Zigzag Idiot

Right brained feeling types will do better starting with this very digestible series. https://www.diamondapproach.org/public-page/diamond-heart-book-one-elements-real-man https://www.diamondapproach.org/public-page/diamond-heart-book-two-freedom-be https://www.diamondapproach.org/public-page/diamond-heart-book-three-being-and-meaning-life https://www.diamondapproach.org/public-page/diamond-heart-book-four-indestructible-innocence https://www.diamondapproach.org/public-page/diamond-heart-book-five-inexhaustible-mystery Left brained rational types will appreciate the two monsters from the Diamond Mind series. https://www.diamondapproach.org/public-page/point-existence https://www.diamondapproach.org/public-page/pearl-beyond-price

https://www.diamondapproach.org/public-page/diamond-approach by John Davis, a long time student of Ali, is a good overview of the Diamond Approach but for you maybe https://www.diamondapproach.org/public-page/alchemy-freedom would be better.

Letting go quotes from the glossary. 2 of 12 from https://www.diamondapproach.org/glossary/refinery_phrases/letting-go The Personality Can't Let Go; It Just Stops Pushing If the personality stops pushing, it ceases to exist, because the very existence of the personality is a contraction, a pushing. So, when you follow this process, the part of the personality which is holding a particular tension will disappear when you see no more reason to push. When you realize that the pushing is useless, you stop doing it. This is still not exactly what is called surrender; it is what is sometimes called letting go. We sometimes think of it as the personality letting go, but even this is not accurate. The personality can't let go. It just stops pushing. And when it stops pushing, it disappears. There is no person which is letting go of something. There is no entity letting go of another object. When Ego Ceases Its Defensive Posture Completely then Being Acts This interdependence between ego and Being can also be seen in the process of inner metabolism. Ego on its own cannot complete the metabolism of experience and hence cannot bring about complete human development; Being is needed for this process to take place. On the other hand, Being cannot accomplish on its own the whole process of metabolism; it cannot dislodge ego when ego is defensive. From the perspective of the mind, Being can be resisted easily with a slight movement of ego; thus ego must first cooperate by relinquishing its defensive posture. It is up to ego to cease resisting. When it ceases its defensive posture completely, then Being acts. This is an important understanding for methods of inner realization. The work on purifying or understanding ego will not lead, by itself, to transformation. Being by itself cannot do it either. The work must be done from both directions—the letting go of ego defenses and the development of Essence.

@SilentTears Thanks, and me too. I fell asleep late last night composing a response. Reading a lot of books about strange phenomena. Perhaps someone has died and they're in the lower Astral realms stuck in fear or obsession. The movie The Sixth Sense is a good example of a movie even though it's fictional. Maybe it doesn't have to be a negative thing and a very spiritually gifted being can have the option of hanging out with someone they like using a cat body here in physical Reality. ?‍♂️ That's how I was applying the idea to my cat.

Thank you @Bill W and I hope you continue to post here. The spirit is heartfelt with these guys but I differ in technical ways when it comes to understanding Jesus Christ and I remember the wisdom of Rumi. "Don't scold the lover, the wrong way he talks is better than a hundred right ways of others.

I feel that I understand a part of @tsuki and @Bill W enough to make this claim. They appreciate and offer community. @ Ero expresses it well.

@ValiantSalvatore Great idea for thread that's just Buddha at the Gas pump interviews. This is Rick Archer's new 1 minute introductory video he just put out a month ago.

I may let go of this thread and just share from my journal on occasion. I throw the coins for a reading at the start of every day but I've become lax about daily recording of the reading. Today's reading was interesting. 43 Resoluteness/Breakthrough with line 6 changing which creates a second hexagram 1 The Cosmic Consciousness A very small piece of this morning's reading- ,,,,,,,,, "the mental program that creates the ego has been installed in the psyche with the help of threats, punishments, flatteries, and rewards. Therefore, the ego takes on a "bully" character that keeps the true self intimidated and locked in self-doubt . The person needs to clearly realize that the ego is a parasite in his psyche that not only feeds on his life energy, but that, if not counteracted, will eventually destroy him. To rid himself of it requires that he recognize and deprogram all the false phrases and images on which is based. The purpose of the I Ching, as a gift of the Cosmos to humans, is to help the individual achieve this divestiture." From page 63 of The Oracle of the Cosmic Way. To condense and paraphrase more. We create spells in our lives with thoughts and words. I like Red Hawks phrase. " A relaxed body is an honest body." Or maybe he phrases it in reverse? An honest body is a relaxed body from his book Self Observation. I may look it up later. A relaxed body and a quiet, still mind. It happens for a bit every now and then.

https://www.gutenberg.org/ebooks/216 @mandyjw You could start the topic with this or maybe one of the links given here,,,,I think,, ?‍♂️

Had an interesting thought a few hours ago and googled -the sun is a nucleus of an atom

I'm pondering this.

@K VIL I don't understand?

Sometimes being sick is a relief. Since I read Maurice Nicoll's Psychological Commentaries back around 2012 I've observed something within myself. The majority of the time when I get a slight fever, the mind quitens down,,,, As he put it, the instinctive center overtakes the intellectual center. The body then uses this energy for healing that would otherwise produce neurotic noise. Also, I get a kick out of when my throat is affected and I develop an extremely bass voice. Its fun to just keep saying over and over - "Guns or knives Butch ?" Having a voice that looks like it should come from Harvey in Butch Cassidy. "Guns or knives?"

Don't know how you feel about others posting a response. I'll take this down if you want to keep it private. I have a nature that's more like a cat than a dog. The cat that lives with me now showed up one late summer day a couple of years ago. When she saw me she started a constant meowing in a cadence and tone that struck me as one of recognition. It was actually hilarious in a way,,,, I've wondered if someone on the 'other side' inhabits my cat off and on at times.

@Bill W Great Idea! I just wanted to lend my support. I recommend the book to everyone. The part of the book which has the personal stories of the founders is what I remember also affecting me in a deep way . I think this site is legit. Someone correct me if I'm wrong. https://www.aa.org/pages/en_US/read-the-big-book-and-twelve-steps-and-twelve-traditions

The introduction page was getting too long. Here the text continues,,,,,, Our brain falls into patterns of cyclic neurotoxicity as a result of emotional repression of the fight/flight mechanism during early trauma, social stress, abandonment or deprivation of needs during in our infancy. Thus the neurotoxicity that is addressed by kundalini awakenings is the repressive mechanism built into our primary wiring (0-5 years development). This initial patterning becomes the template for ongoing emotional repression, and lack of neuron-recouperation, which interferes with the smooth running of our catecholamine "activating" neurons. (The Catecholamine metabolism proceeds from tyrosine, to DOPA, to dopamine to norepinephrine and then to epinephrine.) Van Winkle says that other neurotransitters and metabolites build up in the synapses and this impaired function further contributes to stress. As you can imagine this leads to very inefficient brain function, and often kundalini awakening is initiated during a particularly high “stress/stress relief” cycle. Or rather, since the neuro-repression is unraveling, life circumstances seem to come to a profound nexus and crescendo of inner-outer events hyper-affects us to bring the nervous system to an acute crisis. The repression is thus its own antithesis, in bringing about its dissolution through the polar nature of existence itself. When there is simply no energy left to keep the repression system in place, nature steps in to reset the entire organism through a kundalini awakening, thereby redeeming what might have been a lost childhood, and permitting healing from the slings and arrows of life. How did this pattern of emotional repression originate? A mother’s behavior must be attuned to the infant’s basic needs. Babies suppress fight/flight responses when their needs are so unmet that they go into a freeze response. The vegetative unmyelinated vagus controls basic metabolism and responds to stress by "immobilisation behaviours." Domesticated animals including humans are sub-natural when it comes to releasing the tension of both fight/flight and freeze. Also children are encouraged to "lie" by inhibiting the expression of fear, anger, sadness, and so the neurotic, dissociated false self that doesn't know what it feels is built. Kundalini awakenings constitute a mechanism for the ultimate release of this primal repression, allowing our brains to evolve and mature beyond the ongoing cycles of repression/neurotoxicity/detoxification. The ultimate terror for a newborn organism is to be undergoing postbirth separation anxiety without the genuine emotional support of a mother figure. The trauma would still occur if the mother is there but is emotionally absent, distracted, depressed, rejecting or unloving. I suspect that the panic button comes on full bore and simultaneously to protect the baby from its own panic, the numbing or freeze button would also come on. Thus it may not appear from the outside that the baby is in deep distress. From this initial setting of terror, the consequences of this brutal entrance into the world cascade throughout the life of the individual such as: learning disorders, lack of coordination, shyness, lack of direction, chronic loneliness, bodymind schism and the inability to know what one truly feels, lack of a sense of center and focus, inability to feel included, relationship difficulties, diet and digestive disturbance, addictions, self-destructive entropic lifestyle etc… Ultimately leading to physical, emotional and mental diseases of various sorts. Without a kundalini awakening that primary conditioning that we took on in our infancy still has a huge sway over our bodymind and lives. That is why kundalini can be so scary at times, because it is addressing our most fundamental and primitive structures…way below the domain of rational operation. While the nerves in the emotional limbic areas of the brain are being kindled by kundalini our emotions are unleashed, hence the crying, anger, fear, ecstasy, love, attraction, deja vu etc...that happen in the early stages of the peak. (See Action Matters) Permanent changes in consciousness occur via kundalini's impact on the nerves by the extra pruning of axions and changes in myelination patterns, and changes in the spectrum of neurotransmitters and firing patterns. But what I don't understand is how the kindling of the brain leads to detoxification of the synapses. For sure kundalini must cause a loss of excitatory glutamate receptors which might contribute to the experience of equanimity and peace, but also to apathy and depression. And once the catecholamine neurons are no longer on permanent alert and forcing the production of the neuroinhibitors: glycine, GABA, optiates and serotonin in an effort to subdue hyper-arousal, the entire brain should come out of its self-suppression and become more available to present moment consciousness. I suspect that it is the massive ongoing deluge of opiates and the other “relaxation” and pleasure chemicals of kundalini that allow the body to come out of its perpetual hyper-arousal. In this way the nervous system doesn’t need such extensive detoxification as it did during its radical-repressed condition…this leaves more energy and resources for higher states of consciousness and being. As the nervous system becomes more “efficient” and needs less resources to deal with damage control, we essentially incarnate to a greater degree and spiritually evolve. We show up! As the Spirit finally starts penetrating the “shield of closure” there is a sense of extra "Presence" that accompanies anyone going through an awakening. A Presence which thereafter is forever with us to a greater extent than prior to awakening—because we have become freed from the repressive mechanisms of our primary matrix. Some people interpret this new larger “Presence” as an alien entity, God or spirit of some form, and thus continue the infant denial of their own existence as spirit. The end result of a kundalini awakening is the significant reduction in body tension and body pain in general, coupled with the calming of emotions and reduction in reactivity. Having more Presence (contemporary available consciousness) we also have a greater sense of self-boundary so conditions of borderline personality, codependency and neurosis in general are reduced or eliminated. With the repression lifted we are both better able to defend ourselves, more trusting and less defensive, because we have the full power of the "unsuppressed" Hypothalamus-Pituitary-Adrenal Axis at our disposal. All our defense mechanisms and aspects of embodiment should therefore be more responsive to ongoing development, and the individual is able to mature at a far greater speed…having as it were the “primal veil of sleep” lifted from ones being. From this Toxic Mind Theory we can see why humans are so good at denial of reality, and what we are sacrificing by keeping this closure from reality intact. Through our repression of truth, we avoid our own incarnation and so are condemned to spiritual loneliness and separation from the cosmic whole. Van Winkle says that the suppression of anger is more damaging than the trauma itself. For suppressing anger causes toxicosis in the brain which shows up as mood disorders, addictions, PTSD, all manner of depressions, codependency (loss of inner resources) and a host of other mental/emotional disorders. Since the inhibitory mechanisms of the brain are dysinhibited during a kundalini awakening, due to the increase in excitatory chemistry, this is the perfect time for undergoing assisted or self-administered primal therapy. The primal therapy of releasing repressed anger and grief is a simple and effective means of rectifying the toxicosis that is at the heart of most neurological disorders. Once the detoxification process has cleared neural pathways, recovery is virtually complete, restoring memory, intelligence and creativity and overcoming dysphoric symptoms. The native euphoria of the living organism is returned and unity with cosmos reestablished. There is still more left on this web page,,, http://biologyofkundalini.com/article.php@story=ToxicMindTheory.html

@tsuki I enjoyed the video! Years ago I heard someone loosely describe Fourth Way Inquiry work as Contemplative psychoanalysis. In some of A H Almaas's earlier lectures he mentions Karen Horney's work which he has read extensively in his own search. The following video was in the prompt after I watched your video post. This seems to fit the category you've made and I enjoyed it. When I watch some more from Academy of Ideas and I enjoy them, I'll post them. If you want to keep it 100% Acadamy of Ideas please let me know and I'll take this one down.

From the list I found a brief one concerning Metanoia and also a 2 1/2 hour Graham Hancock video that I just started. I recently got around to watching a documentary on Hunter Thompson that I ended up enjoying more than the movies made about him - Where the Buffalo Roam and Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas. Besides a little too much of Gary Busey at the Beginning, it kept getting better and better. I've watched it 4 or 5 times. Letting it run while I'm doing other tasks. I looked for it on the list under biographies and didn't see it. At 15:50 John Cusack is telling about playing shotgun golf while visiting Hunter at his home in Colorado. This could have gone in under a number of different categories. He was such an influential person on American culture,,,, It wouldn't embed. Hopefully the link will stick here alive. https://youtu.be/VlAZV_EsSSE @Enizeo @Jonac @Leo Gura @Aeris I agree. @Pernani Too bad You Tube has taken some of these down. I can tell that there will be much time here spent enjoying many of these. Thanks!

I appreciate your openness in sharing and hope you have some luck with this. The following is one of my favorite resources concerning Kundalini. I've shared it before on here but it's been a while. http://biologyofkundalini.com/ Last year I discovered Hans Wilhelm YouTubes. Speaking of synchronicities, I ran into this one again where he quotes Matt Kahn @ 8 :05 which I used as a signature line - "We have to bless the living crap out of everyone". I had never heard of Matt Kahn and didn't recognize the name for a couple of months while I binge watched Wilhelm's videos. I'm only on page 11 of The Secret of the Golden Flower. I let my reading become sporadic sometimes. It doesn't help that I often get several books started at once,,,,, By the way, I'm reminded of Bennett's Idiots In Paris, (great book) John tells how Gurdjieff instructed him to stand while sleep deprived and hold his arms out at at ninety degrees for several minutes as a concentration practice. I think sometimes up to half an hour or more. Can't remember exactly but it's mentioned in more than one place,,,, This book was created out of John and Elizabeth Bennetts personal diaries.

Today's reading - 8 -23 -2019 Just one unchanging Hexagram - 43 Resoluteness/Breakthrough a small piece of the text,,,,, "The force of will lies neither in physical nor mental power, but in its irresistible strength, which develops when it aligns with inner truth. Breakthrough refers to the successful effort of the will in breaking down the power of the ego. The breakdown of the ego is initiated through saying the inner No to any part of the ego that is active in the situation. The inner No brings about transformation in the realm of the atom, which is the realm of consciousness." page 365

Ok, I got you now. I've done that before,,,

That does sound synchronous! What is this thing called cross posting? I've never understood what that means. Must be in my blindspot,,,,

It was a turning point in my life for sure. It takes Saturn that long to go 1 time around the sun. ? Its an interesting frame of reference.