Ayla

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  1. @Spiritjunkie I like this. It might work. Trick the brain into associating another feel to the actual experience. Still, I would only advise it for minor stuff..
  2. My biggest limiting belief is (still) that I am the body. A bit more about the stage I'm in: I do not get highs and downs any longer I don't get offended anymore I still experience certain judgments and triggers but I am able to see them arising and dismiss them as illusions of "Mr. Mind" (this is how I call my ego, purposefully giving it a masculine name so that I can differentiate easier) I have great results with pain - I can now wave it away almost instantly. I am able to listen and understand Grace flowing through me and others I have troubles speaking/writing because of the ultimate meaningless of human words/concepts I am happy all the time. Not the high happy due to an external circumstance, but just enjoying everything that IS I have no routine and make no plans whatsoever. This was a bit difficult in the beginning especially for practical things, but got accustomed to it now. I do not have a life purpose. I just AM. Grace has whispered to me lately about Fasting and... this morning I took the plunge. Hilarious way God speaks to me: Yesterday I was in front of the computer all day (monitoring the forum .. ) so I ordered some Grilled chicken. I couldn't eat all of it so left it here on the table in my "office" (office is a small room in my apartment). So when I woke up this morning, rest of the chicken was gone, loads of bones on the floor.. Forgot the window open and realized that most surely my neighbor's cat had a pretty decent meal !!! Hahahahaaa!!!! So, this is my first day on pure water. I do feel OK. Bit of dizziness and headache that I was able to wave away with no problems. Keep you (myself) posted on how things go!
  3. @Simon Zackrisson , kids just being kids
  4. I just wanted to convey to you that this is a place where we're motivated to help people transcend their trauma and hurts, not to be sarcastic and hurtful. Unfortunately, this message is not included in the Guidelines.. @Sarper, let me know if you want to delete your account by PM, but know that hurtful comments tell something about people that make them, not about you. I the world I'm living in, this topic could easily switch to a message of love and acceptance, encouragement and hope Thank You
  5. @AHappyTeddyBear - the plot thickens LOL
  6. @Sarah_Flagg hahahahhahaa good LOL
  7. Just keep asking this: "WHO is feeling confused?" "WHO is afraid of going crazy?" Just those two... all the external answers in the world won't be able to make you understand. This needs to be your own work.
  8. One second ..after years of PAIN and LOSS
  9. Water fasting - Ease off Long day. Beautiful glorious day. Ate an avocado and a tomato .. felt quite full, but happy in the beginning. Food seems SO HEAVY. It's like taking your body straight into the ground. Tiredness comes. Questions come. Everything is not as we've been led to believe. There's so much more to what meets the eye. I will most surely go back to do this very soon. I love you God! Thank you Thank you I love you
  10. @abrakamowse , assuming there was a You to go crazy...what would be so bad about that? (might seem a joke, but think about it)
  11. @walt I love you God
  12. You need to understand that what you call Ego, is also part of the play of consciousness. It's not apart from it. Somehow now you imagine that you're looking from one side of the mirror into another, not understanding that you are not only on both parts, but you are the mirror too
  13. I wouldn't do that to you LOL It is not unusual for a person like you to have what I call "an anchor" into this world. Someone very "solid" and adapted to life here, to keep you from going AWOL
  14. It will not. Here's how I see this: For me, there's just two "forces" in this Universe -* : LOVE and FEAR. Love is real. Fear is not. Anytime you do not feel Love... that's your cue right there that that's an illusion * trying my best to put concepts into what I want to express here... so enlightenment "specialists" (LOL) please bare with me
  15. @Sarah_Flagg, You know very well that you are not crazy Having played with these things all my life, my conclusion now at this point, is that we have no way of understanding these things AND the fact that nobody can really explain them, is a sign for me that there's no need to As you say, it is very humbling, sometimes scary, sometimes so beautiful that we just can't seem to let in all that joy. Does it matter what it is? Why it is like that? I enjoy to the fullest my experiences. I know they are mine, that nobody can take them away, that they happen for a reason which I cannot comprehend... and don't let mind try to trick me into some understanding that might or might not be accurate.
  16. The questions are only valid if they serve for the un-learning of what you already think you know. Opening you up, instead of putting yet more "stuff" in. Ego loves problems to solve. It is its role. If you are trying to kill Ego with its blessings.... it's only going to lead you nowhere.
  17. @isabel , YOU did NOTHING wrong! You need to understand that things happen to people one way or another. This is HIS path, not yours. It doesn't matter what your actions were. It is very important that you take care of yourself first in this situation. If you are familiar with Teal Swan's videos on youtube, go there and work with them. Just give yourself a chance to get out of this. Once you're out of your own issues, you'll really be able to help others. If you're too weak, they'll drag you down.
  18. @isabel , I was in a similar situation in my own family. You need to sit with your anger, fear and grief. Bottom line is: if a fire burnt you once, would you go back into it to demand excuses ? I highly recommend "the presence process" by michael brown.
  19. "I" here must be questioned deeeeeeeply until it sees no longer. Until only "play" is left.
  20. The thought that says - good cookie is in fact a result of previous experiences and substances in your brain that you have/had no control over.. That clashes with the thought that it has too many calories which you believe to be true from the bs you've gathered from medical and magazines area (no control over that either)... You are trying to "understand" a concept (no free will) with the exact tool which would be annihilated if that was to be true Eat the cookie
  21. Just passing by to throw a bucket of water on ya'll ... this topic is HOT! There is no free will. And that's that! LOL