Ayla

This

Fully accepting it. Fully embracing what comes into it.

good luck

@AlexB , just don't fall into the trap of seeking suffering where there is none Sit with what comes. Allow your body to fully feel it until it calms down. Than move on

plot thickens

@zenny - youtube is cool too Teal Swan and Noah Elkrief and many many others.

Leave the Ego for the moment Just relax into the feeling of I SEE Do the exact opposite of searching. Relax into the who is seeing. It kinda has a feeling of "back" to it - as in "relax back into.." Yes, it is difficult to explain and so you don't have to Leave explaining also.

Who is that one? the seer ?

What you "see" during meditation are just unresolved issues that you keep entertaining. It is still very much a part of you and trying to kill it (if it was possible), would get you nowhere. Real self is not a feeling. "Something" perceives that feeling. What?who is THAT?

@zenny - you are already enlightened ! It is just a matter of you realizing it. Better start with self-esteem issues rather..

@WickedIrish , stop doing what you always did (pushing and striving into an answer) - relax into it. Let go of Mind. Just live the answer you're trying to convey

@Blessed81 - in short, it usually goes like this: man marries (dates) his mother. woman - her daddy. BUT, in my experience, we tend to get attracted to the parent that harmed us most. And that is not a figure of speech. It is the blunt truth. Look at the same ways you feel about mom/dad - girlfriend. You might just discover that... there's a lot of healing to be had there

I didn't.. I don't Suffering, pain, seem such elevated concepts when you talk or read about them.. still.... LOL When pain comes and gets you by the throat, you'll feel it! The fear, the lack of stability, the terror of being left with no way to survive... it will all punch you straight in the .. what you called it. Of course it is worth it! Just don't go down this way thinking you're immune to it or it will not affect you. This "IT" knows your weak points way better than you do, and it will go exactly there and wipe them away more or less swiftly!

Indeed... there comes a point of no-return. Mooji describes is as: urge - urgency - emergency Look into what is most dearest to you, as that is exactly what will be coming up for revision Is it a relationship? A career? Money? Life of a child or parent? Friendships? Health? Home? Nothing will be left standing... so as to put you right in front of your own self, with no delusions standing in your way. Are you still ready?

Mercifully, "hate" was one of the first things that peeled off me.. Projections are never stoopud.. they're actually a great gift! I actually admire your insights and your vast knowledge.

I hate it when you're right @Pinocchio !

Leo has helped me peel off a lot of layers of unconsciousness, as well as making me laugh a lot! I admire his work, dedication and will power. Even though I don't share some of his views, I am at a stage where there's enough "fluidity" here to accept it all as a blessing. This gives me enough motivation and drive to "moderate" questions like this... All that being said, I could never treat Leo as the Buddha. He's too cute to be one...isn't he girls?

@abrakamowse Grace speaks in wonderful ways, doesn't it?

@Aman , Sounds to me that nobody give any value to you since childhood. Inferiority complex is a vast topic but you might want to start by questioning every thought that comes up as follows: "what would be so bad if I spoke my mind?" As answers come, keep going further with same question: " So why would that be that bad?" You will find at the end of this questioning, a "core trauma" that you are dealing with - that needs to have the light of consciousness upon it

@Blessed81 YOU NEED TO MOVE ON! Here... She sounds like the victim type. You'll always end up being the perpetrator to the "outer world". Just one word of advice: look into your childhood trauma, or else, you'll end up attracting the exact same woman, in a different body

@Ludwig , Those kind of emotions come more and more rarely to me... So I'm glad I was able to "document" them "live" lol. There's such a difference between "asleep pain" and "awake pain" .. Even though pain still feels like pain, there's no more hopelessness and helplessness and sadness associated with it. Living pain like this, still feels excruciating, but the relativity of it is present at any moment. Thank God!

@Rita , What you need to understand, is that the polyamory situation is something that comes to you. There's no need or searching to it (sometimes one fights it with all his/her being as being so inconceivable to the society at this point). The feelings get installed and you find yourself trying to figure out things. to let go of one and not the other, and you simply, truly, absolutely cannot chose. Every case is special. But this is what they have in common: LOVE

The point isn't the sexuality in this context, but the love that was shared...different people, same feelings, same timeframe.

The Invitation by Oriah Mountain Dreamer It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing. It doesn’t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love for your dream for the adventure of being alive. It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon... I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow if you have been opened by life’s betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain mine or your own without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy mine or your own if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful to be realistic to remember the limitations of being human. It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself. If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy. I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty every day. And if you can source your own life from its presence. I want to know if you can live with failure yours and mine and still stand at the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, “Yes.” It doesn’t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children. It doesn’t interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back. It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

No news. No TV. No newspapers.. Feels so free