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@Aaron p thank you for the insights, especially about self-inquiry process. > It's much harder to realise that this is a dream... On the next day after the 5meo trip I was staying on the railway station in Netherland and had such weird feeling that reality is collapsing, that I am going to eternity, to all moments, back in time to the trip and everywhere, it was pretty scary, I was staying and saying: no, no, I want to live, I love my life. Similar fair occurred after watching the "Walking Life" movie late at night. Now I am a bit scary to go to Vipassana retreat which is planned for April. Anyway, it's inevitable. Have a good day, my friend.

"whatever you think cannot be anything more than a thought."

I remember this for life And now I see much clearer I'm not scared to die 'Cause I will live forever I will be alive In this moment For eternity, for eternity

As everything except ...

I found the nice movie on this topic: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Waking_Life

@cetus56 ??♥️

Nope, going to watch it now. Thank you.

I enjoy reading your journal. I am re-watching "Awareness Alone Is Curative - How To Auto-Correct Unwanted Behaviors" video. So, maybe put even more awareness to chess if you want to drop it.

@QandC lol. Sounds like 5 hours-baby

Thank you guys for the input. ??♥️

@Nahm beautiful. This song without words, but for me, it will be always about enlightenment since I had a trip under this song.

> I just don't understand the meaning of bodies and physical life then If you are nothing you want to create the illusion that you are something to understand that you are nothing.

If I'd have to pick only one...

I started to read the "The war of art", would be nice to hear other resources to be creative.

Have you already seen it? It doesn't answer your questions, but there are some pointers I suppose.

Thank you for sharing. It was a great read. I can't really suggest anything since I am only at the beginning of the path of spirituality. But my ego is already worried about how it's going to influence my life purpose path. I think nobody can help you here. You need to find your own balance. Try to listen to intuition. Good luck.

I started to practice the Sedona method. Just a few days and it feels like it works. I suppose you can just release the fear using this method.

I was able to train myself to run from 0 to 13,1 miles during 4-5 month using the following steps: 1. Go to the sports shoes shop and ask the staff to find long run shoes for you (my Nike costs 130$). 2. Install https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.c10kforpink&hl=en free app. Train by using this app from 0K to 10K. 3. Buy https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.fitness22.running&hl=en for 15$. Train by using this app from 10K to 22K. Good luck.

mini-series.. lol

What the color of shepherds in SD?

@outlandish to be more serious − yeah, psychedelics are an awesome tool for shifting the materialistic paradigm. Thank you, Leo.

Today is exactly one month after the trip. I was sharing it with Leo, but why not to share it with everyone. Dosage: 50 mg (vaporizing device) I smoked 5 Meo DMT. I started to feel that I am somewhere outside the Earth world (in a different dimension). Then I am a dot jumping around with a few thoughts. O. told me about a bad session. I am having a bad session. Another thought - what I have done, I am crazy in Earth world after the session and fear occur. I feel the energy going through my arms. I lost my family, my life. Then I hear O.'s voice: everything is Okay, just breath, music.. And then I am realizing that I am not a D. and it really doesn't matter what happens with D., and just releasing it, let it go. Then I am just inside (and I am) a wonderful Infinite world - no time, there is nothing and everything, pure love… And then I appear in the body. First thoughts: D. is alive and not crazy, I love my mind and my life.

@outlandish thank you. dimitri's mind tells that yeah, that's amazing, but is it? It is not good or bad. It was inevitable. ?❤️ I had an experienced sitter. He was telling me how long should I inhale and what to do. I asked him about dosage, he said around 50mg, maybe a little less.

Yeah, data structures and algorithms are always good. Or just start with Haskell, category theory, Coq, type theory, haha

Research what big companies are in your area, what they do, what they need, go to local dev meetups. I bet web development with javascript or software tester is on demand almost everywhere. Do not go to programming if you don't like it (only if you really really need money). Good luck.