Eric Tarpall

Sometimes you have no desires and you think this is a bad thing. So you try to force yourself to want things that you don't really want. This causes confusion and suffering. It's okay to want nothing. It simply means that you want to rest. By rest I mean doing absolutely nothing. If you rest long enough desires will arise. And then it's your job to act on those desires without judging them as ''bad''. Authentic desires always have a feeling of excitement attached to them. That's how you recognize which desires are true and which ones are not.

Thoughts of course but nothing wrong with that. You're building a more solid map of your surroundings in your mind. Which makes you more aware of your surroundings.

Sometimes I'm able to appreciate the moment that I'm in. And I get this alive feeling in my body. Almost like a magical feeling. It's the feeling you get when you're driving alone by yourself while the sun is rising. And there are no cars on the street. I want to have that feeling more often but my attention keeps being pulled towards the past and the future. The beautiful present is right in front of me but I can't see it.

But it helps doesn't it? It's easier to be in the moment when the moment is beautiful. I bought that book two years ago but only read the first chapters. He said some things that made me uncomfortable so I stopped reading. I don't remember what he said. I'll check it out. I think that's true but it's weird to me that I can be distracted from something that's right in front of me. Yes this is something I noticed. Being in the moment leads to immediate action because you see the opportunities that are in front of you. Time feels very real to me. But it's probably not real. Yeah I notice my attention is outward when I'm in the moment. Not inward.

Not sure if that's true. For example pooping seems kinda neutral to me. I think I heard Leo say once that reality is neutral. But I don't know if he still agrees with that.

Maybe you can get donations somehow to fund the trip. People do that these days.

You could regulate it. Maybe play for 3 hours per day. That's my favorite amount.

Maybe you just lack momentum. Doing less leads to doing less. Keep moving & stay busy helps in this situation.

So you value discomfort because it leads to results. So results are your biggest value. You would take the comfortable path if it leads to better results. And sometimes it does. I'm gonna look up synonyms for ''results'' now. ~

I think what's going on here is that mundane normal things don't excite you anymore. Because you're desensitized. The only way to correct that is by pulling away from stimulation completely. By sitting in a dark room.

Try sitting with your eyes closed for one hour. After you open them you will feel like doing shit.

My resolution is to try new things 24 / 7 and learn as much knowledge and skills as possible. Going deep and broad like da vinci

You can't really force that to happen in one month. What is it with may and love though? Every may something love related happens to me. Not kidding. Usually on the 16th.

What's a happy memory that I have? What do I enjoy about this moment? What am I looking forward to? What's a small improvement I can make today? What's a small step I can take towards my goal today? (This question is positive because it implies that you can accomplish your goal) Some people like to ask themselves "what am I grateful for" I don't like the word grateful because it implies that someone has given something to me. Which I don't feel is the case.

One meal a day definitely. Water fast for 23 hours and then eat 1 hour before I go to bed. This habit is so powerful it's crazy. I lose 1 pound every day. I feel more energized, clean, spiritual and light as a feather.

I would recommend installing every habit that you want to install immediately. And decide to do them for the rest of your life. This is a big decision so be careful. Only choose habits that are going to increase your happiness level in the long term.

Most peoples sit on their asses all day. They move from one chair to the next and it's considered normal. But maybe it's not so healthy. Everything you can do on your butt you can also do on your feet. And you can change your environment to make a standing lifestyle easy. I think standing & walking is better for your posture and digestion than sitting. And you'll have better bloodflow which makes your mind more effective. I think an active body equals an active mind.

I do that every day for 8 hours when I sleep.

I know you probably think that I'm too negative. And if I keep developing myself there will eventually be a girl who will like me. I buy into that. But I've decided that I don't want to change my personality to get a girl. My personality is very anti social. And I like being that way. I like shy girls but I'm not compatable with them because they want me to do the approaching. So the only way for me to get a girl is if she approaches me and flirts with me. And then I will feel comfortable reciprocating. But that's never going to happen. It might happen but hoping and waiting creates a lot of suffering. So my question is how do I accept that I'm never going to have a girlfriend?

I think most people know how to do it. It's just that they rebel against it because schedules were imposed on them when they were young. By authority figures.

This is the schedule that I'm currently trying. I divide the entire day into 1 hour long work chunks with 30 minute breaks in between. This gives me a total of 8 hours of free time and 16 hours of work time each day. During the work hours I do specific activities. Ideally one activity per hour. This can be working on my business, meditating etc. Or something enjoyable. And during the 30 minute breaks I can sleep, eat, bathroom, random web browsing etc.

@Soulbass Looks fancy. I see you don't do things on specific times. I personally wouldn't do that because it opens the door to procrastination.

IQ doesn't matter. Creativity does. You can keep improving your IQ until it's 200.

Yeah I notice when I'm indoors for a long time I start to forget that girls exist and I feel happy without them. But as soon as I step out of the house and I see a cute girl I feel incomplete. And I feel like I need her.

I think it's possible to learn how to be happy without a girlfriend while simultaniously looking for one. But I'm not sure how to do that. Well I don't smell bad and I shave so I expect girls to do this too. This takes very little effort. Much less effort than killing your personality and replacing it with a different one. I have some attractive traits like iron perseverance and narcissism but I lack charisma & socialness. I'll check that stuff out. And you know what they say. Nothing changes if nothing changes.