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dig this:

If you don't value yourself, how can you believe that someone else will value you? It's basic maths

deal with it

muita parra e pouca muita uva

Austin Osman Spare All things are possible, even in nightmares William Blake Builder of Bridges Between Two Worlds The Ecstasy of Santa Teresa

He's a real nowhere man Sitting in his nowhere land Making all his nowhere plans for nobody

shadow work: at first there is a problem, and then It's gone, because we changed our mind about it - but the body of the issue seems very real, It's only when we explore that we will discover his form: nothing. <p align="right">Why was this body created (or should we call it evil spirit) within us: making us feeling like a victim, what is the purpose of such sadomasochism? I call it egotism, egotism creates such body's. This bodys are lifeguards that are trying to pull back the world the way we want it to be. so I would say that expectation from something different that it is, not being grateful for what we have, complaining and whining, comparing our life's with peole we don't even know. we forget about our own value, no one will tell us that we are good enough unless we already know that we are good enough. why is the need for validation if the mind is one and everywhere! Here I call it, I have been selfish. The world is not only about my desires, or the things I like. The world is about discovery and interaction, it's not an island where I get everything I want without making an effort to contribute somehow with the rest, I am apart of the scenario, trying to put myself outside of the scenario creates monsters, I don't need protection from monsters. Instead, this monsters will guide me through the things I already know that I don't need, the monsters are good if I don't interact with them, but it's important to know that they already arrived and are dominated by the self. They are dogs to protect my house. Good dog, stay quiet, and protect my house.</p> Recognize the Self-Love even if the Monsters appear. Reconoce el amor propio incluso si aparecen los Monstruos.

breathing is also a NARCISSIST behaviour, stop breathing you fool

Dude, you don't need to block her or disable your instagram. Just hide her profile from your feed, stop seeing his story, just close your eyes. Ignorance is bliss, the less you know the better. If you keep to pay too much attention you are just going to get hurt, nothing good will come out of that. And if you really "consciously let go of the girl I loved" you wouldn't be making this thread. You really let her go when you close your eyes and stop watching. If you don't do this, you'll just knock your head against the wall until you start to hate her and things get really ugly without no turning back. I know it's hard, but you can do it.

What is that

"When Men realize (I'll say it's subconscious for most) that women don't have their (Men's) best interests at heart, only their very own. Seeing that very selfishness of women, and blinded by their own, men adopt Blackpill and Redpill Ideologies. " So basically men became slave's of women interest, is this is the implication? A real tragedy indeed.

I don't need needles on my heart, this is serious Marcos. Don't put yourself in a position where you'll find a needle, protect our mind all costs. I order Psychic protection, safety, preservance, self-esteem, hope, light, magick, I deserve it. Permanent Goodbye. "Make sure you don't undersell your progress. It's easy to forget how much we grow, especially if we grew a lot. It's good to remind yourself once in a while how unconscious you used to be."

after this 10 days, I decided that this journal will no longer be daily. I'll post whenever I feel like I'm posting and not making such a big deal of it. The level of my psychological peace - pain will remain to exist in every post from 1 until 10. 10 is maximum pain 1 is peace and contentment ~ today is 5/10 - anxiety levels a little bit high, and I can understand why. No Fap November was really a great thing that I get involved, I noticed positive changes considering the levels of energy, self-esteem/ self-worth, confidence & less anxiety. I will continue to do it for the next December month. November = 7 NUTS and I will try to reduce it for 5 in December, that would be like 1 nut per week each month, wich I think is the perfect balance. I never actually understood why should someone do it, for me is clear that interaction with women gets easily corrupted if I am just chasing sex, if that is not my primary intention, I'll be much more relaxed and grounded when interacting with the opposite sex. without 2nd intentions (let's try) Stages of Action: The Cycle Inertia → Intelectual Independence → Impermanence → Possibility → Intention → VULNERABILITY → Sense of Direction → Flow → Synchronicity

anyone wants to do a karaoke session via skype of this song? I just love to sing this one

I like this thread. - Take your grandma to the cinema - Visit a place close to your home you've never been before

Day 10: 3/10 don't compare, do that. Inertia is my worst enemie. I must defeat it.

Day 9: 3/10 dream baby dream. the mind will dream and will make you do it/ is my will to not compare myself to nobody, don't watch others. this is my dance of reality, shall we dance? dance a good dance, dream a good dream. is my will to dream my choosen dream, reality is my dream board- blue colour I've always done funny short videos with mask effects on the phone, with a strange voice. I've always found it funny. today during my meditation I just recieved this dream about making this videos to open public and publish them on instagram story. At first it sounds very temptive to expose my funny side to others, without being afraid of being disliked by someone, it's just me free will to express my sense of humour, and I do feel great to do that. For now I will just consider the idea, and I'm thinking about a name for the carachter I will create. today my mother asked me where I'm going to spend my new years eve. and I've no clue, friends = none; girlfriend = none; I really don't care, just wanna live in the present moment without thinking about where I will be on that particular day where everyone is suposed to be wild and having hot sex. I am living and learning how to feel good being alone, it's not an easy task. sometimes I wish it could be better but I don't complain, I am in this position because I created it. And sooner or later, when the time is the right, I will unfold to other direction and learn again. tasks: study pharmacy, ride bycicle, having good night of sleep. do something creative and expose it, learn new recipes. what about meeting new people? I can't do that now I guess, internet is not a good place to do that for now. let's just... be patient Marcos.

repetition makes things trivial a repetiçao torna as coisas banais

Day 8: 5/10 The mind will dream even when we are awake, aware carefully how the dream will unfold.

You are just bored.

Day 7: 2/10 Action makes you feel worth it.

Day 6: 3/10 Peace on my private island. Just follow the track. watch the throne

"What I do I say But I can't get far away Oh, I go back to A memory again" and couldn't be more accurate_ "there's something in the melody, filled with hope, joy and uncertainty. and allows you to see through the years, like it's all going to work out, with the one you're with, or without, a future we can't see, and you don't need to be afraid of it, if you know it's there." I've been going to bed almost at 3:30 am as an habit this past few days, I must drop this habit soon as possible. what keeps me stuck on the computer for so long is the search for online companion, something to hide the fact that I feel uterly alone and have no one to talk to. So I stay late just to feed the mind with intellectual stuff and make the lonerism fade away. The night should not be an escape but a moment of sleep.

Day 5: 3/10 I can't do any better and my mind will be saved, I am moving on. The need to be understood is gradually fading away, that's good good news. Red Colour

This is the mind that will always remember Love is the empty place where loneliness is born I see you, mary anne, we never knew ourselves I see you, mary anne, we're not really here @modmyth Nick Drake - Poor Boy and Northern Sky are my Nick fav jams Since you mentioned Devotional to the Natural World, listen to Emmy Curl: (she's portuguese)