Ayla

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  1. Also, inquire who is this "I" who is having the thoughts. Still yourself and ask. Everything you perceive is not you, the same as a knife cannot cut itself. So what is left there? Keep asking.
  2. What helped me was to not believe a thing Mind is saying Not one single thought. Dismiss! "Dear Mr. Mind (made him masculine so I can detach easier), you are FIRED!" :)))))))))))))))))))))))
  3. @Simon "Something" it witnessing both the sadness and the joy. Inquire who/what THAT is!
  4. I'd say that human mind is incapable at this point in time and with the present language to express the exact feeling enlightenment has. What I can say is that my own experience led me to be VERY careful with the words I am using. Words begin to leave me because they're so approximate!! So better to leave what you are feeling right there. Don't go to Mind with them. Just let the feeling be there. It's exactly as you treat a newborn. You are there, but you don't feel the need to SAY things it would not understand. You just are present
  5. Fear of intimacy can be the byproduct of an "invisibility vow" you took as a child. Look into it. It helped me.
  6. What I have experienced was that love was yet another concept... but if we had to use it, it was imploding, exploding, going out and coming back at me and to all and everything. Let's say like a boiling soup of love (with no heat)
  7. I have had several, all profoundly transformative. I do not call them enlightening though. I simply do not name them, as these are just concepts, terms that one can interpret, mystify, or question, plus, Ego is very smart and can slide through the back door very easily Last one, a few days ago, I've experienced PURE BLISS for a whole day. I tried to write down what I was feeling, but now realize, again, these words have been so trashed by mass "understanding" that they have no value at mind level. Anyway, here is what I wrote at the time:
  8. Can't tell you how to find them.. but I can tell you mine is Mooji
  9. Bathe the phone? Have mom hide it from you? Just kidding. The energy behind any addiction is the same. Try figuring out what you are running away from
  10. If this question comes... you must look into it. It usually is not ego. It is human nature.
  11. If cursing is an expression of your vibration, if it comes from deep within you... look for the reasons of that. If it is just a fun way to express your personality...than so be it
  12. I have been in a sex-less relationship for 10 years. From 28 to 38. Masturbated for a while, but ... didn't do anything for me in the end. What I did notice, is that sexual energy is VERY powerful. It is our life force (I mean none of us would be here if it wasn't for that LOL). So I started to play with it, transforming it into healing energy and creativity. I would, by breathing, getting it to sway all my body. All my cells. It is not lust I am speaking of. It is that wonderful energy that excites the being.... Anyway.. that's just a girl's perspective
  13. Oh for fuck's sake ! Oh yes, I think if it is in your upbringing... you will still curse. But you have no pull, there's no attachment to it any longer. It comes just from the mouth, not from the heart ... and eventually it stops. It also does not bother you when you see it in others any longer...
  14. You are right! But there's another side to this: These are old wounds appearing to you so that you can heal them!
  15. Sharper, Please look into "people pleaser" concept on line. You do sound like one. (I was one) It's a result of having narcissistic parents usually. Look into all that. I'll get back to you in a bit. In any case, just know this: You are where you are. Start from there. Like if you were to read a map. In order for you to find your way, you need to assess where you are right now and come to terms with that.
  16. I'll give my two cents on this one Let's say we were all blind. All humanity. And then some of us suddenly got to SEE! Once you have SEEN, you cannot forget....but you also don't know how to get back to that place. Most enlightened people have gone through the dark night of the soul before they were enlightened. It just happened to them as if by miracle. What Leo is also explaining in his videos, is that you need to lose the image you have of you, as those people lost everything they were associated with. SO, when you have nothing left to cling to, when you feel you are going to simply die, there is this light, this lack of striving, this abandonment, surrender of all you knew about yourself.. this is when you SEE In my view, enlightenment requires complete surrender and trust. It is BEAUTIFUL
  17. Hello BoSS (this sounds so funny - couldn't help myself ) Here's one idea for you. I used it, it worked wonders for me. Everything that you can perceive with your mind, is an illusion. It is not real. So you can just...drop it. It is/can be as simple as that. If some idea sticks, sit deeply with it. Sit with it until you're sick of it and ready to drop it. Oh and...before you say you don't agree, seriously try it on
  18. This is a very delicate topic I struggled with all my life. I thought my opinions were so valid, so strong, so in point! I would never let any (or almost any) external point of view penetrate the wall of my own righteousness. Mercifully, thankfully, that was one of the first illusions that dropped off me once I stepped into the Light. I still see it a lot, especially in spiritual/religious people. People do not take the time to REALLY question something that comes into their experience. Most, just tell the other part bluntly: you are wrong and I am right! (more or less veiled) People hold on so tightly to their beliefs, even tho the results of those beliefs are highly questionable. As an example, I have a friend who has been on a "spiritual path" for decades, but still, her life is a mess, she is stuck in the same paradigm and no real change is there despite hundreds of courses and practices she has tackled. I know you talked a lot about limiting beliefs and being open, but ... maybe put like this, it will put it all together in an even more practical perspective?
  19. You have picked up two nasty beliefs: you are not at their level you need 15 hours to do the work What about working smarter, not harder? Use your imagination, your talent and your drive to find solutions to ameliorate the process Set aside as many hours as you feel comfortable with, and start from there. Invest 100% in that time, the rest, use for whatever else is of value in your life.
  20. No. There's no loneliness and there's no upset. There is of course a preference that people would wake up and just BE.. like one would prefer sunny weather to rain.
  21. I think meditation isn't necessarily about the time, but about CONSISTENCY! Start with 5 minutes but do it every day no matter what. It will be easier to increase the time.
  22. You are not egotistical, but you might have separation anxiety issues. Maybe codependency issues too? I have also just read your post regarding relationships. Look into your childhood trauma. Accept and forgive what you can, sit deeply with what still seems painful. Also, Teal Swan videos on youtube might be of help
  23. You might want to look into codependency issues. Also, try to find the inner belief that drives your fears. Through deeper and deeper questioning, find out what the core belief is that you hold. Look at childhood trauma. What is it that you lost (usually it's parental love).