Ayla

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  1. @Kserkkj , Think about a big forest that you have right behind your backyard. You always took the same path to go explore it. Not only it is your path of choice, but it is the only one that you know. Every time a trigger comes, you go on that path. Now you've come to a point where the deep love you have for yourself is starting to manifest. What I mean by that, is that if you wouldn't love yourself so deeply, you wouldn't even care about all these compulsions and would continue to go into them as a "default". Right? Well, take that love a step forward. Find ways to LOVE and accept the fact that you are adopting the only way that feels safe and secure for you, that you have so much care for yourself that you're not willing to put yourself through any step that would scare you even more. There is nothing to push away. Just notice it. Laugh at it. Look at it with curiosity and compassion. Look at these words: CURIOSITY & COMPASSION vs. WILL POWER & SUPPRESSION which one feels more loving to you? Go step by step, no rush is needed. A thing you will notice just by looking into it, is that there is an internal feeling in your body (a tingling, a void, etc) that immediately tricks you into going into some pattern. It is an association you've made in time. Example: Body feels tingling in hands =>>>> mind thinks 'need to go do X'. Is there any link between these two things in REALITY? No, you've made that up in time for your own protection. That link right there can only be broken through mindfulness and compassion.

  2. Tourette's Syndrome

    Ayla replied to Displayname's topic in Mental Health, Serious Emotional Issues

    @Displayname , what about not suppressing them? What would happen then? What about just letting them flow? Just watching them with your full compassion and understanding. Think about them as little kids playing around. Would you stop them? Why? How? For how long? Fortunately, we live in a society that has a lot of information at hand to get educated. So think about it this way: This is the way LIFE has decided to keep you away from people that are not supposed to be near you. Try that, experiment with it first in a confined environment - your room or bathroom. Discover the triggers if there are any and embrace them fully. Thank them, love them to death.
  3. That's cool. Now if the awareness was "bigger", how big would it be? And you how small and looking at it from which point? That's just for you to exhaust that mind... But if you REALLY want to get it done with, meditate on this one: Really look honestly at it... and find out if you are any different than the wave. Do it over and over again, instead of circulating all sorts of mumbo jumbo in your mind <3
  4. Even the most advanced meditators cannot "not think" for too long.... Where is that awareness when you DO think? Does it disappear somewhere? Maybe in that blackness from your dream?
  6. are you?? What tells you that you are? aside thoughts I mean.
  7. @cetus56 sure! Now what? Search within yourself. What's the difference between a man and a grain of sand?
  8. let go of the "think"? look in your own experience. what is there that is REAL?
  9. @cetus56 Where's the separation between "us" and the sand? would be a better Q
  10. @abrakamowse i did. I just didn't understand the separation between you and I Explain?
  11. Just look at what feels true for you. YOU.
  12. @abrakamowse No no... I'm not at all trying to trick you. I'm just trying to show you a way to find out FOR SURE
  13. Why?
  14. YOU tell ME !
  15. Fault = there's a right and a wrong Who's the fucking judge?
  16. @abrakamowse please, you know better than this... Who's MORAL ? Good/bad? Who's the judge? Have you found one? Physics? Which century? Most importantly: do those "teachers" have something more than YOU do? ...according to whatever law you want to consider. Are they better? How? What you are reading, are WORDS! Find your truth! Take a look inside of you!
  17. I will keep that in mind. Thank you.
  18. Great! I still avoid busy roads and high water...
  19. Sure, but YOU look inside your own consciousness and see where do they come from? What are they, really? What is their purpose and where do they land? Are they any different from You? Whomever you are... Just search inside. There is no background necessary, no ideology, just ... search inside. ...
  20. Where does a belief come from? What is a belief?
  21. Imagine for a moment a scene: Ocean arriving at shore. There has been a storm and there's a lot of agitation. Waves are high on the side that has sand on, lower where there are rocks.. Consider in your mind's eye, if you can, how the waves hit the rocks here and the sand there, then the waves splash over a rock, and then calm down a little in a sandy place, before disappearing. Now.....Does the wave choose any of its directions? Is it even really a separate entity different from the water deposited in it, the rocks, the depressions in the ground, the sand, the weather conditions etc? Is it even the same entity moment by moment, or is it more the product of environmental conditions and water, the sand, the rain and the storm, like an an ever-changing pattern? Now, consider: can you find anywhere where 'I' autonomously intervenes into life, choosing something that is not the product of all the elements, that is not a part of the overall flow?
  22. @Actualizer I could never lose myself in anything at all... (not anymore anyway)... and especially in words. Look up any word you can ever find. Isn' it weird to you that all words are only explained through YET other words? Where's the truth in it all? other words? I was merely pointing that the moment you believe in something, ANYTHING to be true, you become as solid as your belief. That doesn't help...
  23. Do you really believe that?
  24. What would be lost if there really is no "me"? How would everything look like?
  25. Why would Ego need masks? It can turn itself into anything it wants, isn't it? There's no need for any mask at all. And then... who would be seeing the masks? Other egos? other masks? What would be the title of the PLAY? Why would the play say? and for whom? ... When a wave comes to the shore, is it the same wave as the one just nearby, or the one that will come a second after? What separates them? ........ lost yet?