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Ironicaly i feel worse after eating healthy food, i have vomit several times from fruits and vegetables. Although i just keep eating it since its healthy food, if i have to i will drink my own vomit. I actually feel full, have more energy by eating junk food and never vomit.

You're absolutely correct, but I don't know how else to describe it using the English language then saying the “ego is dying”. Yes in a sense there is no ego dying since it was no ego to begin with, only the fluidity of consciousness. I had a very deep trip on shrooms a year ago, but I find it hard to describe in words. That is just the limitation of using the human language. If you have a better way to describe it then do tell.

@Carl-Richard I used to take weed edibles everyday. The high would last for almost 24-36 hours. I told myself edibles would be healthier then smoking, but i no longer believe it is the case anymore. I have large gaps in my memories, several weeks where my memories are really blury. I started to smoke instead 1-2 times a week, since the high last shorter time. I wake up sober, unlike edibles. I know smoking has its unhealthy side effects for the lungs, but mentally it is better in my experience. Also i have started to replace my weed habit with a better drug called working out (gym). Especially deadlifting, cardio, seated leg press and squats. The working out high is way better then weed and can last for hours. I don't crave weed after i am done working out. I don't really want to quit weed, but i want to reduce my use to no more then 2 times per months.

When my ego started to die and all meaning in my life started to fade away, i resisted. All my values, dessires and my life-purpose was just an illusion conjured in my mind. It was terrifying. I told myself over and over again no, no, no, no, fuck you psychedelic. Maybe i value my ego too much and have hard time letting it go. Not sure how to let go, but i am working on it.

I smoke weed only 1-2 times per week. Am i doomed?

My parents always say i am too old for a, b, c and d. Why do older people say that your too old to play with toys, one night stand, partying (Nightclubs/raves), watching porn and certain hobbies. I hate it when people say "grow up" or "your to old" Why can't we adults in our 20-50 years do what we love, instead of fitting into certain cultural norms. Like why is it wrong for an adult to play at the playground or with toys? I don’t believe we have to sacrifice certain hobbies in life to become more mature. Personally I will never quit porn or weed, I don't care how old I am or what other people think of me. Also if I had a lot of money right now I would start buying toys and lego sets again. I miss being a child I get older. Don’t get me wrong, I am not saying I want to be unconscious and not grow. I do believe spirituality and personal development is very important in life. Also being financially comfortable, but we should not give up hobbies we love doing, just because it looks immature or childish from society's perspective. I always get judged for enjoying hobbies that look childish.

@Yimpa Off-topic: Your profile picture is very cute. Wish i had a cute cat like that.

But thats an illusion. Happiness can not last forever, it comes and goes just like the wind.

Exactly what i experience on high dose of shrooms. During that time i experience so much physical discomfort and pain, while at the same time extremely happy and filled with so much love it hurts. It was difficult for me to tell the difference between pain and happiness while triping.

True, but only to certain degrees. Too much suffering would be bad.

True, but the happiness and the good memories can also outweigh the pain and suffering in life too.

Hell is other people. Humans are the real devil.

While i do agree. I find it difficult to imagine those higher states while sober, the memories just become more blury especially on higher dose of psychedelics. Also i know some of you guys experience higher states on weed (Not me). Weed is even worse since your memories just fade away fast, like there a gaps in your memory in that time when your high in my experience.

I have some few friends who get laid and have dont have their shit together. They get high on coke, weed, antidepressants, MDMA and other drugs weekly. They also work a boring 9/5 job and no college. So my answer is yes you can get laid even if you don't have your shit together. Although my friends are extremly exoverted so they do some what get easy laid since they are very social guys. They go out almost every weekend at clubs and bars. Also you can do both fix your life, while also learning pick-up or just go out to socialize a lot. Thats what i do. I focus on my dating life and my life purpose at the same time.

Is possible to get married without fully sharing finances and without putting all your assets at risk in the event of a divorce? If yes, i would definitely wanna get married. If no, i say hell no.

I got one word for you "socialize" a lot. Also buy drug test kit to be safe.

Never give up. Those 3 words are the only thoughts going through my head 24/7. You should try it.

You got all this just from weed oil? Have taken weed for almost 6 years and never experienced any of these things even at high dose.

I just smoke some weed and will be able to get some sleep. Also best to take LSD early in the day.

The question is will a women be able to tell the difference between talking to AI and a man?

yes

@Sugarcoat Did you understand what he was trying to communicate? I did not understand. Maybe you do.

I don't understand all this anti-porn posts here and reddit. Unless you all guys have high sex drive and really addicted to porn. I watch porn, but it has never been an addiction for me or caused any problem for me. In fact porn only makes me inspired to work harder for "The good life".

Maybe they just find it easier to dump their emotional feelings online, where they don't need to face them in real life. They would never do it with their friends or familiy. They would get shut down or it get really awkward. The internet have a lot of toxity beacuse it is easier to type online then to rant about it in real life. Here we can all hide in the shadows.

That is your goal. Not all men have same goal in the dating world. Personally for me having sex and to improve my confidence and social skills is my goal.