First psychedelic trip ever: 6-10 mg 5-Meo-DMT
Yesterday, my first attempt failed because I apparently did far less than 5 mg. Nothing happened. I had increased heartbeat but maybe I was just excited. I was afraid that the substance was not 5meo.
Today, I did around 6-10 mg of this stuff. I cannot say precisely because my SmartWeigh Gem50 is giving me different readings every time. But it should not have been more than 12mg I think.
I used Leo's plugging method, the only difference is that I couldn't find micro scoops in Canada, the ones available are ~$50 per pack which is nonsense. I got a milligram scale instead. Because I don't have $500 for a scale, I got the best cheap one for CAD40 from Amazon.ca.
I plugged, came downstairs and laid on my bed. It was 11:55 am. By 12:00 I started to feel the effects. By 12:10 the intensity increased significantly, and around that time was the peak of the experience. By around 12:25 the effects subsided, but continued very mildly for at least one hour. 5 hours later I am still feeling the effects, as if my brain is pulsating in my head. It's as if I took a high dose of lion's mane (which I did before). I am wondering if I will lucid dream tonight.
I hadn't eaten since yesterday lunch, so around 24 hours by the time of the trip. Still I definitely felt nausea building up, though not to the point of puking. I felt the effect similar to hyperventilation (shamanic breathing?). I used to do Wim Hof's breathing, it felt similar. It also felt like being drunk or having fever. If I attempted to stand up I would have vertigo.
By 12:10 the effect intensified so much as though my focus got super concentrated that I was afraid to look around. I put on my sleep mask so I missed that part. I kept repeating "I surrender". When I looked around, it did look lighter or more colorful, though it may just be my imagination. I started to see rainbows on the wall on which light was falling. I also looked at the window, and the light was super bright.
The only insights so far is that this stuff definitely works, it's not just lip service. Also, it's kind of familiar in a strange way, like something I already experienced but in a more intense way. I did feel like my ego was numbed down but definitely not disappearing. The feeling was similar to Wim Hof's hyperventilation in this way.
I know that I must proceed further, but feeling this thing at work I'm a bit scared. I am now living with 2 other people (they get up at like 1pm) so I trip when they are asleep. I can't just do a breakthrough dose with them around, because I am afraid I will scream etc.
I just watched Leo's skepticism video on his blog, so I guess I am facing the ego game now
That's it so far.