Zigzag Idiot

The natural result of Love being the perceptual filter with which the World is experienced is Mercy.

Loneliness by Dr. Jim Rosen ©2021 Dr. Jim Rosen When the circumstances of your life are making you lonely… When there doesn’t seem to be a way out of loneliness… it can feel like an attack on your worth as a person. And it can bring an array of negative emotions. You may feel empty, like there is a big hole inside of you where something is missing. You may feel afraid that you’ll never get the friends and love you need. And there are hurt feelings, because you think your loneliness means there’s something wrong with you and if you were a better person, you wouldn’t be lonely. And there can be anger – anger at the world for putting you in this situation, anger toward yourself, anger toward the people who don’t come around to fill that empty place. Now take your mind to the source of those painful emotions. You think it’s the loneliness, but it’s not the loneliness; it’s your interpretation of it. It’s your belief that you’re not worthy. It’s your idea that your inner self is lacking. You have to rid your mind of that junk and walk the path of healing and come to the place of self-worth. Your worth is a given, but you have to give it to yourself; you have to acknowledge your worthiness. In other words, you have to make the truth true in your own mind. The truth is not determined by a lack of other people in your life. The truth does not depend on anything going on or not going on out there. So you correct your thinking and move it to the place where you accept your worth as right and real. You deliberately and intentionally give these thoughts to yourself. This leads you to appreciate yourself, lonely or not. This enables you handle what life brings. Dr. Jim Rosen is a PhD Clinical Psychologist. He is an experienced psychotherapist, hypnotherapist, and couples counselor. He offers treatment for anxiety disorders, panic attacks, depression, relationship problems, self-esteem issues, assertiveness training, anger control, stress management, and overcoming the effects of sexual, physical, and emotional trauma.

I’ve got dry irritated skin this evening. Changing a fuel pump on my grandfather’s Ford pickup this afternoon I got soaked with gas along with getting a face full of it when I disconnected a line. Live and learn,,,, This morning I just received just one hexagram in my I CHING consultation. I’ve pasted only a part of the general commentary from The Oracle of the Cosmic Way.

My vision this morning became scattered as I tried to share it. Here is my partial expression of it anyway for whatever it’s worth. Concepts to ponder while listening to the above from Bruce Lipton In A Course In Miracles it states - This is a course in mind training (ACIM, T-1.VII.4:1) In the Fourth Way it is taught that Conscience is buried in the subconscious. Bruce Lipton quoting Einstein- “The field is the sole governing agency of the particle.” A.H. Almaas - Defines the soul as a field of impressionability. Awakened Conscience allows objective consciousness. Seeing the truth can be painful and cause the ego to die. Three steps and three components physical - emotional - intellectual Awaken, then die. Be born again. The impermanence romantic love is because the intellectual-emotional complex is not grounded in the body. It is two centered awareness. The law of Three states balancing the three centers results in a fourth manifestation. This is how we get Teflon coated and become creators as well. This is Three centered awareness. Balancing the three centers bestows the capacity for creating and perceiving existence through Love. Marianne Williamson quoting ACIM - “Forgiveness is Remembrance.” If you’ve warmed up to my chaotic notes above you may enjoy the YouTube I pasted below.

I misspoke here. This is from the first page of my journal. Being is not who I am. Being is something I have. It is only through 3 centered awareness that I can have my being and through that, possibly increase the being I have when the mind is in the heart. The degree of Being we have constantly fluctuates. This is something for everyone to verify for themselves.

Growth hierarchies and dominance hierarchies. Greens refusal of all hierarchies disturbs the practicality of those in blue. It understandably creates confusion and fear and throws gas on the fire of the culture war. Ken Wilber makes other points here that could also be elaborated on.

The willingness to be paradoxical is also a sign of inner security and strength. The Guts to Need Somebody by Dr. Jim Rosen ©2021 Dr. Jim Rosen She was having a hard time but didn't "need anybody," she said. She believed that "needing somebody is a weakness." She was mistaken. Needing somebody is a sign of being able to trust. It's a sign of allowing love in and allowing yourself to really love another. Needing somebody is being strong enough to admit your humanness, i.e., that you can handle life better if you add the wisdom and know-how of other people. Needing somebody is having the guts to open up and be emotionally available to the ones you care about. It's being secure enough with yourself that you expose your imperfections. Needing somebody is a sign of inner security and courage. It takes a secure person to give your heart into the hands of another. It takes courage to rely on someone else. When something is difficult to do but you do it, or hard to achieve but you achieve it, then it is an indication of strength.

Leo’s latest video encapsulated in a song. This will be difficult for some to sit with or not roll your eyes. I’m not looking for responses to this post because of the intrinsic message that I don’t need your damned validation but if you feel you have to respond then go ahead. There’s a part of my inner child that’s just a mean little shit.

@StarfoxEpiphany Could be you're projecting some.

@Windappreciator ??? Who understands why Leo laughed in the post above.

1) Naive is my middle name. 2) True, I get what you say. I agree.

@Utkarsh_ By mistake, I’ve done the same thing in the past. There is a link giving you the option at the bottom to hide your posts which are mistakes. I’ll use that option after while and hide this post. Welcome to the forum by the way. Hi @Preety_India ✌️ Just trying to help the new member and make them feel welcome,,,,

That’s not what I meant. Respectfully, I think you might miss-understand Wilber’s perspective slightly . I could be wrong or misinterpreting your statement though. I’m not blaming Green and I agree with your view of the MAGA conservatives but Green needs to wise up and find better skillful means which has a chance of neutralizing the growth of hatred from lower levels perhaps. @Windappreciator , I agree.

If you don’t understand constructs in object relations theory, you can’t get into spirituality. I wrote this down in a notebook on 11-11-13. Having run across it today in a notebook. I remember the profundity of it. Today it would probably be worded different. Perhaps using the term ego structure in trying to relay this idea. Ego structures are created out of images of self representation. More likely though I would just choose an excerpt from this page - https://www.diamondapproach.org/glossary/refinery_phrases/ego-structures or maybe this one - https://www.diamondapproach.org/glossary/refinery_phrases/object-relations

Quotes about Narcissism of Everyday Life Approaching the Dimension of Essential Presence We Inevitably Confront the Narcissism Inherent in Our Disconnection from that Presence When a person is working on self-realization, this narcissism is increasingly exposed; in fact, it is usually aggravated for some time. When we approach the dimension of essential presence we inevitably confront the narcissism inherent in our disconnection from that presence. The success of the work on self-realization depends, to a great degree, upon successfully resolving the arousal and intensification of narcissistic manifestations. The narcissism of everyday life is much more ubiquitous, much deeper, and much more significant than we usually allow ourselves to see. However, it dissolves steadily in the deeper stages of self-realization. Full self-realization completely eliminates this narcissism, for it is not natural to the realized self The Point of Existence, pg. 27 Complete Resolution of Narcissism Requires that We Cease to use Self-representations for Self-recognition Before we embark on this exploration, we need to address the significance of the above discussion with respect to narcissism. Our observation that the deepest root of narcissism is the absence of self-realization and the additional observation that in full self-realization the normal sense of identity dissolves, combine to give us a deep insight about narcissism: The presence of the normal identity is the root of narcissism. This implies two further insights, at different levels of the self. The first is that not only is normal identity fundamentally weak and vulnerable, but its very existence is responsible for this weakness, and thus it cannot become completely stable. In other words, the normal self (or more accurately, the ego-self) is inherently narcissistic because its identity is inherently weak and vulnerable. This weakness is due to the inevitable incompleteness of the self-representation, and therefore cannot be eliminated as long as the self-representation forms our sense of identity. Second, since the fundamental narcissism of everyday life is an expression of normal identity, complete resolution of narcissism requires that we cease to use self-representations for self-recognition. The Point of Existence, pg. 129 No Conventional Self is Ever Free from the Narcissism of Everyday Life (Fundamental Narcissism) We call this fundamental narcissism “the narcissism of everyday life” for no conventional self is ever free from it. However, this may bring up the question of how this dissolution of identity is related to the condition of fragmentation or disintegration of identity, which is, under normal circumstances, a manifestation of pathological narcissism. The main difference between the “death of the self” in self-realization and the disintegration of identity in pathological narcissism is that the former is a developmental achievement based on the greater strength and flexibility of identity, while the latter is a developmental difficulty resulting from an extreme weakness and brittleness of the identity. There is no sense of the normal self in both conditions, but the former is a state of equanimity of the self for being fully itself, so fully itself that there is no need for self-reflection, while the latter is a painful and deficient state of the self, where it feels disconnected from its depth and fullness. The former is a state of self recognition not based on any representation, for it is recognizing what is actually present, while the latter is a state where there is no self-recognition of any kind. The Point of Existence, pg. 525 The Experience of Ego Cannot be Devoid of Narcissism As has been amply demonstrated by object relations theory, since all ego structures are based on identifications with impressions from the past, it is clear that the experience of ego cannot be devoid of narcissism. Thus the conventional dimension of experience, which is deeply patterned by these structures (whether healthy or pathological), includes an intrinsic narcissism. Everyone knows that he has some measure of selfishness, self-reference, a need to be seen and appreciated, a deep wish for esteem and admiration from others, and some distortion in his self-concepts. Although we are accustomed to thinking of these traits as normal, they are in fact narcissistic phenomena. They are universal to all non-realized individuals, reflecting the fundamental narcissism that is the result of not knowing oneself on a deep level. This is what we call the “narcissism of everyday life” or “fundamental narcissism.” The Point of Existence, pg. 26

Just kidding. kinda

I remember watching this when it first came out. Rarely did I miss one of his HBO specials. Perhaps Carlin’s comments on education lay the groundwork for how Trumps election came about. If he were alive during the Trump presidency. I have no doubt that he would have absolutely shredded Trump as well as Trump’s supporters. Aside from this. One of his quotes I remember from his book - Braindroppings. - “Sometimes a Little Brain Damage Can Help.”

@Matthew85 That’s great that you were able to attend some of his workshops. My opinion about Hawkins is just about like yours. Years ago I started with his book Power vs. Force then for a couple of years just lived with the two below reading them multiple times. A while back here on the forum some people said they were really turned off by his scale of consciousness. In a way I can understand their perspective but taking everything together I’m still really impressed by all his work.

Although not permanent, one pressure point therapy session immediately straightens my posture. How long it lasts depends basically on how conscious I stay during the lifting of heavy objects and doing hard work.

A massage therapist who is familiar with pressure point therapy can help with that. That’s the path I’m on because I have a friend who is a gifted massage therapist. I know that permanent correction is out of the question for me due to old injuries combined with habitual wear and tear. As time goes by I seem to require fewer visits per year though. A good Chiropractor who isn’t driven primarily over making a dollar is probably your best find if you can find one. Just my opinion though.

In the Science of Idiotism, God is at the highest degree of Reason - #21 Unique Idiot. Just sayin,,, In regards to worry. Terence McKenna - “Worry is preposterous. Worry is praying to the Devil.” Sometimes I still forget though and catch myself worrying.

I’ve stated before that I don’t care that much for contemporary country music. This song came out when I was 13 or 14. Regardless of the message in the lyrics. I’ve always thought he had a good voice as did my father. I remember the conversation where we were in agreement about it.

Radical honesty can be both a blessing and a curse. When one demands on speaking their truth regardless of the consequences and it just causes hurt and consternation. How does that benefit? It might help a situation on rare occasions but when expressed regardless of others feelings it can often lead things into a downward spiral. The following advice was given by Cynthia Bourgeault in an online course. I think it is somewhat applicable to this thread. /////////////////////////////////////////////////// Rather than moving too quickly to criticize and judge, you can exercise respect by practicing conscious speech. Before rushing to respond, stop, ground, take a couple of conscious breaths, then ask yourself these four questions: Does it need to be said? Does it need to be said now? Is it my place to say it? Can it be said with kindness? //////////////////////////////////////////////////////// I would do well to remember these four points. Like most of us though, I often forget myself and insist on having my say because of my being reactive and impulsive.

It can’t be helped When you’re honest You are beautiful

I’m going to have to delete this last one shortly out of decorum, respect for the forum, and to free up space for worthy attachments.