Zigzag Idiot

We can't change the makeup of our endocrine system. Below the book image is an excerpt from near the end in which I think she describes why knowing about this part of ourselves can greatly assist integration and self acceptance so far as our essence traits goes. When we are able to recognize types and predict the characteristic reactions, we find that this information is liberating, both as it applies to ourselves and as it helps us to understand others. Once we know that virtually all limitations, weakness and shortcomings are not things for which we can be blamed, most of us feel the lifting of guilt that we have carried for most of our lives. If we are Lunars we cannot be outgoing and emotionally demonstrative, no matter how much others urge us to be and how much we may want to please them. If we are Saturns we cannot stop trying to control others--- always for their own good--- no matter how strenuously they object. If we are Venusians we cannot be aggressively ambitious no matter how much our mothers want us to be and how much we may love our mothers. If we are an emotionally centered mercurial and find it impossible to engage in repetitive tasks day after day, word processing in an isolated cubicle, or putting shingles on roofs, then we should begin to understand how hard it is for a moving centered Martial to experience his own emotions, much less express them effectively. ,,,,, By the way, that's me- the moving centered martial. So was Gurdjieff. Maybe that's why I relate to him so much. Taken together, it seems all the different typologies gives a fractal description/picture of our 'Stardust'. Both our physical and energetic stardust. There is a lot of variety in stardust if the universe is infinite. Physical - Endocrine/body type Energetic- Astrological type Could the Painbody be called the Timebody? Might the physical body be called the spacebody? I like to use the term Automaton as some in the Work do, in reference to the physical body. It seems to help cultivate non attachment or disidentification to the parts of my nature that is mechanical.

Got my copy in the mail from Amazon yesterday!

5-1-2019 21 Biting Through Line 2 38. Separating/Opposition I received this same changing line 2 days ago. It's about being under a spell and becoming free of it. The Cosmos is trying to help me to become free of it. If I resist this help and continue to blame wrong things, the Oracle councils that I will only create another fate for myself.

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@Preetom I pretty much agree. Also what Leo said in the last video about how language itself is dualistic,,,,and the confusion caused. For instance, I used the word Self in my post above which I'm surprised no one jumped all over and lined me out, parroting the wisdom that there is no self. Which, by the way, I agree with. The ego is illusory. In the forum here, people (me included) are often talking past one another and don't even realize it at times. Because there is so much nuance in how a lot of words are used. Not to mention useful concepts which get interpreted differently. Through on top of that the different traditions which seem at odds on the surface. Its a recipe for confusion at times for sure.

I know without a doubt there exists the phenomena of Self Remembering and Self Forgetting. Checked out the book. Looks very good. Thanks ?

? That's a good feeling. Empty yet Full,,,,,

I've had a twice daily practice of Centering Prayer meditation for a couple of years. In this method objectless awareness or non-conceptual awareness is cultivated. I haven't experienced any compulsions or problems with my memory from this practice. While everything about hasn't been pleasant, I haven't experienced anything that wasn't beneficial. My introduction and learning was through Cynthia Bourgeaults teachings.

You can also go home wearing one sock,,,,

I agree with this also. Although I didn't say one couldn't enjoy,,,,,

I agree. To awaken means basically moving against what the variety of all modern Cultures hold up as ideal.

4-30-2019 3 Making a New Beginning Lines 2 and 6 61 Inner Truth ??? Pondering ?

When the movie The Sixth Sense came out, it really had an effect on me. I Invented a homemade practice I called 'playing dead' where I would escape to a mountain top in the national forest and sit for a couple of hours and just imagine myself dead like the characters in this movie. It produced some novel experiences as well as some inner quiet (oddly enough) which I was in bad need of at that time. Doesn't seem like 20 years has passed. Death IS sneaky,,,,,

When focusing on practicing mindfulness, DELIBERATE is my mantra, in a sense. Being deliberate seems to really capture the essence of mindfulness in a felt way. The Intellectual Center has the slowest speed of the three centers. The Kings are very deliberate. The Emotional Center is quicker. Which causes the angry word to be spoken before the Intellectual Center can have influence. The Instinctive/Moving Center is by far the quickest. A good Tennis player is an example. Even a better example is if the tennis player is being chased by a pack of pit bulls. The quickest part of the Intellectual Center is called the formatory center and only gives stimulus response answers which can often be witty but most often are fairly shallow. The talking trees in Lord of the Rings to me are embodiments of the 'Kings' - the Intellectual Center as a whole. Some say that Brilliance can only come from essence and Being and not conditioned personality.

If I wasn't an Idiot, I would take Beelzebub's Tales To His Grandson instead of Power Of Now.

@tsuki I copied this paragraph from your quote in Sacred Space Journal. I'm thinking it could apply to what I put below. Any thoughts? In trying to develop the will, the most fatal pitfall is to confuse will with the chauvinism of the ego. Will is not willpower, virility, obstinancy, or hardness. Will is unity of desire. Will expresses itself best against no resistance when its action passes unnoticed. Only when the mind is in a state of multiple desire do we witness the idiot agonizations of will-power. Pitting oneself against various oaths, abstentions, and tests is merely to set up conflicts in the mind. The will always manifests as the victory of the strongest desire, yet the ego reacts with disgust if its chosen desire fails. The magician therefore seeks unity of desire before he attempts to act. Desires are re-arranged before an act, not during it. In all things he must live like this. As reorganization of belief is the key to liberation, so is reorganization of desire the key to will. From Carroll, Peter J.. Liber Null & Psychonaut: An Introduction to Chaos Magic (p. 55). Red Wheel Weiser. Kindle Edition. Integration - Christian symbology - Alchemy - Chaos Theory Four functions of Consciousness work in conjunction with Four Chaos Attractors In the Law of three, three forces manifests a new arising Active Force Thinking Circuit attractor Passive Force Feeling Point attractor Egoic Consciousness Neutralizing force Sensing Torus attractor New Arising - Willing Strange attractor Being -Three Centered Knowing - Intuition Thinking, Feeling, Sensing are all interchangeable acting as any of the three forces. Work in Progress. I'm playing,,,, Comments welcome

Good. Clip Martin Butler refers to in his podcast above. Very good to ponder.

4-29-2019 21. Biting Through. Lines 2 and 3 14. Possession in Great Measure The changing lines of hexagram 21 cautions me about self righteousness

Way to go!! Your conscious suffering with this will pay back good dividends. One day there will be no cravings.

@Karla Great thoughts in your reflection video about human tendency to suppress things. The definition you gave of the Devil. How suppression of shadow elements only makes only them grow stronger. One of the things that is really stressed in A Course In Miracles is the human tendency to "dissociate" almost constantly. Just the same thing that you mention. I would say the number 1 thing in ACIM though is the idea of forgiveness and all it entails. Theres a part of me that still wants to puke or cringe when I bring up ACIM. I had such a strong prejudice about it for years. The Name - A Course in Miracles - It sounds so new agey,,,, Puke Based on Christianity - Everyone thinks of church and feeling guilty. Being a square and having no fun.,,,, puke puke The text was channeled from Jesus - Good God, How ridiculous and naive I must sound,,,, More Puke Yet the text has been so meaningful for me, I quote and refer to the book anyway. ??

4-28-2019 24 Returning Lines 1,3 and 4 62 Preponderance of the Small

@tsuki Thanks! Im watching it now,,,

Ouuu good.

Sensing the body is key in separating thinking and feeling. Integration and embodiment happen together. Alchemy and Integration The fourfold nature of consciousness is a basic law. Knowledge of this law stretches back to the dawn of history. Evidence of the apprehension of the fourfold ness of our experience can be found in nearly every culture on Earth. In the West we have the tradition of the four elements arising in ancient Greece, if not before. Everything could be reduced to the four elements of earth, air, fire and water. Prematurity continued in Western traditions, both within Christianity and elsewhere. The basic symbol of Christianity, the cross, represents the four with one function emphasized, the feeling function of God as Love. Even though the fourfold cross was the basic symbol of Christianity, Church doctrine favored the laws of the trinity (father/son/holy-ghost) over that of the maternity. In the West the most important traditions emphasizing the four continued outside of the church in the hidden or occult traditions such as magic and alchemy. The great twentieth- century psychologist Carl Jung has written extensively on the psychological nature of these occult traditions. He found that the psychological symbolism of the four elements was the basis of medieval alchemy. The Alchemists search for gold was actually a secret search for perfect integration of the four psychological functions. This spiritual quest had to be disguised as chemistry to avoid the inquisition. From http://www.lawsofwisdom.com/course-overview/statement-of-the-law/laws-of-human-consciousness/

4-27-2019 17 Following Lines 2 and 3 43 Resoluteness/Breakthrough