allislove

thanks Devil

About free will? Where Leo describes passages from 'conversations with god' book?

I had LSD trip few weeks ago. Not sure about dosage, I supposed to have a microdose, but, I think, I had around 100ug. Here are the notes that I wrote on the next day after the trip. Few days before the trip I finished reading the "theory of everything" book and watching Leo's dualities videos. Hi. Hi there. To whom am I speaking? Ah, yeah, it's you, me-me-me, you, whatever. 1 of May 2019, amazing day, amazing life. I am grateful for. What I wanted to say? Just "I am" or "Consciousness". Yeah, I am Done. Done-Done. Bye. Few spiritual bullshit to the end. * All is Consciousness. * I am you, I am my friend. My friend is going to fuck her girlfriend (or myself). Myself is going to fuck myself and I talk to myself. What a bullshit. But here we are. What can we do here? Except to love, share, enjoy live. * I am creating myself, everything, all the time, forever, no time, whatever. * Dima (yeah, my actor in this big game, or yours, hello) does not experience anything directly. Eat apple, what do you experience? Apple? No, fucking no. It's perception of apple. Apple is not perception of apple. But perceptions are great. That's the best what you can get, direct fucking experience. * I can find you.. Oh, no, this is a song or perception of Truth in Dima's ears. * Dima is duality. Everything is duality. These words are duality. Duality grounds Dima in this unTruth world. Okey, I am talking lies, all the time, actually. There is one thing which is not duality, call it Consciousness. But you have to experience it through your fucking perceptions otherwise it's duality. * If you do it there will be sadness. You can't run away from yourself. You can't call your mother (or yourself) or your friend (or yourself). What's the point? Except maybe there is no point in anything. Maybe, just for grounding, he-he. * Also, there will be freedom. You know it's plastic life, it's amazing. I love you. Love. Just love. Amazing. Thank you (me) for reading this lie which points to Truth if any * No free will, listen your body, your heart. * Anyway. This is just small realization. This is everything and nothing. Love you. Go home, relax, enjoy. What you can do. Whatever. Okay, after re-reading this bullshit so far, I really don't know how you can experience It. Except through yourself, can we call it super perception, zoom out, stillness? I really don't know. I am confused? Isn't it a good thing? Question is the answer. Answer is the question. My spiritual theory bullshit tells me this is unTruth unRealization. When you go this path and do it for everything you will understand that you are confused while writing it. No-thing. Love. I am. Hope you enjoyed reading it, have a good day.

I can see it all tonight underneath a perfect sky Where the universe revolves around the pupil of an eye And infinities stretch out from infinities within And I'm a part of everything, I'm a part of everything Am I falling asleep? Is it all just a dream? Well, the cars are like water and the road is like a stream Rolling down through the city, flowing out into the sea Going nowhere like me, going nowhere like me When the morning starts to glow out in the corners of the sky All the people come and go, and the time just passes by Then I'm only gonna see it from the corner of my eye When the planet spins, it sings like the wings of a dragonfly I can see it all tonight I can see it all tonight I can see it all tonight I can see it all tonight

of course, what Leo ever said is not absolute truth (at best it may only be a pointer to the truth), but why is it bothering us that he should admit that? Great post btw.

You are not only a part of the leaf covered by a drop. You are the whole leaf.

Ta-da!

@Nahm ?❤️

While jogging today for half an hour I was pondering about the importance of direct experience. Feedback is welcome. Sorry if you don't understand me. Sometimes it's hard to express yourself, sometimes I just don't understand deeply enough to communicate properly, sometimes it's just my poor English, but really it's everything together. What is a direct experience? Direct experience is everything. Everything that exists now for you. What do I mean? I mean feeling your ass on a computer chair or thinking about the direct experience is the direct experience; so, these things exist. Probably you don't have the direct experience of the moon, so it does not exist for you at the moment. Direct experience is what you experience by your sensors. Sensors like ears, eyes, mouth, body sensations, mind thinking. Experience is what you recognized by your sensors. Thinking about direct experience is direct experience. But there's a huge difference between thinking about direct experience and the direct experience. Let's have a small example to make it crystal clear: fucking a hot girl and thinking that you are fucking a hot girl. Do you see the difference? You say, yes, sure, it's easy. Yeah, it's easy in this particular example, but when you read something and then blindly believe that what's written is the truth, which happens to so many people, I suppose. So, what can we do? Do not read? That's a different side of the coin. When you just do something, when you think you are always right. The right thing is to find your own balance. Read something, check it by yourself, then read different source on the same issue, then check it again by your own direct experience. It's a continuous process. Don't stop. There is no perfect map for the territory. I mean, your map (aka your interpretation) will never be the territory (aka the experience itself). But to have the map as ideal as possible you have to find the balance between a direct experience (aka practice) and hearsay (aka theory) and never stop to improve your map (or your understanding of something). There is no depth in understanding, understanding is infinite. Have love. If you feel you don't understand what I wanted to say, don't worry − me too. I could post it somewhere else and this is not really a question, but to hit more page views...

Happiness is acceptance of the current moment. Just accept and you'll be happy.

To the "I Am"?

@Truth Addict right. Now the whole picture became more clear to me, thanks. It's another belief.

@Serotoninluv thanks, the reply reminded me of Goenka's words from Vipassana retreat. Something like: everything is impermanent, just observe, without any attachments. Anicca, Anicca, Anicca

@Serotoninluv now I want to fly to the USA and see the Grand Canyon. Thank you for sharing, I feel a lot of wisdom in your words. Just to make it crystal clear to me. Here you described what happens when the mind becomes attached and identified to the experience. What is the other side of it? How a person behaves after a nondual experience when the mind didn't attach and didn't identify to it? Not sure if this question makes sense but felt like to ask.

@Truth Addict thank you. Interesting, I haven't thought about "personal experience vs. impersonal theories" duality. They should be transcended, but maybe this topic is too deep for this post. I can learn how electrons were discovered, I don't want to repeat the same experiment with a vacuum tube. But to read reports on psychedelics and have own experience of psychedelics is a completely different story. I can't grasp the essence of experience just by reading reports.

You raised interesting observation, thank you. I think so too. So, what you are proposing is to be more critical to personal experience? Let the interpretation of the personal experience go? Yet the personal experience is the key to growth.

Leo, are you aware how Infinite Intelligence created this bug? It was inevitable, the best configuration of reality, right?

@Truth Addict could be. But thank you guys for the input. I think it was helpful.

knowing = understanding = being aware? I am stuck in contemplating what is understanding. Please share your ideas.

@Nahm from the theory of everything book: So, Understanding is the recognition of "I Am".

@Nahm ?❤️

haha, amazing

@Truth Addict I'll try to come up with what concerns me. As @Serotoninluv said there are different forms of understanding. I think you are trying to say the same thing differently. Pardon me if I interpret what you said wrongly. I am interested in... let's say I say: I understand God, or I understand reality, or I understand consciousness, or I understand what I really want. What does it really mean? How can we check that? It looks like it's intuitive form of undestanding... I don't know.

Thanks @Truth Addict Now I see and I don't know

So Infinete intelligence = Understanding. Okay, I can tap to Infinite intelligence using psychedelics for example. But then to integrate the insights I need to use finite intelligence. I have a feeling that finite intelligence and infinite is the One. Spiritual pepper shaker warning lol