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I get what you mean. Did spirituality played a role in this rather radical choice?

@StarStruck 120 mcg is a moderate dose. If you aren't very sensibel this dose shouldn't be too challenging. However jumping from that directly to 200 or even 300 mcg is a huge step. Have you thought about doing thirst like 150 or 175 mcg? Although if the dose is higher letting go is easier, because you have no chance of being in control - at least for me.

Wow! So, in the end what changed your condition was the power of the mind.

@remember Thx for you Infos! By the way do you mean this study: https://www.hindawi.com/journals/omcl/2017/7020295/? But this one isn't in french. I am on a plant based diet for 80-90% of the week for some months now. I got good hints from @Dimi. He recommended me different fruits and veggies that have a lot of antioxidants (I talked About my actual diet in my Journal).

Cool! Doctors first asumed, that I have MS, but it turned finally out to be FSHD. If you have any tips to deal with chronic illnesses, feel free to share.

@Zigzag Idiot You're welcome! The book is definitely worth buying it. I got goosebumps and felt like tripping while reading some passages.

@herghly Bache seems to have a more holistic view.

Maybe reading Christopher M. Bache's book "LSD and the mind of the universe" will help you with this. He there describes similar experiences and speaks about going through the ocean of suffering...

3# Emotions Unconditional Love In the Self Love Video Leo says that people, who suffer of severe chronic diseases (like cancer etc.) need especially a lot of self love. This counts also for me. I am very ambitious and disciplined, which normally are good characteristics, if you want to achieve things. However I also tend to be very harsh to myself (and to others). To practice self love in a way, that you love what you are independent of shortcomings and failures is quite a challenge for me. Seeing the FSHD affecting my body causes from time to time a lot of frustration, anger and powerlessness. In these situations I hate my body, myself, the world, reality and sometimes I just want to see the whole world burn to ashes. I know this is a big ego reaction, but in a twisted way it also feels ‘good’. I seem to have quite a dark side, that likes destruction and annihilation. Though the real me is rather loving and kind, hiding then inside this ego mask. What I would like to do in the future is practicing unconditional love in exactly these moments. I haven’t found a special technique so far, however I remember a situation around ten years ago, where I did this somehow intuitively. It was early morning and I was lying in my bed in a very bad mood. I had a lot of stress during that time and felt really exhausted and overwhelmed. I thought about how surviving this awful day and just wanted to crawl myself into my bed. Suddenly I started doing a visualization – at that time I had absolutely no idea what I did –, where I saw myself lying in a fetus position and I said to myself: you just have to embrace yourself, nobody else is needed, this will solve all your problems. That’s what I did in the visualization and my emotional state changed radically in an instant. I felt a lot of relief, joy and peace. These sensations were so strong, that I couldn’t really remember, how miserable I felt before. In retrospective I now think, that this wasn’t just a mere visualization, but sort of a mystical experience of unconditional love. ? The problem though is, that it just happened and I can’t repeat it out of free will. If you have an idea how to do this in such moments of emotional distress, just leave me a comment. ?

I'm seeing an other psychic next week to have a second view on the issue. I somewhere heard that Ramaji said, that this women is one of the most powerful healers on the planet today. Let's see where all this leads to. In the end permanent liberation is my goal anyway.

I'm very sorry to hear that. Do you do any spiritual practices to strengthen your body?

In the materialist paradigm it certainely is: I got a scientific confirmation. However I spoke with a psychic and she has a completely different view on things: she says it is a manifestation of psychological issues/tensions in the body. So if I resolve them, the body will heal.

@Bno You're welcome! TMI is the best book about meditation I read so far. There is also a reddit forum about it: https://www.reddit.com/r/TheMindIlluminated/, where you find a lot of helping infos.

@inFlow You're welcome!

@LaucherJunge Will try it out. thx for sharing.

@LaucherJunge Ok, I get what you mean. Your technique reminds me of this:

In your perspective does this also counts for genetic muscle disorders like FSHD? I'm doing all my practices anyway, I'm just interested in how you think about this.

I don't get this point. If I breath in as deeply as I can, I am filling my lungs with oxygen. However if I do Uddiyana Bandha I'm breathing in, but my lungs stay absolutely empty. So you mean, that I just have to breath in as much as I can, holding the breath and then stretch my belly out with force?

Definitely "The Mind Illuminated" by Culadasa if you are into Meditation.

Hi there, here are a few of my favorite paintings: "Wanderer above the sea of fog" by the german romantic artist Caspar David Friedrich. It has been considered one of the masterpieces of romanticism and one of its most representative works. For me it shows liberation in nutshell. "Wheatfield with cypresses" by dutch post-Impressionist painter Vincent van Gogh. I really like the movement of everything (colors, shapes etc.) in his paintings. It seems like a good representation of ever changing consciousness. "The Scream" by norwegian expressionist artist Edvard Munch. This is total ego collapse.

2# Diet This is what I normally eat during a day I start my day with a glass of water with a pressed lemon. In fact I replaced my morning coffee by this - it's really energizing. Breakfast: I drink a smoothie every morning and have an apple or pear afterwards. Here is my favorite smoothie: 1 banana, blueberries, raspberries, blackberries, linseeds, chia seeds, sunflower seeds, pumpkin seeds, sesame, olive oil, honey, organic vegan protein powder and water. Lunch: Mainly green vegetables like broccoli, zucchini, spring onion, fennel, mangetout cooked in a pan with olive oil. Then some lentils as a side dish for protein requirements. Diner: Big salad with spring onions, garlic, ginger, tomatoes, red peppers, carrots, bean sprouts, avocado and cucumber. I also like to eat quite a few nuts after diner: pecans, almonds, cashews and peanuts. I dropped coffee totally and I reduced my alcohol consumption to a minimum. Usually I have a drink or so every two weeks while going out with my partner or friends. I don’t like to be drunk anymore but having a good gin tonic in a decent bar is pretty enjoyable. ?

@ardacigin Thank your for your wishes! I surely will contact you at some point.

@LfcCharlie4 I had a also a really good childhood and enjoyable teenage years - I grew up in a small lovely Village in Luxembourg. However I had to deal with some (emotional) BS after I begun studying abroad. But this was all self caused.

Preliminaries After @LfcCharlie4 started his thread about RASA and LOC I was so curious about the transmissions, that I booked three sessions via skype in Germany – I live in Munich. Before my first session I had 1,5 years of spiritual practice (meditation and yoga) every day for 2 to 2,5 hours. My initial LOC was determined at 565 by the RASA giver. First Session (LOC 565 to 590) First I was chatting with the RASA giver about my path so far and how I learned about RASA for one and a half hour and then I received the transmission for 15 minutes. During the session I was still very sceptic about the whole thing, but then I started to feel some tingling in the head area and my mind became quieter. But the real shit began after the session, when I tried to meditate. I just couldn't focus on the breath (I do TMI meditation), because my head was partly so empty, that I had no choice, but to just let happen, whatever occurred. My mind and body felt like 'something' began to 'work' in me or rather something started to expand 'in me'. Some part of me tried to resist the process, but after a while I just let it happen. Suddenly I felt this strong urge to purge myself physically and mentally of everything, that hinders me to proceed further on my path. I visualized to push all the 'bad things' away. After that, when I got up and did a walk outside, I felt rather dizzy and lightheaded, but also liberated. Everything in my vision field seemed more magical and interesting. I looked at the people around me and they all had something that I could appreciate. I hadn`t thought, that it would hit me so hard. In a certain way it felt like a psychedelic trip, but much smoother. Second Session (LOC 590 to 640) After the second session I was initially a bit disappointed because it hadn't as much impact on me as the first one. But the day after the session I felt this awesome peace and stillness in the center of my being. Nothing in the external world could shatter it. I was in a constant flow or slight meditative state. It felt not like real nondual awareness, but I began to realize, where all this leads to. My desire for truth and liberation is constantly growing. Even meditation seems to become a bit more effortless. Third Session (LOC 640 to 675) The third session was a lot like the second. The day after I was again in a flow, but I also felt, that in the time to come I will have to purge my mind from a lot of bullshit. I had an intense visualization, where I vomited green and black mucus to get rid of negative thought patterns and ideas. Conclusion - The two days after the transmission I experience a real high, that drops down afterwards - Authenticity is growing - I feel more emotions and they become more ‘raw’ or clear. I don´t know, how to express this accurately - I`m calmer. My girlfriend noticed this also - I have ‘better’ meditation sessions - My desire for truth and liberation is growing - RASA is not about experiencing directly a radical shift, but feels more like a continous purging process

Going from LOC 675 to 780 in three more sessions I am not in a flow anymore, but it seems that the purging is now really going to start. My meditation sessions have defintely improved, I have more continuity and the focus and stillness of my mind is stronger. A few days ago when my mind was rather quiet and focused during a session really unpleasant emotions and memorys of my past were popping up. But I wasn't totally involved in them, I could keep a certain distance and observe them rising and going away. However the session wasn't fun. Overall I am more emotional, but also less emotionally stable. This seems to be absolutely normal in the purging process. Let's see where this leads to.