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Hello, I would like to share my experience with you. A landmark event in my life. I have been working on himself for 15 years. I started with pick-up and chasing financial success. For many years, I have been lost and wandering around. After some time, I finally started to get into deeper working methods. I am from Poland, a heavily Catholic country embedded in most of the blue stages in spiral dynamic. My life was characterized by a sense of emptiness and suffering. I have put a huge amount of work to change my life, but all the time I felt that something is still wrong. Some time ago I found Leo's channel. On one of the episodes, he was talking about various areas of self-development. Leo mentioned that spirituality is the field in which exploration gives the best results. I started to wonder what it means to me. Spirituality was very important to me, I often turned to Jesus /God for direction. I have read a few books but I didn’t have a deeper understanding. As if I was looking at something in front of me but did not see the heart of the matter. I did not go to church and I rather had a negative attitude towards this institution. In my free time, I started to contemplate how it is with my spirituality. At some point, I felt a huge shame. I realized that Jesus is as important to me as my best friend. But I would be ashamed to admit it publicly because I treated it as signs of backwardness. I felt enormous discomfort with this. I was ashamed of my best friend. For many years I have often used the method of direct confrontation with the problem. In this case, I knew exactly how to face the problem. I knew what would be the most difficult for me. After a few days, I decided to do it. On my facebook account, I wrote only one sentence "Jesus is my shepherd." It turned out to be a breakthrough. It was a period of a few days in which a process took place in me. It is difficult for me to describe it. When I landed after some time, I understand what happened. It allowed me to integrate the blue, the orange and the green stages and opened the possibility of the yellow and the turquoise stage. Although, I know the spiral dynamic model earlier, there was now a deeper understanding. Still, in some % I am scattered on the spectrum of spiral dynamic, but now I see the whole spectrum. Earlier, I was emotionally attached to tier 1 without access to tier 2. My life has become full. The sense of emptiness disappeared. There are still problems and I experience a spectrum of different emotions, also negative ones. But problems do not disturb me from the beauty of life. They do not disturb my inner fire and sense of completeness. It is beautiful. Now I know what I've been devoting for this 15 years. I started from a sense of emptiness and achieved a sense of fullness. My hero's journey just ended and I returned home. There are new challenges ahead of me. I see it and just am packing to start another hero’s journey. I hear a call. I already know that it will be another journey full of internal challenges. I think that if you are starting from a sense of emptiness and deeper emotional problems, you do not change your life in one day, but you also do not need 15 years. I recommend from the very beginning to get into deep methods of work. Do not waste time on superficial methods, which are only a defensive mechanism, not to confront your demons. Anyway, you will have to enter your basement and turn on the light to see corpses you've buried there. The sooner you do it the faster your life will take on fullness and you will enter a completely different level. If you are determined I think that the time can be shortened to 2-4 years of deep work. It is really worth. This is not a subtle difference. It's like night and day. Like emptiness and fullness. Like fire and water. When I started to go this way, I did not know where it was going. It was more about reducing suffering. And it was like bouncing off one suffering to collide with another. When the breakthrough happened, I was able to see everything from a wider perspective. It's like getting to the top of the mountain and looking at the whole from above. You will know that you have reached your destination. For me, the deepest methods of work were: psychotherapy (find a good, experienced therapist), holotropic breathing/shamanic brathwork (start with a professional workshop), psychedelics (find someone who safely introduces them to you), work with A. Lowen method. It's good to connect it with the everyday habit of meditation. Challenge yourself, but give yourself time and love. Good luck on your journe

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My suggestions when breathing. Safety and comfort: - I suggest preparing a bowl for vomiting and spitting, - prepare a bottle of drinking or throat water, -toilet paper - pillows to hit if the process would lead you into anger and land your anger - good to have a bed close if your process turns out to be dynamic and you would feel need to jump - go to tolilet before start Process: - already preparing for breathing, realize that you are doing a unique ritual - follow everything that appears, do not block emotions - if you feel pissed that nothing is happening follow the pissed off - if you feel frustrated that nothing is happening, follow the frustration - if sadness follow sadness - do not set the watch follow the process - make sure that nobody will disturb you - -give yourself as much time as you need - give the process a natural swim and let it finish by itself Just follow the process. Before breathing, I proposes 5-10 minutes of sitting in silence with his eyes closed, with the intention of invoking an inner healer and asking for support in the process. If you already have the first experience, you can breathe blindfolded to strengthen the process and let the music be as loud if possible Integration. You can prepare a sheet of paper and crayons to draw a mandala after breathing, which will symbolize you process. After all, it is good to go for a walk. After It's good to come up with some activities that will ground us. In short, for me, there are 3 basic principles to make the process juicy. - take care of your safety and comfort - follow the process, forgive - breathe, trust your inner healer

@Sahil Pandit some specific videos with exercises for beginners ? Edit : found