Patrick Lynam

Its true ive done nn dmt in dreams and it works haha imagination is powerful af

I had a very strange dream today after a quite intense therapy session yesterday where my therapist helped me heal some trauma i had from LSD. in this dream i was lying in my bed i thought i was like half awake but maybe i was totally out of it idk but there were these two arms that came from the bottom of my torso that went around my body doing what i imagine what really good reiki is like relaxing my entire body and doing all kinds of weird shit. this thing was so intelligent too like it knew exactly what to do all i had to do was let go and not be scared by it... hahaha tf also with the therapy session it was trippy i was crying very intensely for the first time about a trip that happened like 6 years ago and as i was crying and explaining to her what i was going through i started tripping for like 2 seconds it was a very intense therapy session haha also made me think that the people who say that the have flashbacks from lsd might me telling the truth . It was like there was some unprocced lsd stuck in the emotion or somthing

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@Rilles was listening to a podcast and the people said that haha also i was talking to this guy whos a life coach and he started dating a kundalini yoga teacher and i was like haha did she teach you kundalini yoga and he was like we dont really do that anymore because weve healed our truma. idk ive also heard that people into kundalini yoga can often be on a head trip

Do you think it helps to have an understanding of the sciences like chemistry, physics or biology in grasping the absolute nature of reality? I have been watching the 'Crash course Chemistry' and I feel like I see a potential in understanding what reality is better if I can understand what 'Matter' is as a far as materialism suggests.

I feel like not being enlightened makes me kind of useless and anything i do is not really meaningful

if the onlything meaningful is to help people understand god and youre not enlightened that means that potentially anything that we usually use as a compass to meaning like making people feel good or watever is just changing the content of there life like how do we know what to do if we dont know god ourselves

@Elton i think im feeling this way because ive recently had a big emotional release and it seems like everything i was doing was meaningless and im just becoming aware of how fucking hard it seems to be for one person to make a difference

And what life is is just a bunch of people struggling to find meaning like what is the point of anything if we are helpless is seriousness completely useless

I find it kinda funny too when the guy in the course says stuff like 'Orbitals are the precise reason everything exists' Where i feel like leo would say that Love is the reason everything exists haha idk its interesting at the least

I leo's video on the counter-intuitive nature of reality he talks about how guys often think that to attract girls they need to become more masculine and manly, but the counter intuitive move is to actually become more like a girl to attract them. Can anyone elaborate on this? I believe I am sort of a feminine guy and believe that allot of my work is going to be integrating the masculine but just curious if anyone has any examples of what he means, is he directing this message more so to the already 'manly' type of guys?

I see to have this judgment about spirituality like something deep in me either sees through spirituality or really doesn't see it totally. Its as if there is something Im not getting, I'm sure its direct experience but I seem to be hyper critical of how its delivered. This has been happening for a while and has been slowly getting better. Has anyone else had this same experience a kind of annoyance with spiritual people and projecting onto them like "oh woow man your so spiritual, oh i bet this is like your life purpose and you're wanting people too appreciate how woke you are" haha i know its my own projection just wanting to know if anyone has any idea how i can overcome this. thanks!

So I have been listening to Elliott Hulse today and he has been speaking on Masculinity. He states that we live in a slut world meaning men and women having little restraint, loyalty etc. Often people who aren't being a sluts wish they were and if given the opportunity to be one you would be. In my own personal experience I have felt this, when girls have chased me I felt that I just want to have sex with them and don't want to date them because I don't think it would be healthy for me to be in a relationship with these girls. Elliot said "if you don't intend to marry the girl you should not try to sleep with her." This seems to contradict what Leo has said "guys need to sleep with 30+ girls to learn what girls are really like and what kind of girl they are actually attracted to." I am wondering if anyone can help me understand this contradiction.

I was thinking the same thing the other day like are the people saying this actually at the level they're at haha i dont know so yeah im also confused a bit lonely and scared about my ego being huge and out of control but have been chanting hare krishna past few days and am pretty amazed by the results

What I don't understand is why so many life coaches/ therapists say that you shouldn't do them. If they're scared to take psychedelics themselves why cant they just admit that? They seem very certain that they are right and that you should not believe people who say that you should take them. Its very confusing I must say. I feel like if I was to take a psychedelic and contemplate this i could find an answer but I seem to have a belief that people who take psychedelics are deluding themselves and will inevitably develop a spiritual ego. This thing of spiritual ego is more terrifying to me than any bad trip Iv'e had.

@StripedGiraffe I also feel that allot of people in the spiritual community hate people with spiritual egos hahaha

@StripedGiraffe Having a spiritual ego and not knowing that i do. I dont want to have a spiritual ego because something about the new age culture just really is not appealing to me.

@Chintan desai I say this not because I'm certain that they are afraid of them but because Leo said people who are against them are really just afraid. To me it seems that if it were really as simple as just take loads of psychedelics these people would be the first to admit it. Perhaps Im just not conscious enough to see that they're really just afraid and are deluding themselves into thinking you shouldn't do allot of psychedelics.

Has anyone gained anything from doing this.

Can anyone help me understand what its like tripping after like a 100 trips? ive only tripped like 5 times with lsd and whilst on it was like wow people like ram dass have taken this like 300+ times. i have also read people on here say that you have to trip at least 100 times before you start to understand it and be able to integrate properly. Also curious as to how this fits in with people like terence mckenna who say to take large doses rarely. or like osho who says that his people find that drugs bring them down. Is it that people just dont do them enough ? i felt that if i did take like 50- 100 trips on acid it would change my life. however the only time i have heard this recommended is by leo and people on this forum. i . could see that many people would stop tripping way before 50- 100 trips. but i could also imagine that if you were somehow forced to do so u would be of such a different order of consciousness that i could see how people become monks and give up material life.

@Dand very interesting! thank you for the response very helpful! Can i ask what responsibilities you found yourself needing to take on? this seems to be what drives my fear for tripping more, because i live with my parents i found out that i really need to move out and that allot of my problems stem from my parents who are fairly low consciousness and its like going against the grain and is just too much work

are these guys just showing off?

@LordFall I thought he might be low on the spiral I read on some thread that often stage orange masculinity interperpates stage green masculinity as weaker because it has integrated the feminine but really its more masculine.

Hahah thats awsome man! Music and cannabis is also a really powerful mix for me ! Instrumental music for insights and meditation, I have also had some serious emotional releases listening to stuff like AC/DC several times whilst doing Breathwork. It sounds like you had a more powerful experience than Ive ever had but yeah weed and music has brought me to serious tears dozens of times!