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and even that is already a Huge mission for me

have you ever had any similar experience about surrendering mind visualisations ?

This is never a fair game to the ego. The ego could at least feel comfort going there, and I found just right now that I was holding the belief that the Ego must approved this experiences so It could permit itself to surrender, but it is a huge trap, it will never accept it. And I feel that this surrender is similiar to lucid dreaming, to not trying to control it, just letting go without resistance

Yes, It's scary. And I've had other few surrender opportunities aswell, but It's like falling into an unkwown abyss

I remember reading this quote: "Virgin Marie was born without any original sin"

you dont force meditation

Dream Journal (1) ●● 29 May I'd like to title this dream Camera Rollins First of all, I had to search the meaning of Rollins: it can be a slang (Rollin) or name. the meaning as a Name: Rollins. The name Rollins is a Male name. German meaning: The name Rollins is a German baby name The German meaning of Rollins is: Famous soldier. the meaning as a Slang: ROLLIN means "High on drugs" So now you know - ROLLIN means "High on drugs" - don't thank us. YW! What does ROLLIN mean? ROLLIN is an acronym, abbreviation or slang word that is explained above where the ROLLIN definition is given. Before going into the dream, it's important to make a reflection about the origin of the dream itself. Yesterday night, before going into bed, I decided to make a contempation exercise with an improvised altar. I got naked upon a carpet, and there was candles on the edges of the carpet, and inside there was me and a big statue of a naked lady. So I stared at her for almost 1 hour, I got distracted several times, It's really hard to concentrate for that long. I just wanted to create an intense moment, but It's not that easy, intensity is hard to get, maybe if it was a real naked woman would be easier to contemplate full straight. So the dream was me being the creator of an Instagram account called Camera Rollins, and there was posted very erotic pictures of a particular woman I've dated long ago, the pictures were very erotic and dreamy, one of the shoots, she was layed down naked on the bed, and a cat was upon her chest, and it was possible to see a bit of her nipple. Another one, she was with a sheet around his body, but I could see a full leg and her ass. In general, I was dreaming about imagimary erotic etherial photos, not the typical porn pictures you would find on xxx websites, this had other substance. Also, the Camera Rollins could be an interesting reference to Petra Collins, which work is quiet similar to what I have dreamed. In conclusion, the naked statue I contemplated made this dream happened immersed with interesting mixtures and overall result. This makes me realize how the mind is just floating all around with no particular direction, and we just guide her through.

@Schahin Since you are looking for some alternative healing paths, this one right here can be the most down to earth method even if you're not enlightened, the premiss is that the mind can heal itself through the process of symbolic rituals, wich will change the mind patterns. if you're interested take a look about Magick, take a look at Sigil Magick, but that requires a lot, and you must create a very healthy approach to life to achieve those habilities, the power of manifestation is more complex than it sounds it would also be helpful if your brother would have some kind of hobbie, or doing some new thing he never did, travel wtvr. make him read about self deception, breathing exercices...

ill take note of this

i dont fap since sunday, I said to myself the next time it will be friday but im already horny, thikimg about legs and beautiful booties

@Shin Dnt tell them

I love when they _ _ _ _ my _ _ _ _ @Shin

Grown Kid The best things I like to remember as a child I guess It's the freedom of being a child in general, the fresh sight of everything around me. Also is interesting to compare how I related to my to my family to nowdays, I was their beautiful puppet, now I am their friend. I remember to enjoy spending the weekends at my maternal grandparents, and I could cry if I wasn't allowed. The kindergarden had some bad moments, but other great moments, I have a special memory for the christmas time, it was always a special season for me. My parents raised me in the best way they could I must say, it was not always perfect, but they were not perfect either, no one to blame. I never toke myself to serious as a kid, I think I've always felt that something was missing, or something isn't quiet right with me and the others were somehow ahead of me, this wasn't constant, sometimes I could feel that I was in front of someone aswell, kinda narcisistic, I guess it was the atmosphere of school in general, where everyone is trying to be the coolest and you could fall into being the victim, this was by far the most toxic thing about my time in school as a child. But school is what it is, life is something else. Life is not even about the others, for me is about Health. What can be more cooler than that.

Unexpected Guest Today I opened the window and one mosquito got inside the room, I instantly said to myself that he shoudn't do it. Later I killed it with a stuffed animal from my brother after 3 trys of just throwing it to the wall where he was peaceful resting waiting to suck someone's blood. After the killing I felt that I did the wisest thing, because he would not serve my survival in anyway, and he shoudlnt't be inside the bedroom aswell. I would rather make him understand that he need's to leave and suck someome else, trough dialogue, but that would be impossible, the only commumication possible is just the Attack. Now this sounds silly, but this kind of behaviour repeats itself betweem humans. I could give many examples when people just attack each other out of the blue instead trying to negotiate. It's very easy to scary a human being, unless he really needs to fight for survival and fight even it is scary, but the mosquito doesn't understand the lesson.

this is pure fairness, everything we do count and matters in a way beyond our understanding. and I cannot think anything more exciting than this, I wanna ride those triangle UFOs too. It's said that each particular being has is own Life-permanent-atom, and everything on it is registered while we live and still mantained after we die: the astral, the ego, the body..., until eventually reincarnates based on the previous experience. So makes me wonder that we are somehow preparing our next life's without knowing, better be careful

It's Witchcraft Honestly my opinion is that no matter how much you think dogmas and beliefs are lies, you'll need it. The symbolism is relevant for the business of getting enlightened, Actualized.org is no different from any other belief system such as Thelema or whatever, the Goal is what is important, the symbol is the Key. Leo is creating a key, but the key is not the Truth

May I ask you, what is your main purpose on doing this journey?

yes but, ego reincarnates based on previous experience

Invisible Church One last song, one last meal, one last relationship, one last thought, one last outfit, one last feeling, one last movie, one last photo, one last call, one last sight, one last judgment... all of there is, being. Never started, never ended. Pure manifestation is something that everyone knows as young, but there is no way to know. How can a child know intuitively what is God better than the adults... I needed so much time to find proof of it, to convince myself that something special was being hidden from me, and the desire to find someone who can tell me what l am blindly chasing, It's hard to find something we can't see, I needed a name, an explanation, a Fucking word. I saw it plenty of times as a child... the lucidity, the essence. I know how much deluded I've become. The school, the teachers, the friends, the family, all those that came across me, they could never tell me the essential feature of who I am. And even know, after the conceptual explanation, seems hard to surrender, to become an inocent child again, or even an unborn child, but now I know that It's all around, it exists, no need for more confirmation. Stop chasing confirmation.

I think It's better for you to understand the reasons you do it, do you have insecurities, can you approach woman? etc. masturbation comes a lot in terms of compensation, doesn't mean that It's bad or wrong...

The Limits of Authenticity and the power of Belief The challenging I'm facing right now is about Exposure. I'm writing to myself but at the same time there is something behind me teeling me: "someone will watch this, try to write something that it will make you be in a good picture, balance the things you say,". This fear of exposure can be a very snicky devil, how come we try to act every single time in order to mantain the status quo of who we think we are? Is it the fear of dying, is the fear of losing the sense of Ego-Self? If I believe I have low self steem, I need to act in order to protect that belief. So maybe, no matter how Authentic we can be, that Authenticity will always be in favor of your current beliefs, we will protect them. Let's say that you've always wanted to post a naked picture on social media, but you don't do it because that goes against your morals and you would feel a narcisist. But wait, Desire and Moral in conflict? No, I think it means that, once the naked picture is posted, that is something you never did, you never had the belief of being a pornstar.

It's a concept. What is the difference between a Macho Man and a Flower Boy? can a macho mano also be a flower boy and vice versa?never ending story telling

but, would his life had the same course towards God if he hadn't achieve the Success? one thing leads to another

I think the secret is Soya Milk mixtured with dog shit.

hail discordia