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Jk I'm giving my best to find something to complain about and I can't. A little bit of loneliness kicking in these days maybe. I'm going deeper into solitude. But it's all good. Everything is as it should be.

It's peaceful and it's working. Of course it's boring.

I won't lie. This seems to be far less thrilling if I'm not fueled by anger.

At least 13 reasons to celebrate right now, but I'm saving myself for the real deal.

Every single time I had the opportunity to party here, I said no. Tonight is not an exception.

You are the self-made liberator You are the heart-wave generator From death into the new The I, I see in you You are the light accelerator Brother this is your dominion When will you embrace and love your kingdom?

You are the owner-operator You are the designated driver The captain and the crew The I, I see in you This is your world and you its master Brother this is your dominion When will you embrace and love your kingdom?

Oh and btw, thank you so very fucking much, from the bottom of my heart.

Everything is in place, I have 3 more off days ahead of me. Must make the most out of this.

I was away intentionally and on purpose for not 3, but 4 days. Just in case. Needed an extra day to integrate everything.

You are not bigger than anything, nothing is bigger than you.

I have every right and all the reasons to be proud of myself. And I won't lie, it feels fucking good. But that's not where this ends. A wounded ego is not a joke. Yet it is more often than not met with only more ridicule and hate. The guts turn upside down and the entire nervous system gets fucked. Healing is long and painful. But after standing back up on your feet, reclaiming your power and celebrating your victory... You must find space for forgiveness, humility, compassion... That is what brings you back to the center of your being.

From. Fucking. Nothing.

A little birdie just landed on my shoulder and told me that I'm about to receive a giant gift by the end of this week. Must humble myself a bit and stay in an open, receptive state and not fuck this up. Because it's truly a blessing.

For my grand finale, as a symbol of my victory, I am planning a short but glorious little concert, in the heart of Amsterdam, more precisely in Rijksmuseum. Don't worry, it will be documented. But shhh. This is our little secret. You know nothing.