Ayla

@Emerald Wilkins It is by EMBRACING who you (think you) are that you transcend things. Not forcing them out. Everything needed to drop from you in order to get enlightened, will drop by itself. You will find yourself not attracted to those thoughts any longer. This is the reality. There is a rhythm in this process and now it has come to a point where you are being asked: is it OK to have these insecurities? Is it OK to feel like they belong to me? The moment you accept them, you will also notice the phrasing or them: you HAVE them, they BELONG to you... So they are NOT YOU. It is the same as trying to kill Mr. Mind. No can do. Accept that they are there. Also, ask yourself what is your image of an enlightened person. A monk? LOL Remember that this is a life-long process. If I was brought to the point I am today a year ago, I would be in a nuthouse right now. So relax into it, embrace the things that have been given you as gifts. (you>>>>>gifts). All that is necessary is that you don't identify with them.

For a while, you need the mind to undo its own entanglements. Mind will go nuts to try and find solutions and ways and read books and look for metaphors to mesmerize the being. But at one point, it will be faced with a block. Nowhere else to go. No solution to be found. Let me use an example. Let's say you are a woman giving birth. There are maaany moments when your mind is saying: this baby cannot come out. Can't come out, OMG it won't come out! .... And at one point, mind really clicks: this baby ISN'T coming out! All the conviction and the horror and the helplessness of mind is there, shocked, blocked! That's when Grace brings it out. Something switches. Some help comes somehow. And baby comes out

There is no death! Please don't believe me, just inquire into it and see for yourself!

@theinevitableandi All good now than yeah? Or does "I" needs more asking?

@cetus56 This is what I usually call "looping"

@theinevitableandi If you need to ask this question, YES!

@cetus56 Use whatever you like, but in the end... the thorn must get out, one way or another.

@Actualizer

Who's mind? I ?

What's coming up when you say this?

You mind is trying to bypass some steps here If you are on a path to self-actualization, do that, paying attention to obstacles. If they become unbearable, that might be a sign to revert focus on enlightenment work .

Papaji has a beautiful metaphor: You have a thorn in your foot (mind). Use another thorn (inquiry) to remove the first thorn - then throw them both away

@theinevitableandi Lean back into it. No force is needed to do that. No "outer" answer will help you with this. Keep leaning back into it...

Deep, profound, complete, all encompassing, unconditional, never-ending, total, beautiful, amazing, surrendered, humble, happy, joyful, expanding, infinite, perpetual, uniting, melting, dissolving love!

Post number 1000

Whose lives? Which beginning?

To hell and back... The more we advance on the path to truth the deeper the purging becomes - it has of course personal roots but it is not about yourself any longer. There's a point in the grieving where it feels like the pain goes back in time it expands to all people from all times. Last purging was an attack so vicious, I was witnessing a part of human construction - the illusion turning back at itself trying to kill itself. sharp, focused like a laser right towards the heart of it, body feeling electrocuted by the pain, the despair, the hopelessness and helplessness of it all. no force to fight, no will to fight... been taken on to a journey of human suffering, horror, hell... the hell through the veins of a human being. Felt like lava sticking to everything that it encounters killing it melting it. Is this "God, why have you forsaken me?" Jesus was talking about? just words....trying to convey in human terms that can perceive a feeling. Waiting for death knowing that also is illusion, stuck there, letting it take me. can't fight this. won't fight it. There's no me anywhere.. no thing is real Still, somehow, you are not given more than you can take. Ground is shaking (literally). Earthquake snaps me out of hell back into the loving hands of Grace.

"Sounds to good to be true" is what people think when you appear to them as (positively) "different". The only way you can safely share this, is through example. They will see the results.. "I personally" (lol that sounds funny) have been through a phase where I couldn't talk about anything else anymore. All outer things had lost their importance. It is going to happen to you too if you keep going in that direction. People will naturally drop from your experience because they won't be able to listen to you any longer. Keep quiet as much as you can. Grace will bring new people that can listen and share.

Sexuality is a natural aspect of our humanity. It is the way we create life. It is the way we create. Period. Creativity needs a muse. A partner to inspire you. To un-limit your mind and to make you eager to give life to something profoundly new. Your unique human expression is derived from your sexuality. Women often have low drive issues because of (fu@*ing) oppression from education and society. There's a lot to say about feminine sexual trauma. It goes as deep as our biblical history. So the "secret" is to switch your focus and perspective. Ask yourself this question: "What would be so bad if I enjoyed my sexuality? What would that say about me?" True honest answers to this questions might blow your mind and open up blockages you might have. Does it feel dirty? Does it feel wrong? Does it feel meaningless? Does it feel strange? Does it feel violent? Does it feel boring? Does it feel yucky? Look for those answers. You cannot really go further until this issue is looked upon. Intimacy is with your own self first. Know your body. Explore. Enjoy. Go wild, just for the heck of it. It is only after this, that you might want to ask yourself if your partner inspires you. If you admire him. If you feel the protection and love that you need from him. Ask yourself "positive questions" instead of limiting ones. "Do I love this man? What do I feel when I think about him? Is there constriction or expansion in my body when I think of him? Is my heart feeling the warmth?" If you really sit and think of him, can you say that you love him? What does that feel like? All these questions are open as opposed to "why don't I enjoy this"...

Loving the expression of the Sun there.... LOL

Try... Just let yourself float into sadness..... you're already dead anyway... sooo... sit there in it. See where it takes you

What happens after ? What is the feeling ?

ok, what happens once in space?