual practice. The one most crucial is inquiry, self observation and Self Remembering, From My I CHING reading this morning. Seed phrases that drive impulses are- "you need to defend yourself" "you need to be somebody" You must a assert yourself in this life" Should,s, ought to's, and musts" definitely have the smell, of the superego. Whoever human authority figure that has a voice in your head. That's it. Successful individuation is when we become more like friends moreso than before with our parents or caretakers'. "no blame" is to make him aware that the idea of guilt has no validity in the Cosmos This last bit about ","guilt having no validity in the Cosmos" is revisited several times in The Oracle of the Cosmic Way. I think the awakening of Conscience and our understanding then is our compass .To compact and paraphrase with metaphor.

Staying happy-- deceptive Happiness does not need to be kept, or else it is gone, it is preserved though the perpetual readiness to fall. This is a piece taken out of some of Arnold Keyserling's writings. i think it falls under the category of channeling.

One thing I didn't mention about dealing with passive aggressiveness in others. If you clearly see it and you witness it with conscious awareness, it has no effect on you, It doesn't push your buttons. Let me state also that my remarks about passive aggressive tendencies is in no way aimed at anyone here in the forum but rather my experience as it is with others where I live. I'm clumsily doing this on an hp laptop I just bought. My I pad either has a virus or malware or maybe somebody is hacking the shit out of it. I feel like posting my I CHING readings occasionally may be a benefit to others in seeing the type of council that's given. Even though Ive gone back and erased previous readings plus other attachments that didn't seem crucial, I may still run out of allotted space before long. My I CHING reading this morning Hexagram 52 Meditating line 1 creating a second hexagram 22 Grace Sorry about the lousy resolution. Working with new stuff here,,,,,

Not long ago I felt compelled to write about passive aggressive tendencies. In self observation I saw this phenomena in myself in hindsight. The further back in time I go looking at this the more pronounced it was. Observing this in myself allows me to see it more clearly in others. This allows for understanding and forgiveness in which the forgiveness element becomes more in the way of overlooking transgressions. I would go as far to say if someone says that they have never acted this out in their interactions with either family or friends, they are deceiving themselves. This is a factor that has made itself more noticeable to me lately in my pondering. The unconsciousness tied to negative emotion is so powerful and pervasive. Before, I noted how ‘plausible deniability’ is a crucial element in passive aggressive behavior. Lately I’ve seen how this plausible deniability manifests also in one’s self deception and linked with justification of some kind. This is how in the beginning of ones self observation the denial of passive aggressive tendencies in oneself will be expressed in defending against taking responsibility for this behavior. From my perspective the materialistic stage of S.D. Orange is where the apex of this schizoid behavior will be. At SD Green worldview the partly awakened heart will just not let this self deception take place in complete unconscious acting out. Conscience or the small, still voice has started to speak and although people dip back into spiritual sleep after awakening, they will never sleep as comfortably again and pretending not to hear the small, still voice will no longer be as effective as it once was. So in dealing with others the wisdom will be seen to give them space as in hands off or don’t point out or get preachy about what they’re doing. They may only double their efforts in justifying in some way their passive aggressive tendencies. On another topic is my own path becoming more and more of a left handed path in the last 3 years or so. I’ve progressively become more of an edge runner. This is something that would be foolish of me to deny. Let me also say that I’m not an advocate of this path. I’ll probably express more about this as time unfolds. Jim Marion in his book Putting on the Mind of Christ writes about this phenomena in a more judicious way than others but that’s just my opinion. It’s a book I feel compelled to reread.

@Myioko You posted a song from a movie. This was a favorite movie of my grandmother and sister. I liked it too. This song has always been bad to get stuck in my head. From High School days no one song in particular These albums were hot then I saw the Eliminator tour in Fayetteville as a 16 year old. The sound from the wall of their amps and speakers parted your hair when they thumped.

@The0Self Is consciousness an object?

Yes, The witness in non-conceptual awareness aka. Objectless awareness

@machiavelli Good self observation and question. I’m much like yourself and want to give expression to truth. I’ve seen myself expressing concepts that I agree with and that feel right but are not yet embodied out of a felt experience connected fully with my inner truth. So they remain more conceptual than realized. When it comes from my being instead of my mind, there’s no doubt and it flows out naturally in tune with whatever environment it’s being conveyed into. I’m still a work in progress, myself. I agree with a lot of what everyone else is saying, also.

@Myioko The Safety Dance came out when I was in High School and yeah, we all got sick of it fairly quick. I had forgotten all about it so, thanks for shaking my memory tree. ? By the way, as others have also said, I enjoy your art. ?‍♂️

In the Name of Openness and Honesty by Dr. Jim Rosen ©2021 Dr. Jim Rosen Is it always best to be open and honest? If it’s only going to cause more pain, perhaps you should try holding your tongue and refraining from what seems to be total honesty. The way to heal a wound is by speaking words of love. The way to resolve a conflict is by listening with understanding. The path to making any relationship better is through love and understanding. Openness and honesty are good if they help get you there, but not so good if they fuel the fire. When you are hurt and angry, there is such a temptation to attack and fight. You can feel a powerful desire to blame the other person and a seductive enticement to bring up just one more (honest) grievance. When this anger and resentment take over, they become a harsh and negative cloud that covers up the warmth in your relationship. You cannot blast this cloud away by expressing more hurt and anger and misunderstanding - even if it seems to be open and honest. Rather, you can wash the cloud away with expressions of love and understanding. This is the real way, the true way to be open and honest.