Ayla

Done is Done when it wants to....

@Cameron24529 do you have a social worker in your school? Immediately go and talk this with him/her. Do not let your ex into the room under any circumstances. If she comes in, you leave and ask security to come get her out. Tell as many people as possible that you are being bullied. (Usually the first party making a complaint is the one that "wins"). your focus should be on keeping her out of contact with you as much as possible. ANY mixed messages that you give, will mean the continuation of this story..

Ooohhh! So ThAT was the reason! LoL

@Neo what rabbit? What hole? Where would it go?

@Dodoster what is your actual experience of any other "I am"? let's say - what is your experience of Ayla? if you will give no attention to the thoughts about any Ayla at all, you will see that your experience of ayla are what we could label some black spots on white creen and one picture. You only know what you know of Ayla. Ayla has no other reality to her than that that you are seeing. And this is LITERAL ! Not some kind of a whoowoo! Thoughts will come to tell you a million things. But see them as if you saw a million colors or heard a million sounds. They have no meaning whatsoever!!! do the same thing with thoughts about Dodoster. How is that construct real? Is it even? You are aware of him so it cannot be you. In the same way as an icecream cannot taste icecream, yes? It IS the icecream and it knows it is. Oh boy... You have enough info on this post to looooooooook!

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@Neo Good! only, you are never blown away. You are just aware of a thought form that says that there is a person being blown away. You lack no awareness at all of anything that is happening. You are always positively the awareness "of" the awared.

Neither Ayla or Neo or any other names do anything at all. Nobody is doing anything!! experience just IS! And all there is, is experience. No separation, no doing, no dreaming, no resisting. Those are all just concepts. Labels. Observe very very carefully your actual experience and see if you are a person buying bread

@Neo you are NEVER not what you already are. But I understand what you are saying. There is no universe that is outside of me. Nothing outside what you know. And what you know, is you. And when I say know, I don't imply mind knowledge. Mind (besides the fact that it doesn't exist) has no knowledge, only thoughts completely unaware of themselves. What I mean by knowledge, is your actual experience of what IS. Look if they are separate from each other Seeing - seein hearing - sound touching - touched tasting - taste smelling - smell thought-ing - thought

@Neo we are not harsh. There is no "we".

@theinevitableandi it seems that this here likes to kill the root swiftly lately... Not get entangled in the branches. I find that the more information is taken, the heavier it all seems. It's quite simple but yet so complicated. I like to criticize myself sometimes also. But I'm harmless lol. my point is, can you find someone who is doing the meditation? Is that a person? What besides a thought says so? If it isn't a person, what is it? And how is the meditator different from the meditation itself? Can you find something separating them? Another thought maybe?

@jjer94 lololoololoollllollllllll !!!!!!!!!!! thought says : " i recognize those ones!" Ask yourself: is a thought aware of anything? Are there really 2 characters talking to each other? Or is it just one big naughty thought playing around? can you find their source? If you can't what links them to you? *great narrative btw lmao !

Upside down? Or not? And wheres the reference point? Amazing!

@99th_monkey look for what? Can you find anything that you dont know? if there seems to be something that you don't know, how is it that you actually know that you don't? And.....'what is noise? Can you separate noise from the hearing of the noise? is there any difference or separation? Can you hear a noise that isnt noise? Or if there is noise is there a way for you not to hear it? Isn't it that the hearing and the noise are one single "unit"? and the fact that you are aware of the noise ("you hear it") doesnt it make you the aware (hearing) a single unit with the awareD (noise)? And if you are one and the same thing as the noise, how can you be bothered by you? All the things a thought says, is just a thingy. One thingy based on another thingy. Oh...plus another thought that says thzt you believe the other thoughts. Can you see all that?

@mr lenny is there a self that is authentic and one that isnt? no need to complicate things. Is there a person there having a brain and doing meditation?

Very f***ing deep, I, stressed....all these are just thoughts. What in actual experience is deep? It goes from which level? The one you were before? When? Can you find time? Depth? Stressed? Do you have a body? What is saying so? All you are describing are thought forms that have no reality in actual experience. Thoughts seem to appear and another thought says you believe them... Get into real proper inquiry of your actual experience of what IS. oh and... Yes, there's nowhere to get back, cause you never left anywhere.

Have you been able to find the one meditating in your meditations?

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@jjer94 whoa! LOL

@isabel , search "narcissistic mother" and "scapegoat" on youtube.

@Joyous weed does not do anything to you. It just gives you the ability to "lose" past and future for a moment. In those instances, you only see what is. When it begins to fade, you slowly or abruptly come back into fear. Fear cannot exist in the present. Fear cannot exist without body and time. Nothing is wrong. If I was to give an advice for you to consider, smoke it (if you have to) as integral part of a meditation process. Do it alone or with someone who won't interfere. Write down insights and verify them through meditation. All's good.

@Emerald Wilkins no two experiences are identical and nothing that has still value for growth can ever be removed. My husband and my son did not die, they just disappeared from my experience...so did many many other people. More things are leaving day by day.. But the difference now is that they don't leave anyone. Just life playing itself out and about.

Users that keep attacking other users as opposed to oppinions of other users, are permanantly banned. Every ban is approved by Leo. Ayla - moderator

Life here is turning more and more into silence and looking. Be soon posting about proper looking...

@Matthew Lamot has just been banned from this forum. Thank you all for your contributions. Kindly, Ayla - moderator.