kag101

Let's stop demonizing orange.

Good! Those substance are widely known for amplifying psychosis. Are you still meditating?

my motto: focus on the big fish ??? • instead of getting triggered by some stupid shit, i want to focus on what's really important. waking up early • my college classes will start in about 3 weeks. i'll have to wake up at 7 am. damn. driving ?️ • i've been taking driving classes, and will finally get my driver's license! focus on my goddamned life ?? • i've been working on stopping pitying other people. "oooh... look at this person... what a pity... so powerless and incapable............" RED FLAG --> instead of focusing on my own life—which have variables that I can control—, I end up try to fix other people's lives. "updating" myself • i have this project of not being alienated to what's going on in the world. it's giving me good results. examples: check the news once a day listen to some new music read current bestselling books watch trendy tv series obviously, i'm not going to force myself into liking stuff just because it's new. ariana grande she's an artist i used to think was crap, but is actually decent that resonates a lot to me. ==> distancing can be vital, as it oxygenates the relationship. <==

Are you taking weed or psychedelics?

Very interesting video!

He's really overrated IMO. His workshops look like an evangelical service...

I used to never cry. It wasn't good. Psychedelics have helped me with that. But... answering your question: • Getting emotional and letting one tear drop? Maybe once a week. • Crying my heart out? 3-5 times a year.

No! You're going through deep pain, and you're asking for help. My advice is for you to stop your meditation practice. It is clearly doing you harm. Some questions: • Have you ever been to a psychiatrist? • Are you searching for a new therapist? • Does your family know about your situation?

i like to share my experience with others. i used to be in a very dark place, and i've got out of it about 1 year. so i'm just giving my 2 cents to people who are struggling. nice topic, btw

Good luck with trying to do that lol

I think you should turn on the notifications.

How many experiences you've had with men?

don't underestimate how powerful the human brain is. your "little brain" has about one hundred billion neurons, and they're connected by trillions of connections.

how many times has this happened?

that's neurotic imo i see is the do nothing technique effective for you? when i try to do it, i simply get lost in monkey mind.

• i've been feeling like I'm on a spur of progress this last month • i'mma go back to college this year. my major will be in psychology. i hope the classes are not overly biologically-oriented. • the freaking microphone of my iphone has stopped working. ugh! i'll think about that tomorrow.

I recommend you do. That is an important topic.

Bingo!

You won't find it.

How does that usually go?

are you able to let yourself go when you're with a girl? or do you get tensed & rigid?

Don't ask. Just move on!

Does your practice feel natural? I think that practicing Metta can quickly become something "inauthentic", especially when I'm picturing someone I don't like...

That does sound like a hypomaniac episode. Because they might not turn out fine. Bipolar is a very serious illness. If you don't take any action (that is, going to a competent psychiatrist), then chances are, your mood swings are only going to get worse over time.