Beeflamb

After going down a deep spiritual journey, attending long retreats, and experimenting with numerous psychedelics I will often have a sense that I am everyone. I see myself in everything. I can get along with anyone because I am everyone. I become absorbed into everyone that I become nothing. I start to feel like I have lost my purpose here on Earth, I lose passion and drive to be somebody in this life. Sometimes I feel like I know who I am, but my deepest core values are often lost into an infinite sea of possibilities. I end up being "lost" even though I've had some insanely profound insights and I know myself now better than I ever have. I still get a sense of just drifting along in life. How can I revitalize that core of who I am once again, to become someone even if the truth is revealed that we are all nobodies.

I'm not a political person at all and admit that I'm highly uneducated in terms of politics. Generally I just search some videos/their social media accounts to get an idea of who they are as a person and their values. RFK seems to me to be an incredible human. Make America healthy again? Legalize the use of psychedelics for medicine and rebuild the corrupt pharmaceutical industry. Heck yes! People like Elon Musk I feel more unsure about. And of course there is Trump, who is definitely just a corrupt egotistical maniac. I think that's pretty clear. Just seems like this elections has a lot of extremes, hoping that everything will balance out in the end.

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Just watching a podcast with him now and I truly believe he is one of the most conscious beings on the planet Frank Yang

Something I've noticed that I find rather amusing is that whenever I manage to find a text, a Youtube video, an article, a meditation/spiritual teacher ect... that is extremely profound, insightful, and deep, it always has very few views/public information about it. It feels like I unlocked some secret treasure that although publicly available, is completely ignored by nearly everyone. And sometimes there will be a hidden treasure discovered that does go mainstream and it becomes rotten. Let's take a silly example that kindof fits for this (Joe Rogan lol) I remember when Joe was a psychedelic adventurer, really diving deep into DMT, consciousness, and had some really interesting guests on his show. It seems like now that he has gotten extremely popular he's lost something in the process. I don't know what it is exactly but he just seems more boring and complacent with life. His interview with Trump was incredibly boring. And then of course there is the mainstream, which is almost entirely garbage and brain rot these days. Do you think there will ever come a point where this is flipped? And the profound becomes the mainstream? What would society look like at that stage?

Usually this happens to me. I have a long period in which there is no meaning and zero motivation. You can just do nothing and eventually you'll find something that sparks you again

As Elon Musk stated on the JRE podcast "If Trump doesn't win this will be the last free election in America" claiming that the Dems will allow migrants into swing states to vote pushing the whole country over to Blue and thus a one party system going forward. Is this an actual thing, or is Musk just pulling garbage out of his ass? It's hard to judge if Elon is a super genius sometimes or a super buffoon

You can live like a monk without actually becoming a monk. Just made a habit of meditating everyday, not watching porn, read Buddhist texts.

I’m an OG Leo fan. Found him after my first LSD trip. And I can’t deny that I’ve been there alongside him through his awakenings. I feel like I’ve gone through the journey with him. Not just Leo, but also Frank Yang, and the whole collective unconscious. Although we’ve never met, there is definitely something transmuted through this magical thing called the internet. Leo doesn’t post much these days on YouTube and I feel like I understand why. I understand it, but in my own way, in my own flavor. Just wanted to share that.

It's very difficult for me to imagine myself working a standard job i.e UI UX designer, teacher, programmer, police officer, salesman ect... I feel like I need to pusue a career that is completely outside of the standard job market. Something that doesn't really have a label. Basically I just want to do my ow thing. But I also don't want to be poor. Should I go for it?

it's weird. Sometimes I see someone living an interesting life and I'll be like, yeah that can be me. And I'll just sorta jump back and forth feeling like I'm just an empty center waiting to be filled, and that I can become a new me. This is especially true when I'm in social situations and I just naturally adapt to the energy I'm in. I feel like there's no base of me anymore. It's very freeing, but also really weird and it's hard for me to decide what it is I actually want to do and who it is I want to be. I just want to be everything.

I know this may sound egoic but I have a sense that since I've been following a lot of Leo's content for a while, had been on my own spiritual journey, consume a ton of this type of content and am an avid reader, dived deep into psychedelics, I feel as though I am "above" much of the world. The average American seems almost idiotic to me and most of the stuff pushed out by popular culture I can barely stomache anymore because I just feel it is so below me. BUT, I know we are all one. Everyone is a reflection of me. But idk, it just seems to me that much of the world is just absolutely oblivious to what is really going on here. But at the same time I don't feel like I've achieved any real success yet in life. Getting a high paying job is really hard for me. Starting a business is hard. Going to grad school is hard. Finding my purpose is hard. It's weird. Perhaps I am the idiot here. So what are we guys? Are we deep, intellectual seekers with an understanding of the deepest sacred knowledge or are we a bunch of loonies? Or are we perhaps both?

I consider myself to have an abnormally high sex drive. Its annoying at times but it I find it really hard to control that urge and it really can dictate a lot of my life decisions. For example many of my decisions will be made by how it will help me in getting laid. This is a really deep feeling within me and I am always trying to deny this but to be honest it is the truth. It has been this way since Iwas 16 years old and I am realizing I lost a lot of potential in life because of this. I've been trying nofap and the longest I could go for was 2 weeks, but honestly I didn't feel much different. Is it worth pursuing nofap or is it just going to make me more sexually frustrated?

I found that you have to actually set an intention to meet and date women and put yourself out there, otherwise you end up in a comfortable shell by yourself. Nobody will ever come into your life until you intentionally get out there and make bold moves.

This is somewhat sad but something I have realized is that if a family member were to die I wouldn't really feel much emotionally. I feel as though I've gotten so detatched from my feelings and emotions that I feel somewhat numb about everything. Does anyone else feel this way?