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@TruthSeeker Is this satire? I. . . I'm not sure if you're being serious or not. I actually believe you're just messing with us. LOL. . . . . . . . . . . You are just messing with us right?

<--[02-23-16]--> Gabber Begginer I finished the new hardcore track I've hinted in previous entries. I've labeled it with a 'Gabber' tag on SoundCloud. Gabber is a type of Hardcore Techno that focuses on distorting the kick drum and usually involves really fast tempos. It's my favorite track so far but I feel like I can still improve a lot more. Despite other people telling me I'm really good, I know that I'm still very much a beginner as a music producer. I'm not saying I have low self-esteem, I'm just saying that I recognize how much I still need to learn. I want to focus on making Gabber tracks at the moment. Why? Well I'll leave that as a surprise for 2 months in the future. Anyway, Presenting. . . . . . . F***, My latest hardcore production. Warning: This genre is not for the faint of heart. I also made a new header image for my Synthdroid account in SoundCloud using Photoshop. I don't think it's great but what do you think?

To an extent, everyone fools themselves to some degree regardless of whether or not they're being sold a "magic pill" or raised in the rainforest and has never seen a television before. Do not state that other people are not seeing reality until you yourself have not only seen it but become it. (Yes, I'm talking from a consciousness perspective again). When you say "reality", what you're actually saying is your perspective. So when you say your husband is not seeing reality, you're actually saying that he does not see your perspective which is just as narrow and deluded as not only his but everyone else's. I recently wrote in my journal about my short experience where I suddenly felt separation between experience and mind. It was so radically different from what mind used to tell about reality. It's the closest I've ever felt to reality itself yet I know there is still more to discover. You're already doing a pretty good job in managing your mind! There is still a lot more to discover about reality. Being overly skeptical about everything will not help you advance to these higher levels of truth that I'm trying to point to. Not only that, I actually recommend that you listen to everything but without judgement. Experience everything but without attachment. The next step is to discover what the mind actually is existentially. Do this and you have reached the next evolutionary step in your consciousness.

@Anicko You are right about the mind being deceptive about what is truth in the world. However, here's something a bit freaky. Awareness of the placebo effect still does not reveal truth. Your mind still does not know itself for what it is. You might even say that illusion that the mind is consciousness is the ultimate placebo effect. I'm not sure if you consider yourself a spiritual seeker. If not, then feel free to ignore what I just said. I just like to approach conversations of the mind through a metaphysical/consciousness perspective. Regarding Nadia's challenge, I also don't think the 21 days without orgasm is going to help much. Getting rid of sexual desires will only help the person who is obsessed with it to a point that it holds him/her back. I'm a person with minor physical problems that prevent me from experiencing orgasms. Never had one in my life, although I don't think about it too much, I actually care very little about sexual desires. My lack of sexual experience has never held me back. Yet, I've experienced terrible difficulties in happiness and creative areas growing up. I'm only now finally working my way up and building my skills. What actually works is ambition, discipline, serenity, all other "flowery" and calm traits and a whole bunch a knowledge. Not knowledge from scientific experiments, though. I find those will not help you much. I mean knowledge about how your consciousness actually works and how to direct it. Knowledge so deep that it is impossible to accurately communicate to another person. I'm rambling about consciousness again. Well, I'm off to maybe play some NES games on emulator.

@Nadia Starseed I understand you feeling excited at the possibility of feeling the joy you felt as a child before. The tricky thing to understand is that the source of the enjoyment as a child is always there. It's been buried after years of conditioning not only by sexual desires but all kinds of imaginations your mind creates. What you need is not just to experience not having the desire fulfilled. You need to remove the attachment from it. And even then, that's just step #1. You can clean the cobwebs but you need to find and kill the spiders @Anicko I'm confused. So are you saying it will not work or it will work? You say you think it's useless advice and then immediately follow it up with a sentence implying that it may work as long as you believe it does because that's "how our minds work"? Please notice the contradiction and clarify your message. I mean take a look at this sentence: I think it will work great! If you believe it's going to make a difference, you'll likely experience just that. It's how our minds work. This is more contextually coherent in my mind.

LOL, That's a pretty insightful rap.

<--[02-22-16]--> Do you MIND? I was walking from the college back home while listening to an mp3 lecture about enlightenment when the lecturer suddenly said to stop and take a look out my surroundings. Take an empty perspective to it. (I don't really remember the exact wording, I'm paraphrasing) Notice how everything that is going on is there. He started talking as if the people he were speaking to were all enlightened. After a while, I started to feel a subtle sense that I am not my mind. This is something I have not yet felt before during my spiritual journey. Pretty much everything I did with enlightenment before that involved the mind in some way. I used to try to notice my vision, for example, and have a thought, "I am what I see". I am only now realizing that even that is a process of the mind, it is not spiritual experience. Now, it was definitely not an enlightenment experience but, it was oddly peaceful. It was not pure bliss, but it was more like seeing everything with a carpet of "neutral being" everywhere. My favorite part was when the lecturer said, "Notice the mind losing its power". I liked that line a lot because it pretty much described what "I" was thinking of at the moment. It lasted like that for the entire time I walked home. And if you're curious, this was the video I converted to an mp3:

@DizIzMikey Thanks a lot for your support. I'll be sure to send you a message when I finish it so you won't miss it.

@DizIzMikey That track is finished now. I posted it at Entry 02-19-16 as Distortion Story. I'm also working on another hardcore track which I think is going to be even better. Haha. . . I have ambitions about being really excellent not just as a music producer but on so many other fields like game development and drawing but I'm so far from that goal right now. Heck, I even think I could reach spiritual enlightenment earlier than I could become "legendary" at anything. Thank you for listening to my track, I appreciate that a lot. But again, I'm working on a new track at the moment that I could likely finish within the week. I want to make it really wacky and fun to listen to. Just like 'Distortion Story', I'll just post the SoundCloud embed on one of my journal entries.

<--[02-21-16]--> The Sun? What's That? Part 2 Same as yesterday, stayed at home all day on my laptop. Didn't even have the time to read anything because I spent half the day working on a college assignment. I spent the other half working on producing a new hardcore track. Which I'm liking a lot so far, by the way. Can't wait to finish so I can share it to the world. I feel like I'm getting better as a music producer. I still think a lot of what is possible for me as a producer in the future. This is why I called this journal "Upgrading to the Maximum Level in Life". I would be a hypocrite if I didn't spend hours everyday practicing the technical skills required to achieve all the ambitious accomplishments I keep visualizing everyday. Oh yeah, I also have been spending some time before bedtime playing the original Megaman on emulator. There some games from the past which I've not played but I'd like to spend a little time on to take a look at. Aside from an aspiring video game composer, I consider myself kind of an apprentice video game nerd. Today, I beat Dr. Wily just before 9:30pm. I ended up really liking Megaman. Can't wait to play the next games on the series. [Game Over, Dr. Wily]

All states of awareness are already part of awareness itself. I am not saying that you are already conscious all the time. I'm saying that your true self encompasses all states of awareness. Whenever you think you're 'aware' of yourself, the nature of that awareness is no different from when you are experiencing anything else even if you are at a low consciousness state. Be very careful from what I just said because it's just another concept about enlightenment. I suggest you watch Leo's latest video.

<--[02-20-16]--> The Sun? What's that? I don't go out too often. I mostly stay with my laptop doing college work, creative hobbies, and various entertainment. During days I don't need to go to university lectures, I stay at home with my laptop. 66% of my time is spent on college work/hobbies, it depends on how urgent the college work is. 16% is spent either watching tutorials or reading something educational. The other 16% is on entertainment. The remaining 1% is spent here writing in this journal. Notice the 0% spent hanging out with friends. I actually rarely feel loneliness. I'm very comfortable being just by myself and even being actively different at social gatherings. I also honestly believe my meditation practice has been a big contribution to that. To be honest, I actually don't care who reads/follows my journal. I do this mainly for me, this journal is just another personal hobby. I don't do this journal because I feel like I want to share it with other people, I mostly do it because. . .I don't know. . . I find a subtle joy in writing even though it's not my main passion.

@Zippie Hey hey hey. . . . . . . . . . don't worry about it.

<--[02-19-16]--> Regular Story You know, I spend about 15 minutes walking to my college and more time going back home. I'd either just try to observe my surroundings but that's usually boring so I put on my headphones and listen to music during my walk most of the time. I don't know why I haven't come up with the idea earlier that I could listen to educational content instead. First of all, it's not boring and I get to learn some new stuff. I usually want to listen to podcasts and other long audio content when I'm working on anything not related to music like game development, coding, or doodling around in Photoshop. The first thing I decided to listen to was an audio version of this video: Oh yeah, I've also just uploaded a new Speedcore track to SoundCloud today. (I also enjoyed making the logo for it.) Today was not bad. I liked today. I even ended it playing the original Megaman on emulator before going to bed.

<--[02-18-16]--> Ad, Not Bad If you've hung around the internet for long enough, you've probably come across some information that advertising companies like to get your browsing history that then get processed with computing algorithms to then sell you ads dedicated to your tastes. As shady as it is, that's not why I bring it up. The reason why I mention it is because I came across an internet advertising banner ad about "Creative Visualization". I figured that sort of thing was recommended to me because of my browsing habits being biased towards personal development material. This is probably the only internet ad I've ever actually got genuinely interested in (and of course, the word "FREE" was definitely alluring despite me knowing that it's a common marketing term). The ad was for a free Creative Visualization video course. The catch of course was that you get asked if you want to pay for the full course which includes going to a live seminar. I'm not interested in the full course because the free content they offer seems to have been enough to convince me that the skill of visualization is something more significant that I originally gave it credit for. Leo's videos on visualization didn't really convince me that I needed the habit. The video below is the first video they show you in the free course. It got me to decide to start this new habit. I would never have thought I would discover new ways of doing personal development by means of internet advertising. We all know most of the internet ads out there pander crap. I used to think ALL of them pander garbage. I even decided to take a look outside to make sure the sky isn't falling or if everyone suddenly decided to drive their cars in reverse.

Hi, I came across a video that YouTube's algorithms recommended to me today. It's titled "The Hidden Teachings of Jesus". It's about an hour long and I'm only 1 and a half minutes in as I write this but I felt like this needs to be shared. I find Leo's videos on Enlightenment as very eye-opening and life-changing but I feel he mostly talks about the basics. I would like to see videos that other people made that talk more advanced Enlightenment content. Here's the video I mentioned:

I have a suggestion for quitting any bad habit. Start doing meditation if you haven't already, and be biased towards more uncomfortable forms of meditation. This will create more tolerance for unpleasant situations like the boredom of being alone and sitting in front of your computer. Also have a large song library, mine has over 4,000 song files with eleven days total content. I don't know about you but constant music can help me get through any bland moments but use it in moderation.

<--[02-17-16]--> I WANT A BETTER LIFE NOW! How was your day? Good? That's nice. It's been a while since I've had a "good" day. And by that I mean a day where some favorable external conditions have been met by my personal judgment. Getting rid of all the distracting habits I used to have shed light on the truly bland and neutral nature of most of my days. On the one hand, my spiritual journey has given me the power to tolerate it, on the other hand my ambitious self can't help but be frustrated. I'm do not consider myself a "dreamer". Even though I find myself getting stuck inside my own imagination a lot; industry, hard-work, and persistence are some of my strong points. Although they can turn out to be negative traits at times (which I'll talk about in another entry). The challenge is figuring out the path towards this so called "Dream Life". How much work that is required of me to reach it is scary and motivating at the same time. It's just a matter of getting rid of the scary part. Currently listening to: Leaning Tower by Sampling Masters SNDG from the album Sampling Masters 3 http://bit.ly/1QIrQYW

<--[02-16-16]--> Oh dear, I forgot to write yesterday's entry didn't I? (It's February 17th as I write this.) Aah. . . nevermind I'm going to talk about something I'm personally embarrassed to reveal to the public. I'm incredibly inept about money/finances. I still live with my parents and they pay me a measly 100 php a day in cash (about 0.02 American Dollars). I'm 19 years old. Over the year 2015, I only managed to save enough to buy 3 books. I grew up (and am still growing up) in a family that has been terrible at handling money. My parents keep spending their cash on low-grade entertainment and other garbage (at least they're not drug addicts). Everything I have is something that was either given to me, something incredibly cheap I had to save months for, or free. I have never bought something online before. I know I go to a college that is very near my parents house but parents keep insisting that they handle my bank account instead of teaching me how to handle it myself. You may ask, why haven't I spoken up about it? Well, it has actually to do with my past relationship with my parents which I want to talk about in a future entry, for now I still want to keep that quiet. I'm not having problems with money because I've made a lot of stupid mistakes. I'm having problems because I haven't even been given the chance to use it at all. I don't have a credit/debit card. I don't know what to do to get one. That's why I still haven't bought a single thing online. There are lots of things I want to buy that are beneficial to my personal development. (Which is why I spent all of last year's savings on 3 educational books). And of course, there are the leisure stuff I want to buy to like video games and music albums (but those are lower on my priorities). I know things will automatically change once I get out of college and have to find a job but c'mon! Why do my parents expect me only to figure this out only when it's at it's most urgent? That's ridiculous. I came across this video by Big Think. Apparently 80% of people who go to college know dick about finances. So apparently my situation is actually sort of the norm. *sigh* ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Currently Listening to:

@Leo Gura What is your approach on meeting people in real life who are stuck doing low consciousness behaviors? I ask this question because I can't help but pretend that I'm in low consciousness myself whenever other people are around. Is it the right thing for me to reveal to them what I'm doing with my life the next time I get the opportunity?

@Time Traveler I support you in your goal. Just know that removing games, porn, and net-surfing will not automatically make you happy. In fact, removing bad habits is like Step #1 in any self-actualization journey with like. . . . I don't know. . . . . 100+ steps total? But hey, a small step away from bullshit is already a big change.

<--[02-15-16]--> Today was another regular school day which meant I had very little time to work on any creative hobby or do anything with my free time at all, sadly. Instead I want to dedicated this entry to talking about why I love music, what got me into it, and what dreams I have for a possible future music career. So yeah, this is my first flashback/nostalgic entry. ♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫♫ I've always loved music since I was 6. However, I didn't start my passion for music like most people. Instead of being inspired by a music album or being taught how to play a music instrument at an early age. What got me to love music was Video Games of all things. I used to spend all my time playing games on the Sony PlayStation as a kid. The first game where the music really got to me was a game called Pac-man World. It was a 3D Platformer with music composed by Tommy Tallarico. When I was a kid, I absolutely adored everything about this game. The colorful visuals, the fluid gameplay, and of course the varied music. The game included 6 worlds each with their own style of music and genre. As a child, I liked how it all sounded and felt giving the game this sort of feeling that it had personality that pulled me in. It's hard to explain but I was like 6 or 7 back then. Childhood experiences tend to be blurry. I remember the first level of the Space area in particular blew my mind as a kid when I first heard it. It was a Techno track. It says a lot about my electronic music bias. Pac-man World was only the beginning of my video game music obsession. I want to make a list of all the games with music I really love. I want you to see just how many these games have influenced my passion. Here are all my personal favorites in no particular order. Pac-man World, Crash Bandicoot, Crash Bandicoot 2: Cortex Strikes Back, Crash Bandicoot 3: Warped, Strikers 1945 II, Spyro 2: Ripto's Rage, Kirby's Epic Yarn, Sonic Heroes, Metal Slug, Metal Slug 2 & X, Metal Slug 3, Metal Slug 4, Metal Slug 5, Metal Slug 6, Metal Slug 3D, Crash Bandicoot: The Wrath of Cortex, Pac-man World Rally, M&M's Shell Shocked, Jak 3, Crash Team Racing, Crash Tag Team Racing, A Bug's Life (The Game), Klonoa: Door to Phantomile, Danmaku Death, Sonic Colors, Riff: Everyday Shooter, Loco Roco, Lumines and Lumines Plus, Lumines II, Gunpey, and Castlevania, Symphony of the Night. And that is just the non-rhythm game list Parappa the Rappa, Parappa the Rappa 2, DJMAX Portable, DJMAX Portable 2, DJMAX Portable: Clazziquai Edition, DJMAX Portable Black Square, DJMAX Portable 3, DJMAX Technika, DJMAX Technika 2, DJMAX Technika 3, DJMAX Ray, DJMAX Technika Q, beatmania: IIDX 14 GOLD, DJMAX Technika TUNE, DJMAX Trilogy, リズム天国 (Rhythm Tengoku), Rhythm Heaven, Rhythm Heaven Fever I wanted to write this a refresher as to why I started to pursue music in the first place. In all my years, I have not learned to play a single music instrument but music has remained ingrained as a part of my soul growing up. Why haven't I started learning about music as a kid if I was already inspired very early on? There are various reasons which I want to leave out for other entries. I want to focus on different aspects of my past separately. You could probably guess that I dream of being a video game music composer someday and you'd be right. Right now, I'm focusing on working on my electronic music production skills. In a way, I consider my laptop as my musical tool and I don't feel any shame in saying that. I hope to talk more on topics like these in future entries. I didn't think it would feel so. . . exhilarating and relieving at the same time to be able to write this down and share it to people. I have much more to say about myself and not just my past, but my problems, personal development journey, visions, feelings, etc. Those are for future entries, that's what this journal is for after all.

@Soulbass Oooh Breakbeat. . . awesome! I never get tired of that genre. Have you heard of Breakcore? Anyway, thanks for recommending me that free synth. But unfortunately, I can't seem to find a download link. The plugin's site seems to have disappeared. You wouldn't happen to still have a VST file of it do you? (.dll or other)

@Soulbass LOL, I hope the hardcore distorted stuff I posted in my last entries hasn't put you off. I have other songs in a SoundCloud account but I want to hear your music first before I share mine. (Actually, I'm pretty sure I remember you saying you already found it.)

<--[02-14-16]--> I wanted to start today by working on the power point presentation I was supposed to make but instead something else happened. Something good. I came across this documentary on Youtube that's very interesting. I recommend you watch it if you have the time. I don't want to ramble on about the work I did today because I think it's boring and uninteresting to other people. Unfortunately, I spent the whole today with work so there is not much else to say. Oh yeah, Leo's new video came up today. How about that? Have you seen it yet? It's really good. I even took notes. (I'll upload a picture in an attachment.) I even made my own symbolic system which shows how much I think I excel in a certain quality or which qualities I need to work on. Even put little hearts next to the qualities I think are my favorites. Yeah, I don't really want to say much else. It's night time and I'm sleepy. Here's a video I uploaded today as well if you're interested. Yeah, it's me messing around in FL Studio again. I should mention that I spend some amount of time working on music production everyday. Sometimes, I want to record and share what I make.