Zigzag Idiot

Our thinking is very limited when our feelings are dulled. When our feelings are purified of negativity and judgement. Beliefs no longer have any meaning because a person is then accessing understanding and knowing. It sounds like your intuition is leading you towards truth and becoming freer.

No.,,,,,,? Gurdjieff wasn't a Vegan. Which doesn't matter either way to me. He was just practical. Aquired Conscience juxtaposed with awakened Conscience. Aquired Conscience changes from culture to culture. It's mostly self contradictory moralistic flimsiness implanted by conditioning. Aquired Conscience makes one a slave to group think. This is how people are made into little zombies unable and unwilling to think for themselves. Awakened Conscience is the same in all people, when accessed. It is the small, still voice within which nondual realized Beings access for what's necessary in the moment. Aquired Conscience is the voice of the super ego and the shackles used by religion and culture. Eating the flesh of other beings DOES make people less sensitive and more violent. Vegans and Vegetarians with an unawakened Conscience are often self righteous and piled full of self conflict, negativity and violence in their judgements of others. Just like the ignorant rednecks who ridicule Vegitarians as "snowflakes".

If you encounter a state of consciousness that is more vivid and fulfilling than anything you've ever known and then the Pendulum swings into the negativity and shadow, two things come to mind. Although there are many more than two possibilities here. Both of the ones I'm thinking of have to do with Kundalini and Kundabuffer. If you "fall apart" or off the "edge of the world". You may be entering a Kundalini awakening. If after the pendulum swings and while in shadow the person looks back and is just cynical and dismissive for a few days and then returns into the light of optimism,,,,, That's symptomatic and an indication of having no real understanding of self deception and especially the subtlest of forms of being polluted by our own imagination. This is The consequences of Kundabuffer.I was fooling myself for a long time. That's why I can write things about it. It's very subtle in how it pollutes us. Within the first year that I heard the idea that 991/2 % of everyone is in spiritual sleep. I, of course sincerely felt that I was in that 1/2 %,,, had to be. Life was SO real, at times. And same type of situation in one being a multiplicity; 'man is legion'. That too.,,, I'm special, you know because at times I feel so alive,,, sure I have moods,,, but, everyone has moods,,,,, Here I stayed for years off and on doing Inquiry. Being cooked in an alchemical Kundalini fire can destroy parts of the personality. Some say that is Kundalini's basic purpose. I don't know? It's said in some of the Work literature that we won't be "shown" devastating truths unless one is capable of enduring it. This is the price of equanimity. I'm still making payments from time to time. I'm seriously considering finding a way to do some trippin with 5-MeO-DMT and see where that goes.

"This knowledge was still known in the middle ages when the few remaining secret wisdom schools were threatened by the inquisition. In the year 1299 a group of cabbalists, sufis and artisans (companions, not freemasons), invented a covert means to teach the meaning of the 52, and use it as a means of divination. They invented the deck of 52 playing cards, completely separate and apart from the tarot which was known and condemned by the establishment church. This is essentially the same playing cards known today all over the world. The cards were originally invented and used to create a seemingly harmless facade for their spiritual, "heretical" teachings. With the 52 playing cards they were able to teach the arcana openly in the inns where they met. If the gestapo-inquisition came by, they would pretend it was just a game. At worse they were only guilty of a lesser sin of gambling, not of heresy." -R.C.L. FACE CARDS KING: The start is to have the right livelihood , to have friends of other walks of life, to accept your instincts and needs , and to know in which field you have real mastery. Thus the path to Wisdom starts from mastery, from a position of health and attainment, and goes to the Ace, the unified field of awareness. QUEEN: The mastery and competence should become the status, a profession respected by others. You have to accept your place in society and family and become a personality , visible and desirable to others, being honest, sincere and trustworthy, not hiding any weakness. JACK: Due to our brain structure we learn our whole life. The starting point is work. By working to make things better, you evolve, make progress and join a team working to the same end. Out of this group effort your belief system improves and your faith is born. This will lead to fulfillment in your Spiritual Path . NUMBER CARDS (10) - In the depth of your Self, the core of your Being, you have the vision of ideals to attain. This vision gives you hope and the courage to strive: Beauty for sensing, Truth for thinking, Goodness for feeling, and impartial Justice for willing. Justice, not in the Roman, but in the Chinese interpretation: finding your right place in the cosmic order and in the golden chain of being. (9) - The striving for these infinite ideals enables you to plan and invent your own future projects. You program your own human computer, and carrying out your inventions as scriptwriter, producer and actor. You plan your life software, putting in additional time, linking it up with your dream , and thereby find the link to the muses , the inspiration. (8) - You then accept full responsibility for your dream and position. To do this, and act consciously as a leader, you must be able to explain , and to create appropriate methods or rituals for common action. You learn to trust the beyond, your angel , and your inner voice. (7) - Knowing your stand you have to fight for your values, even to death. You have to take the initiative. Remain open to questioning and assertions , nobody is ever totally in the right, the devil and evil are an invention of power people. You have to realize that forces of nature help you to find your individuation by way of omens and agreements, getting help from the nature spirits , the elementals. (6) - Whoever has real power can communicate , discuss and make statements in dialogue, instead of argument. You thereby establish the right priorities and link your own work with history and the ancestors . (5) - Having thus fulfilled your public and social duties, you turn to your own life. You start to have deeper insights into your self and your way, to discern more and more clearly and distinctly. You qualify and fine tune and analyze your statements about reality. Knowing your norm , your competence never transgresses it. In this way you find your true human identity . (4) - The real human will be able to take their wishes, their true desires as positive motivations. They will see them in their totality, in mental representations, and balance them in the center. Then you will develop the right strategies to attain them, just like any animal, trusting your communion with their world and attain wisdom in acting. (3) - The wishes will lead you again unto the way of knowledge, to study, the pursuit of knowledge of what really interests you. You will then gain a better understanding of others and yourself. As you do you will strive to discover your highest potentiality, your archetype , to evolve, trusting in natural growth like a tree. (2) - The tree has flowers, your capacity to create will grow and flower like the mature tree. If your conception is large enough, if you adapt to the prevailing conditions and take the technological world as your field of actualization, then you and others will be able to relate to your creations. (1) - Finally, knowing that you are not the creator, but only His tool or transmitter, you will let the force of healing flow to you. You will trust in your overall grasp of the whole in absolute confidence that it will never lead you astray. This will lead to a complete opening to the east, the voice of continuous revelation , the spirit of the times. You will attain the Ace of Spades - the symbol of true wisdom. Your journey to full wisdom will be complete. From: http://www.chanceandchoice.com/course-overview/the-human-computer/

I no longer eat as much meat as I used to. I can also see the value of not eating meat at all or being a vegetarian. I'm always struck by the vegetarians who preach non violence, yet in their hearts, murder their fellow man. Gurdieff from MEETINGS WITH REMARKABLE MEN on an expedition through the Himalayas: The first thing next day, with the consent of our consciences, degenerated like those of all contemporary people and corresponding exactly to the requirements of Hell, we killed all the goats, which only the day before we had regarded as our sincere friends and associates in overcoming the difficulties of the journey. After this admirable Christian-Mohammedan manifestation, one of us began to cut their meat into small pieces in order to roast it.

I make my own 'industrial strength' colloidal silver and have used it with success in sinus infections by using it through a neti pot. It always stings like a bitch and makes me do a little dance, but it works for me,,,

Sometimes when I fall out of equanimity, I'll do what's called the 'welcoming practice' on whatever ego manifestation is trying to arise. Just by accepting it fully and 'tasting it till I'm full' can often help it desolve more quickly than trying to process it or brace against it. Not always, but sometimes.

I lack in skillful means. I needed to hear that. Thank you.

Welcome! You'll find we're quite a varied bunch. Good luck with your endeavors!

The three fold energy that was listed at the top drew my attention. I'll stay tuned,,,

A core practice in the Fourth Way work beyond Inquiry is not expressing negative emotion. I used to be a real chronic complainer but it has taken years to get away from the tendency to automatically bitch about something. I heard Arnold Keyserling once say that if a person could go for two years without expressing negative emotion, they would be free from it for life. Implying that a person can get to a point where they actually do not take ANYTHING in a negative way. It's easy when you're in a comfortable safe environment but it's very different when we experience an injustice or violence or threat of violence. I have no doubt it's possible to improve in this over time but reaching a point where one is absolutely solid in this virtue of not taking anything at all in a negative way seems like a tall order. I would say basically approximating Sainthood. Any thoughts on this?

I know it sounded arrogant. But I was sincere. Life goes on in a mechanical way and devolves. Negativity is born out of mechanicality. Negativity doesn't become less over time by itself. It becomes more. It takes more conscious awareness to overcome negativity and that takes a lot of work. Meditation and Inquiry,,,

Excuse me but I strongly intuit you're completely in imagination.

I was on the edge of that territory a few years ago. Combination of reading about Christ Consciousness, while in symptoms of Kundalini Awakening. Also at the time I was getting reaquainted with Cannibis after 12-15 years of not smoking. There were other synchonicities like aspects of my numerology,,,,, feeding my imagination as well. "Is it hot in here? Or am I crazy?" - David Koresh

Doing some binge watching of Leo's videos. Watching this made me realize how I approach things in an intuitive way more than I realized. He stressed the need for quieting down both the body and mind. Purifying our emotional life, in order to be a better tuned receiver. Acting from good will as opposed to fear ,,,, Made many good distinctions that I never have thought of. Need to rewatch sometime. Especially toward the end. I'm writing a few notes and posting the Videos as I watch them in order to help me remember and integrate the knowledge more than I would if I didn't. That's my thinking and intention anyway,,,

That's a good distinction. I can relate!

Way to go man, for putting yourself out there and creating! Attempting something like this would really knock me out of my comfort zone. I applaud your efforts! Thank you.

I'm very much an introvert and relate with everything you've written. Being around other people I become completely disembodied. I'm not saying that as an out of body experience but I get completely stuck in my head. I become all mental,,, and get swept away. It's very much an ongoing process for me but one practice I work with is 'sensing my feet'. As boring as it sounds, I've come to experience the practicality of it. By inhabiting my body more thourghly my ability for staying relaxed and just simply being present is increased. Our western Culture idolizes big loud extroverted blowhards who have a way of intimidating introverts weather they mean to or not, it seems. On the other hand, us introverts are often 'aces' at being completely unaffected by awkward silences which makes most extroverts become really unhinged. Until I run across a specifically pertinent video by Leo, I'll share this one by a fellow introvert,,,,

Good message. Don't be taken in by charisma or likable personalities. But don't beat yourself up next time it happens. I have often become enamored with new interesting people and no doubt probably will again. Just a matter of time,,,, I can observe it,,,,

The Pearl is the Actualized Individuation of Your Soul When you are who you are, when you are just precisely yourself, you are your “point.” Just that. This has nothing to do with any qualities, functions, capacities, and skills you may have. It has nothing to do with your status in the world, and nothing to do with living this life in a body or not in a body. It is your nature. The Pearl Beyond Price is the connection between this genuine center and all the capacities, skills, and understanding that are a part of your growth as a human being. It allows your capacities, functions and accomplishments to develop in a genuine way as an outgrowth of your spontaneous unfoldment. It is the result of living in the moment, living in a way that is true to who you are. This is your genuine personal life, your own development, your own growth. The pearl is the actualized individuation of your Soul. So the personal essence is connected with your unique function, your unique work in this life. To actualize your particular unique work in this life means to be your personal essence. It is the essence of all that you have developed and integrated in your soul as you live a real life. Everyone is born with the true self, with the point. Although we feel that the point is unique in each of us, the quality of the point is universal. Then how do people become so different in their personal lives? This is due to the particular development of their personal essence. Diamond Heart Book Three, pg. 66 The Courageous Heart is Independent The courageous heart is independent of what the other person does and what the other person thinks of you. To have a courageous heart, you need to accept a certain kind of aloneness, a certain kind of independence. With the courageous heart, you are so independent that the person can do all kinds of unpleasant things but you can still see the reality. In that independence, the feeling is that you have to give constantly, regardless of what the other person does or what the situation is. Diamond Heart Book Four, pg. 203

The Dalai Lama eats roast beef fairly regular.

I like to do my Meditation sits on a five gallon bucket turned upside down with a pillow on it. its just the right height. Allows me to keep my back straight,,,, feet are spread shoulder width. Body alert but relaxed. "A relaxed body is an honest body." -Red Hawk

Pure Heart Pure heart is what I also call the courageous heart. The courageous heart does not eliminate love when there is hatred and does not try to choose one thing above another. The pure heart is open to the presentations of Being regardless of what they are. It is happy to be with whatever God wills, and it asserts no position. The attitude of purity is the attitude of no assertion. You don’t assert any truth. You don’t assert any knowledge, any perspective, any position. You don’t take a position; you don’t have a position; you don’t have a particular truth, opinion, belief, religion. You are absolutely poor. The attitude of purity is that you never close your mind and say that’s it. You never close the door. You are open not because you are uncertain, but because it is not possible to assert this or that about reality in some absolute way. And also there is no need or urge to assert this or that view. Diamond Heart Book Five, pg. 22 How Being Knows Itself Since Being is pure consciousness capable of direct awareness of itself, it does not require thinking and deduction for it to know itself. This is what most distinguishes it from the personality of the ego, which knows itself through reference to the past. One reason it is not easy to have a clear experience of Being is that the habit of ego is to know itself through reference to other perceptions, as in Descartes' "I think, therefore I am." Pearl Beyond Price, pg. 65

? I didn't mean it that way! Oh Lord, Im always so misunderstood.

Easy bub, I coulda been in public, this aint the wild west you can't just go around making dudes hard You seem very confident. Every time I see you, you have a nice confident smile. Do you experience embarrassment very often? Im just curious, you know, like a cat.