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Reading the book Space Crusier Inquiry brought me recognition of this phenomena. Almaas refers to it as the Diamond Guidance. I reread the book two or three times before it registerd on me that he wrote that the Diamond Guidance was just another way of describing the channel of the Holy Spirit! Then it became more than a metaphor for me. Opening of the Forehead by the Diamond Guidance Usually the Diamond Guidance operates as a presence in the center of the forehead. When it arises in support of discrimination and understanding, we become aware of an expansion as space opens up in the forehead. With that expansion comes a sense of peacefulness; the Black aspect at the center of the forehead opens and we feel stillness and spaciousness. When the Diamond Guidance arises in this peacefulness, we feel a delicate presence, a pulsating energy that possesses a sense of clarity and transparency, an intelligence, an illumination. This delicate, pulsing, breathing presence appears as understanding, as insight, as intuition. As the forehead opens, we feel the Diamond Guidance as a tingling, an energetic throbbing—but very delicate, very soft, very subtle. If we are not attuned, we might dismiss it as just a physical twitch. Or if there is a lot of blockage, as is often the case in the early stages of our development, the diamond might feel hard. Due to the blockage, it can't get through, so it feels almost like a rock. But if we are relaxed and open, we feel it as a softness, a delicacy. Spacecruiser Inquiry, pg. 226 Outside of his own teaching he makes connection about this with knowledge from Sufism. The Fourth Latifa The fourth latifa is at the forehead between and just above the eyebrows. It is called khafi, meaning "hidden," and the color is a shining black. The consciousness is a state of peace and absolute stillness, related to the activity of intuition and objective understanding. It is connected to the black death, which is the state of annihilation of the sense of identity of the ego, which is the false self. Essence with the Elixir of Enlightenment, pg. 143

If you have adobe, you can read it all free here. http://www.gurdjieffwork.com/site/index.asp?page=107379

An excerpt from an excerpt from an article. " Sustained encounters with objectless-awareness are in fact meaningfully relevant to ongoing transformation," Here, Samadhi consciousness exists as the peak form of non-dual attainment. That being said, it administers a very serious ultimatum. If one does not come down from absorption into the formless, then an inability to function in the causal world may result. Due to the notorious hardships of Samadhi subjects who endure this precarious experience, Ramakrishna believed that the subsequent “fall from grace” back into phenomenal reality could beneficially actualize an intermediary consciousness. Surmising that sustained encounters with objectless-awareness are in fact meaningfully relevant to ongoing transformation, he suggested Samadhi’s function, after having been summoned back to ordinary consciousness, was to gradually integrate the experience into Bhavamukha. This zone of liminal reception allows for a transformed multiplicity to join in with absolute One-ness, resulting in a sophisticated mode of non-dual perceiving. Through bhavamukha, personhood remains in-tune with the phenomenal world, as Ramakrishna himself, their life spared from complete absorption into One-ness for the continuing enlightenment of all beings. https://wisdomwayofknowing.org/resource-directory/on-the-imaginal-by-joshua-tysinger/

I picked mine up one at a time used through Amazon. I just looked,,, https://www.amazon.com/PSYCHOLOGICAL-COMMENTARIES-GURDJIEFF-OUSPENSKY-2015-05-04/dp/B01FKRWWSK/ref=sr_1_5?qid=1569118107&refinements=p_27%3AMaurice+Nicoll&s=books&sr=1-5&text=Maurice+Nicoll $200 probably as cheep as you can find for a whole set. Here is a used volume 4 for $25 https://www.amazon.com/Psychological-Commentaries-Teaching-Gurdjieff-Ouspensky/dp/0394726952/ref=pd_sbs_14_3/143-8002126-3163130?_encoding=UTF8&pd_rd_i=0394726952&pd_rd_r=c53c9bf0-4d80-499d-8c38-c1501cac1ef6&pd_rd_w=RbQta&pd_rd_wg=rbavr&pf_rd_p=d66372fe-68a6-48a3-90ec-41d7f64212be&pf_rd_r=DHKREJH2D681XTFK1WVM&psc=1&refRID=DHKREJH2D681XTFK1WVM

@Bill W Yes. There is a condensed version that was given to me by a Teacher from a Fourth Way study group a couple of years ago in PDF which I'm having trouble with pasting here Gems_of_Wisdom http://www.gurdjieffwork.com/site/index.asp?page=623765&DL=243 This is a link to a clunkier version for the time being reducing nearly 2000 pages down to a little of over a hundred. Really rich stuff. I enjoyed the Five volumes so much I read it twice.

I will take time for a tonglen practice for John today. I type you a martial essence type and John as venusian. My friend I tripped wth yesterday is a Venusian. Venusians generally have a groundedness which is a good counterbalancing medicine for us sporadically hyperactive (adrenal) Mars types. You said you usually mow the lawn anyway.? When he feels like it, tell him to get his ass back on the forum! You said regarding: This is going to sound really stupid but my third eye loves his voice. Making lots of connections. Do you ever sense slight pressure or pulse in your forehead? Or perhaps flash images? Im a recovering workaholic. My Dad drilled that into me, bless his good heart. That's one reason I think Centering Prayer is so beneficial for me especially. Breaks the conditioned habit and momentum of going full speed most of the time. Age has helped me some with this as well. Past the initial resistance, sitting perfectly still and quiet and having quiet inside is similar to the regeneration of a good nights sleep. It seems to me at times anyway. I just remembered Terence giving that humorous account of his own dream in that video of his you posted. He's just plain funny sometimes,,,,!

Leo makes some important distinctions on his blog. Specifically this last,,,, This Work Is Not About Belief September 12, 2019 All of my teachings are worthless unless you validate them in your direct experience. This stuff is far too profound to be heard or believed. Belief in what I say is a great obstacle to this work. You will spend years believing me only to realize that you made a big mistake. Yet at the same time, actively disbelieving me — trying to debunk me or debate me — is an even greater mistake. The correct method is to listen to what I say, consider it as an advanced possibility, and do the work to validate this possibility and feel it as your living reality. This work is about transforming your experience of reality. I have no desire to make you believe in God or my teachings. What you believe is such a shallow level that it is irrelevant as far as this work goes. What matters is what you're conscious of, what state of consciousness you're in, and what the meta, cognitive structures of your mind are. This work is not about the contents of your mind. This work is structural. Think of this difference as the difference between apps vs the OS or BIOS on a computer. In our work here, we're not interested in changing the apps of the human mind, we're interested in changing the OS & even the BIOS. This work is meta work. This work is experiential. This work is about changing what reality is for you. You don't even know what that means yet. It will take you years of work just to appreciate what was just said. And that's as it must be. You can't know what you're missing until years of trial and error. It would speed things along greatly for you to realize that we are not interested in getting you to believe things here. Anything you believe is far too shallow to help you. Belief is like a veil of fakery which obscures the doing of the real work. So be careful not to get tricked into thinking you are doing the work when you are merely rearranging your beliefs. The real work requires hours upon hours of precise mindfulness and accurate self-observation. Precision and accuracy in this work is important. Towards this end it would help you greatly to distinguish between what is a belief, and what is not. Spend some time observing in your direct experience what is a belief, and what is not. Get really clear about this without getting caught up in the trap of judging whether a belief is true or false. What's more important than whether a belief is true or false is that you are conscious that it is a belief regardless. For example, "The Earth is round" is a belief regardless of whether its "true". Just because a belief is "true" does not mean it isn't problematic or doesn't distort your experience of reality. In this sense, scientific beliefs can be more problematic than religious ones because scientific beliefs are not usually acknowledged to be beliefs, or problematic — yet they are both. Notice the distinct difference between believing a thing and direct experience. Notice that experience does not care what you believe. Although of course your beliefs greatly distort and color your experience. And even though I call all this "work", you must find a way to do it so that you enjoy the process, rather than making it some chore that you must do. You will never be successful in this work as long as it feels like a chore. You must find a way to connect it with your passion for life. It must become an organic part of your life.

I really enjoy listening to Terence and how he can unpack a lot of this stuff, seemingly off the cuff.

Just back from 5 gram Golden Teacher trip. Still processing. Friend and I both had good experience. Unitive awareness. Need a little time and space in order to articulate better. I took notes! I will unpack it better later,,, i have a lot of reading to catch up on as well.

The Innate Sense that Life is Fundamentally Benevolent The presence of basic trust indicates that you have the innate sense that life is fundamentally benevolent, and that benevolence exists independent of you and your actions. You will have this sense to the extent that your grounding in the universe has not been disturbed. The relative presence or absence of basic trust is a belly quality, something one’s whole being is either grounded in or not. The disturbance of basic trust is a significant factor in ego development because the perspective of ego is diametrically opposed to the sense of basic trust. The ego’s perspective arises out of a lack of this trust. It is based on distrust, on paranoia, on fear, on the conviction that you're not going to be adequately taken care of and that the universe is not there to hold and take care of you in the ways that you need. This conviction causes you to believe that you have to engage in all kinds of manipulations and games to get your needs met and to make things work out. With Basic Trust You Take Risks When you have a lot of basic trust, you are courageous and authentic. You take risks. You don't sit on your capacities. You engage in life wholeheartedly, doing what feels appropriate to you with the confidence that it will work out. Without much basic trust, you are paralyzed with fear of failure and fear of rejection. Facets of Unity, pg. 28

The confusing thing about Yogananda is his stage blue sexuality. I guess you could call it. He was a genius, mystic, and clairvoyant but he wasn't integrated sexually. In modern terms.

There is No Evil Person Seeing things from this perspective, we see that there is no one who is really bad. No one is evil in an absolute way. Everyone does what he thinks is good. There is no bad person, there is no evil person; there is only the ignorant person. The Dichotomy of Good and Evil The most frequently noted dichotomy on the way toward nonconceptual freedom is that of good and evil, or more exactly, good and bad. Without concepts there is no sense that one thing is good and another is bad. First, there is no separation between forms, because separation happens only through the reification of concepts, and there are no concepts here to reify. Because of this there cannot be a comparison between them, all forms are equal in being pure awareness. Second, since there is perception of difference between forms but no recognition of what the difference is, it is not possible to value one form and not another. All appear equal. The moment we recognize something as good in contrast to something else as bad, we are definitely existing in the conceptual realm. Recognizing that the distinction between good and bad is ultimately conceptual, pure awareness emerges and equalizes all forms and experiences as manifestations of true nature. Experientially, the notions of good and bad are connected mostly to pleasure and pain, happiness and suffering, gain and loss, expansion and contraction, and so on. In the unutterable bliss of nonconceptuality, these dichotomies disappear. The Inner Journey Home, pg. 336 All Spiritual Work Would be Pointless if There Were Such a Thing as Ultimate Evil As we have seen, each Holy Idea is a characteristic of reality at all locations, at all times, and at all levels. Holy Truth explicates this understanding. Here, we are saying that not only is reality just one presence that is boundless and real, but that it is also positive, blissful, and wonderful. So not only is God one, but God is also wonderful and made of love. The truth, then, is loving and lovable, which is why we say in the Diamond Approach that you must love truth for its own sake. If your orientation is that you love truth so that it will change you and make you a happier person, your orientation is out of sync with how things objectively are; if you see reality as it is, you can’t help but love it. It follows, then, that objectively there is no evil. We see evil only when we perceive reality through a filter. A person who behaves in what we consider evil ways is a person acting through a distortion. In spiritual work, concepts of a devil, of dark forces, of some evil that exists on its own outside of the goodness of reality are considered manifestations of ignorance, both in terms of believing in such concepts and in terms of the manifestations attributed to such forces. All spiritual work would be pointless if there were such a thing as ultimate evil. Facets of Unity, pg. 215

Another part of me likes how this guy expresses it.

I still enjoy rewatching Hans Wilhelm's interpretation of the myth and some of his others.

This is an interesting guy who says interesting things. His Autobiography is equal in entertainment as it is to wisdom.

Another bit from my google search. More stew. https://www.wordonfire.org/resources/blog/jim-carreys-christ-consciousness/ It's the energy recognition. I'll try to not be a bother,,,, ?

I just did a google. It's being said a dozen different ways. And mixed with bullshit too of coarse. Spiritual thoughts that enter into conscious minds are sometimes referred to as Christ Consciousness. It is an awareness of the higher self as part of a higher universal system. It does not relate to the personality of Christ. Christ Consciousness is a state of mind; it is an understanding that there is a universal and omnipresent force everywhere, and connecting with this higher power.

I'm not kidding. Seriously, Ken Wilber talks about non dual states including Christ Consciousness. That's what you are when you love everything.

@Aakash This new hat you found will change shape on you. You may also be experiencing Christ Consciousness.

Sitting with it and more than one time. How many times? How wounded are you? Experiencing Emotional Hurt as a Wound At this point the person might go on to experience himself as an empty space, devoid of any fullness or quality. If he deals with the associations he has to this emptiness—such as those of dependency and need—and the fears produced by them—probably the fears of disintegration, disappearing, and so on—then he will remember the old hurt that cut off the essence. This is another big dark spot. The person will unearth the painful situation or situations that ultimately led to the loss of this particular aspect of essence. Besides the memories and affects, the individual will experience the emotional hurt as a wound. It will feel physically like a wound in the chest, but it is a wound in the energy system that corresponds to the emotional hurt and the loss of the essence. When one allows oneself quietly to experience the hurtful wound and the memories connected with it, the golden elixir will flow out of it, healing it, and filling the emptiness with the beautiful sweet fullness that will melt the heart, erase the mind, and bring about the contentment that the individual has been thirsting for. Essence with the Elixir of Enlightenment, pg. 116

A jokester recognizes a jokester ? Like a brother. Thanks, Drew. Hope yours is good too! I expect to be giving a trip report by Sunday or Monday. 5 dried grams of Golden Teacher. ?

@DrewNows Point taken! ? The "art" was made in 2015. Completely sober. On fire and high with spirit. ? I'm not sure I could do any better tripping. Its the idea/vision that I was trying to get across. Even to the point of revealing my complete incompetence as an artist. I was reading a lot of the journals just now and was going to post this song, as I ran across your reply. Thank you, by the way. The true unnamed recipient will understand. And hopefully laugh,,,,

When I first discovered ACIM back in 2015. I was on fire in different ways. I remember saying something stupid to the effect of - wow, Jesus writes just as good as Echart Toll, to Jim. Jim was the organizer of the group in addition to being a psychotherapist. He is the one I decided to dump my shadow material on and let him help me process it over a few short weeks. I sent him a link to this Joural a while back and he acknowledged back,,,, I abandoned art around the fifth grade but during this winter/spring of 2015 I was compelled to display my understanding That I had gotten through Almaas about the idea that duality itself is held within non duality. So here with my 11 year old arrested art development from 2015, that is/was my communication. ?

What you were communicating in your last video reminded me of the message given in this book. For whatever that's worth. ??

Doesn't it feel good to be on fire? ?