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Last night sleep was strangely full of insights, even though I was sleeping. I had some blured semi-lucid dreaming, preety much "materialistic" just like the awake state, and by the time I was awaking in the morning, I had some sort of sleep paralysis, some thoughts were following me along the feeling that I was like in a void without nothing, and that the universe was literally gone, and reapeared as soons as my eyes opened. But this was totally normal for me. I wonder how much this things that sound to weird for the common materialistic, but it turns out to be a very natural thing, but at the same time everyone will think this is madness. But I understand, without a good theoretical foundation, how come can someone understand... But at the same time, some questions are poping up. If there were no humans on earth, how come the universe was about to be experienced? Because the mind belong's to nothing and not specifically to humans, right? And that would mean that the universe is the mind everywhere, in every pixel possible

I was in Madrid for 3 days, and I lived in Barcelona for 4 months, so for me Barcelona is way better. You have some Language Exchanges every Friday on the train station, which is a very good place to meet people. You also have the mountains to move away from the city noise for a while, Tibidabo, Montjuïc... Madrid seems a little bit cold for me, I don't know, maybe it was just my impression, Barcelona feels more Opened and receptive. Good luck, moving to a new place takes some balls and vision, if you have any questions regarding Barcelona feel free to ask me. ps: I also attended some yoga nidra sessions in barcelona, and I did some Improvisational theatre, went for some nice walking tours (all this experiences were for free), with this said, you have lot of healthy options to spend your time, you just need to choose your track.

Focus on your own path, not the others.

"My body feels immediate release when I think about talking to my ex." I am feeling this. Even though we are ok but not the same. I just want to talk with her. And this is common for everyone in this situation, it is normal. Cognitive Dissonance hits strong, it seems that things can turn on better if we just try to fix something. But this is all playing around with our own thoughts. I don't know your situation, but it seems that you need that feedback from someone, that confort of "someone's outhere looking out for me, someone needs my attention", when we don't have that we lose our sense of community and self worth. We human creatures enjoy to be reached by someone. And it was 2 Years, it was a long time, ego backlash it's inevitable. Also pay attention that he might holded your back in some ways just because of your fractured mental state, so he was a distraction or relief from your real problems. It's kinda like a drug, it was such a long time, and you don't know how to replace that, it seems that nothing can't replace it. And it really can't, a written page has the specific words that can't be changed, it was meant to be like that. So, do we replace a drug with another drug? Or do we stop chasing the old drug and find a new one? You see, it seems that everything we do is chasing the same last thing we did, in a loop. Take this chance to invest in a brand new thing in your life, write down 10 things you would like to try and invest your time on it. (eg. buying pincels and paint a empty board (even if you have 0 talent, art and SELF EXPRESSION can be very therapeutic to increase self worth), also try to create a meditation habit, start with a daily-routine of 10 minutes and follow the advice that was given to you before. And also, notice that it can be very hard to find someone that will make you feel that relief you need, even though you might find a new person, you need to understand that will take time to build another relationship like you did before, it takes time. We revolve around instant gratification, and that relationship toke so much time to build up, that we feel hopeless to make something like that happen again. But it can happen again, takes time, hope, and preserverance. if you wanna talk feel free to pm me, I'm kinda on the same spot as you ps: writting all of this made me feel much better, it's ok to be noticed and reach out for someone, hiding in a cave and meditate won't solve all our problems. Reach out, I'm sure it's not to late for you

where did you get that brown sugar

uncertainty = impermanence

word.

@FuriousGeorge I probably agree with you because I have many feminine sides within me, I'm not the typical macho. But I also don't think that there is a limit of masculine experience to exaust, it's an ever growing and learning process.

you guys telling that spirituallity make you less interested in sex is just bull. sex can also be spiritual tell her to dress sexy, book a hotel a room, and then make her go first, play a little theater with her. pretend to be a robber who gets in the middle of the room and you know the rest

chaos is chaos

"non-duality creates suffering", what a joke mate

Regarding the video The Many Facets Of Awakening, I wonder wich facet could relate to "Magick" or it could be also a synonim for Love? @Nahm I believe that the non-duality Truth can reveal this facet of divinity and pure love right in the moment because It's what I want. Intention plays a huge role, and I was almost forgetting that. I've had this brief non dual insights where I was just loving things, like a N64 controller, my grandmother, a picture...

Hapiness comes from being where you are RIGHT NOW, period.

I also want to say that this thread is oficially sponsored by Eris

"Any tips for dream stabilization?" CONCENTRATION

don't analyze people, you will probably delude yourself

Chaos

And I actually find strange and not obvious that non-duality can be different for different people, for some can be magical, for others can be terrifying, how's that? @Nahm By now I honestly believe that I'm naturally gifted for the love facet, but I'm struggling to hide this from myself because that would make me a Cotton Candy, I made myself very protective of this facet, gotta shadowwork this m.f.

This. It would be more cool just with the logo, nothing else. And also because, actualized.org can mean different for different people, so don't take for granted that everyone has the same perception as u have,

I believe it's not our duty to change others, It's our duty to change ourselves, so let them be who they want to be. Let them follow you through your actions, not with your words.

"Beating yourself up for not being conscious is the same seeking thought and continuation of suffering. " I really needed to read something like this, thank you. I could also say that is very important to stay vulnerable to our suffering instead of fighting against it or to pretend to be "strong", very counter-intuitive work.

Many so-called romantic relationships (or even friendships) issue forth from a self-perception of incompleteness seeking completeness from/through another person. Which invites the obvious question, why the self-perception of incompleteness in the first, originating place? I've always strived to be intelectually and mentally understood, and I struggle to find people that can think and have point of views similar to mine, if I don't get that from someone, I automatically feel disconected from them, and I end up feeling lonely and misunderstood. I realize that everyone has his own special way to interpret reality, and is impossible to find such a person who can read fully my ego self and his devilish and good behaviours, so we're naïvle always looking for "us" in others, because we just want to find ourselves? I honestly don't feel anymore the will to even try to look myself in someone, I just want myself, but there are times when I just want to have someone who can agrees with me...

because we feel understood

It's so unortodox that they even didn't had the balls to mention that