Ann Brown

I am a 61 year old, widowed, retired Social Worker, mother of 3 adults. After my husband of 37 years died in a car accident, I became involved with my former husband. Well that did not work out. What was I thinking? Now I see that I was trying to shorten the grief and feel "normal". It was only after I started listening to Leo and watched his videos, {some more than once} that I started to really see myself. I am still studying the Ego, still reading books that Leo recommends, joined the gym. I thought that my ex could rescue me since he seemed so interested and I could have a semblance of my old life back. Now I know it was my Ego needing to be feed. The strange thing is I cannot get my ex out of my head even though it is over. Throughout my day I do The can I stop thinking of John. Yes. Do I want to stop thinking of John? Yes. When do I want to stop? Now. I also meditate for at least 20minutes in am. This is a complete life change for me and I believe that if I master awareness and take advantage of the self help products, I can learn to love me and my life now.

Thank you Walt for your reply. I read this 3 times. This is so profound and gives me hope. I am sure I will come back to points 1and 2 as I continue this awareness journey. I appreciate that last statement, which gives me much encouragement. Ann

Name: Ann Brown Age: 61 Gender: Female Location: GA, USA Occupation: Retired Marital Status: Widow Kids: 3 Adult Hobbies: Gardening I actually stumbled up on Leo while searching the web for ways of letting go. I watched the video Four Ways of Letting Go by Ajahn Brahm on You Tube and one of Leo's videos was listed. I fell in love with his presentation style and the information and instruction made sense to me. Depression, low self esteem, lack of life purpose are some of the main reasons I wanted to get Into personal development. I have shared some of my story in my journal that I have never been able to express to anyone. I have been doing personal development about 6 months. It seems that I am the oldest in this forum, yet I am still alive, and I want life to be the best. Personal Challenges I Have Overcome: 1-Typed this page. {hate to type} 2-Joined a gym, attend 3 times a week. 3-Meditate daily at least 20 minutes. 4- Shared personal information on this site. What I Am Working On Now: 1- Acceptance, letting go of the past, living in the now. 2-Awareness 3- Peace throughout this life journey no matter what is going on.

Thank you DanoDMano for your reply. Letting go seems to evade me mentally also victim status. Will report any progress.

I am 61 years old, widowed since April 5, 2014. My husband was younger than me , but he was killed in an auto accident. Just saying.