Zigzag Idiot

The three fold energy that was listed at the top drew my attention. I'll stay tuned,,,

A core practice in the Fourth Way work beyond Inquiry is not expressing negative emotion. I used to be a real chronic complainer but it has taken years to get away from the tendency to automatically bitch about something. I heard Arnold Keyserling once say that if a person could go for two years without expressing negative emotion, they would be free from it for life. Implying that a person can get to a point where they actually do not take ANYTHING in a negative way. It's easy when you're in a comfortable safe environment but it's very different when we experience an injustice or violence or threat of violence. I have no doubt it's possible to improve in this over time but reaching a point where one is absolutely solid in this virtue of not taking anything at all in a negative way seems like a tall order. I would say basically approximating Sainthood. Any thoughts on this?

I know it sounded arrogant. But I was sincere. Life goes on in a mechanical way and devolves. Negativity is born out of mechanicality. Negativity doesn't become less over time by itself. It becomes more. It takes more conscious awareness to overcome negativity and that takes a lot of work. Meditation and Inquiry,,,

Excuse me but I strongly intuit you're completely in imagination.

I was on the edge of that territory a few years ago. Combination of reading about Christ Consciousness, while in symptoms of Kundalini Awakening. Also at the time I was getting reaquainted with Cannibis after 12-15 years of not smoking. There were other synchonicities like aspects of my numerology,,,,, feeding my imagination as well. "Is it hot in here? Or am I crazy?" - David Koresh

Doing some binge watching of Leo's videos. Watching this made me realize how I approach things in an intuitive way more than I realized. He stressed the need for quieting down both the body and mind. Purifying our emotional life, in order to be a better tuned receiver. Acting from good will as opposed to fear ,,,, Made many good distinctions that I never have thought of. Need to rewatch sometime. Especially toward the end. I'm writing a few notes and posting the Videos as I watch them in order to help me remember and integrate the knowledge more than I would if I didn't. That's my thinking and intention anyway,,,

That's a good distinction. I can relate!

Way to go man, for putting yourself out there and creating! Attempting something like this would really knock me out of my comfort zone. I applaud your efforts! Thank you.

I'm very much an introvert and relate with everything you've written. Being around other people I become completely disembodied. I'm not saying that as an out of body experience but I get completely stuck in my head. I become all mental,,, and get swept away. It's very much an ongoing process for me but one practice I work with is 'sensing my feet'. As boring as it sounds, I've come to experience the practicality of it. By inhabiting my body more thourghly my ability for staying relaxed and just simply being present is increased. Our western Culture idolizes big loud extroverted blowhards who have a way of intimidating introverts weather they mean to or not, it seems. On the other hand, us introverts are often 'aces' at being completely unaffected by awkward silences which makes most extroverts become really unhinged. Until I run across a specifically pertinent video by Leo, I'll share this one by a fellow introvert,,,,

Good message. Don't be taken in by charisma or likable personalities. But don't beat yourself up next time it happens. I have often become enamored with new interesting people and no doubt probably will again. Just a matter of time,,,, I can observe it,,,,

The Pearl is the Actualized Individuation of Your Soul When you are who you are, when you are just precisely yourself, you are your “point.” Just that. This has nothing to do with any qualities, functions, capacities, and skills you may have. It has nothing to do with your status in the world, and nothing to do with living this life in a body or not in a body. It is your nature. The Pearl Beyond Price is the connection between this genuine center and all the capacities, skills, and understanding that are a part of your growth as a human being. It allows your capacities, functions and accomplishments to develop in a genuine way as an outgrowth of your spontaneous unfoldment. It is the result of living in the moment, living in a way that is true to who you are. This is your genuine personal life, your own development, your own growth. The pearl is the actualized individuation of your Soul. So the personal essence is connected with your unique function, your unique work in this life. To actualize your particular unique work in this life means to be your personal essence. It is the essence of all that you have developed and integrated in your soul as you live a real life. Everyone is born with the true self, with the point. Although we feel that the point is unique in each of us, the quality of the point is universal. Then how do people become so different in their personal lives? This is due to the particular development of their personal essence. Diamond Heart Book Three, pg. 66 The Courageous Heart is Independent The courageous heart is independent of what the other person does and what the other person thinks of you. To have a courageous heart, you need to accept a certain kind of aloneness, a certain kind of independence. With the courageous heart, you are so independent that the person can do all kinds of unpleasant things but you can still see the reality. In that independence, the feeling is that you have to give constantly, regardless of what the other person does or what the situation is. Diamond Heart Book Four, pg. 203

The Dalai Lama eats roast beef fairly regular.

I like to do my Meditation sits on a five gallon bucket turned upside down with a pillow on it. its just the right height. Allows me to keep my back straight,,,, feet are spread shoulder width. Body alert but relaxed. "A relaxed body is an honest body." -Red Hawk

Pure Heart Pure heart is what I also call the courageous heart. The courageous heart does not eliminate love when there is hatred and does not try to choose one thing above another. The pure heart is open to the presentations of Being regardless of what they are. It is happy to be with whatever God wills, and it asserts no position. The attitude of purity is the attitude of no assertion. You don’t assert any truth. You don’t assert any knowledge, any perspective, any position. You don’t take a position; you don’t have a position; you don’t have a particular truth, opinion, belief, religion. You are absolutely poor. The attitude of purity is that you never close your mind and say that’s it. You never close the door. You are open not because you are uncertain, but because it is not possible to assert this or that about reality in some absolute way. And also there is no need or urge to assert this or that view. Diamond Heart Book Five, pg. 22 How Being Knows Itself Since Being is pure consciousness capable of direct awareness of itself, it does not require thinking and deduction for it to know itself. This is what most distinguishes it from the personality of the ego, which knows itself through reference to the past. One reason it is not easy to have a clear experience of Being is that the habit of ego is to know itself through reference to other perceptions, as in Descartes' "I think, therefore I am." Pearl Beyond Price, pg. 65

? I didn't mean it that way! Oh Lord, Im always so misunderstood.

Easy bub, I coulda been in public, this aint the wild west you can't just go around making dudes hard You seem very confident. Every time I see you, you have a nice confident smile. Do you experience embarrassment very often? Im just curious, you know, like a cat.

What do I know? I'm an Idiot. Someone hung out a sign that said we're all hot.

Just simply his being in an open and curious state of mind. Maybe it's a projection,,,,? My statement applies more to the cumulative effect over the last few weeks in seeing changes which seem to parallel emotional tones as they change. Pretty abstract interpretions that I feel have some merit but as I admitted,, projections are so easy. I appreciate the originality of this form of self expression anyway,,,,

As I watch more and more of Leo's videos I plan to reference his specific videos rather than other people's work such as Almaas. In that spirit, I paste this video link which applies,,, I think I appreciate more and more his ability for explaining and tying things together,,,

The way in which you worded your off and on situation is very similar to what I have experienced on my path. A.H. Almaas' Diamond Approach Inquiry has helped me work through a lot of this. His Glossary is just kick ass. I'll leave some excerpts and a link to his Glossary in case it resonates. Deficient Emptiness of Holes For each lost aspect of Being, a different form of deficient emptiness results. These different forms can be seen as the various holes in one's being or in one's personality. Each hole is a deficient emptiness in which the feeling of the deficiency manifests as an affect of the lack of a specific quality... We see that the experience of deficient emptiness -- which is the interface of space and mental content -- is of paramount importance, not only for understanding mental disorders, but for the process of unfolding of human potential. The Void, pg. 138 Genesis of Deficient Emptiness We propose the following hypothesis ......: * At birth the human infant has no sense of self. * He is Being. He is his being without knowledge or self-consciousness. There is no mental functioning yet. * Slowly, through experiences of pleasure and pain, memory traces are retained, forming the first self-impressions (self-representations). * As the infant starts taking himself to be this or that (this or that self-image) he separates from his sense of Being, because any image is not his being. * As the ego-identity and sense of self develop and become stable, the contact with Being in its various aspects and qualities is mostly lost. The extent of the loss also depends on the adequacy of the environment and the infant’s relation to it. * The process of loss of contact with Being leaves a sense of deficiency, a state of deficient emptiness, as if the Being is left with many holes in it. The deficient emptiness is the state of the absence of contact with or awareness of Being. * Space, which is the open dimension of Being, is lost in the formation of the self-image. This self-image includes the unconscious body-image of having a genital hole. * For the normal individual, the development of the personality happens relatively smoothly. The self is highly integrated and stays stable throughout most of one’s life. * In those with mental disorders, for reasons already known in depth psychology, the development of the personality and its sense of self is incomplete, or happens with various distortions, malformations, or inadequacies. The Void, pg. 127 The State of No Self The narcissistic emptiness sheds its deficiency and reveals its truth, as an emptiness that has no sense of self, but is spacious and peaceful. The deficient emptiness is actually nothing but this inner spaciousness, experienced through the judgment of deficiency. The state of no self is actually a pure manifestation of inner spacious reality, Being in its openness, we experience it as empty space, immaculate and pure, light and clean, empty of everything structured by the mind. However, the self reacts to the sense of no self in many ways—as a loss, as a deficiency, and so on, plus the associations, memories, and feelings that go with these interpretations. All this psychic content pervades the inner spaciousness so that we lose sight of its lightness, purity, immaculateness, and freedom. Instead, we feel it as deficient emptiness, dull and flat, heavy and dark. Only when we allow this emptiness to be, without judgment or rejection, without reaction or opinion, does it shed its obscurations and reveal its inherent truth: the state of no self, the freedom and openness of our Being. We experience ourselves then as a luminous night sky, transparent and pure, light and happy, cool and virginal, deep and peaceful. An emptiness, yes, but a stillness, a silence, where we recognize the absence of the familiar identity as the absence of agitation. This is black space, an inner spaciousness that manifests naturally when we accept the absence of self with no reaction at all. It arises when the self is free from identifying itself through representations. We experience freedom from the familiar identity and its structure. We experience ourselves without any structure, as openness, spaciousness, as boundless and infinite space. The Point of Existence, pg. 337 from https://www.diamondapproach.org/glossary/refinery_phrases/deficient-emptiness You are already doing most of what his method instructs which is just sitting with and being open to whatever arises,,,,

I watched this yesterday. I agree. Very good. To the point. Fourth way Inquiry aka esoteric Christianity is sometimes referred to as Transformation of being.

Oops, There I go projecting once again,,,,, ?

The way Eckhart Tolle quoted Jesus in the Power of Now helped me warm back up to Christianity after growing up in a Fundamentalist evangelical Church and the subsequent puking and disillusionment. I love the way you communicate with your changing Avatars. It's a great idea. So much gets communicated,,,,,

Inquiry and becoming the witnessing presence who has no fucking opinion. - can bring immediate relief from emotional turmoil. Use the idea of beginners mind if it helps you to touch that quiet inner space of just simply being the Witness. Eckhart Tolle refers to it as 'being the Watcher'. The exercise of imitating the 'higher' is a practice I was taught in the Fourth way. It's a version of fake it till you make it. In this light, learning correct self Inquiry applies and correlates to eventually becoming stable in what Ken Wilber call Witness Consciousness. So if it helps- pretend; act out the role; embody the Witness who just observes without putting labels on anything. Can you then taste this state of being the Witness? Simply become the witness. No assessments! NO SELF CRITICISM! If you get a taste of it, you will feel a detachment and probably at least a small sense of relief. "You're not going to figure this out intellectually."- Leo If we are unable to do Inquiry because of 'monkey mind and an inability to focus - "We need a daily practice to help calm down the mind." - Leo "The thing that is suffering is always the false self."- Leo

I think so. Welcome!