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Would your 6 year old self feel safe and at peace around you? Would your 80 year old self smile and be proud thinking of you? Are you the one that's holding it all in place, connecting it all, animating it all..? Show me.

I seem to be attracting demons that are seeking redemption, like a light tower. It's like I am guiding them to the other side. I speak their language. They love me. But make no mistakes. One wrong move, one slip, and they'd pull me right down and tear me apart.

We're meeting one of these days. Nice. And also, there is no shortage of women in this place either. A brief interaction with a redhead this morning. Feels promising. But again, my focus must not be on dating or hooking up now. I must stay on track and do what needs to be done. Time is flying.

No, not that one. That one was half Italian half Ethiopian. This one is just Italian. And exactly 10 years older. I know. I'm surprised too. It's not the Slovenian girl and not even that other one that I struggle to remember the name or nationality of now. But I'm not disappointed. Not at all.

And now... A text... from one of the girls... from the previous hostel... Guess which girl..?

A true blessing, and I accept it. Felt wonderful, came in just on time. Will revisit your comment many more times, I'm sure, and bask in that river of love. All the best to you, kind spirit.

Terrible karaoke night in the building.

Wow... Everything is so... easy.

Ahhh. Yes. Solitude. Finally. I'm nobody again. And everyone is a stranger.

45min cycling all the way from west side to south east. Checked in. 7 nights. I have a good feel about it.

Every day is a ME day, but tomorrow especially. About to recharge hard.

Yeah. It's time to go. Be back soon.

Not closing on the American chick either tonight. Why? Because I have two much bigger investments in the game, and they're both just around the corner. It would be a shame to mess that up. Also, started feeling a bit dirty entertaining this many girls these days. Even though I barely touched any of them.

Last minute hug and chitchat with the Slovenian receptionist before she went to bed. Took her number. The vibe iz crazy between us! Looking forward to seeing her very, very soon.

We really should at least cuddle. It's the perfect setting.

She's persistent. 3rd night in the row she's sitting right next to me. Tonight I finally made a move.

And now an American chick. OK.

Ohhh I get it now! I'm planting seeds! Is what I'm doing!

And just when I thought it couldn't get any better... Another Slavic brother entered the picture!

Why am I not closing on any of these girls?! Why am I being such a tease?! The fuck is going on?! I should be having shower sex every night and every morning!

Noooo waaaay! The super hot receptionist turned out to be Slovenian! Holy fuck! Those tits! And she's 20! Had a mind blowingly smooth and cool 20min conversation with her just now, on the couch, in the TV room. She was practically begging me to stay for another week. Fuck fuck fuck! What do I do?!

Lovely week at Dutchies. Definitely one of the best hostels in the city. Had a lot of fun, but also, a short little retreat. Made me jump back from this latest little incident, in record speed. I feel fully recovered. And better. However, I think it's time to move on now. Checking out tomorrow morning. 99% sure.

This girl is the most serious one out of the total 5 or 6 that I have interacted with during my stay here. She's also the one with the biggest tits and juiciest ass. Super nice vibes. Very calm and easy going. Italian. Her English is not that good, but she wants to improve. She is here to stay. At least 12 green flags so far.

'I need to talk to you'...she said. It was lovely. Finally exchanged numbers. This one's burning slow...

Steve was right. You really have no other choice (but to suffer) until you realize that you do have a choice. And you can only ever realize it now.