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Batches indeed were not the same. Was thinking about this too. Potency regarding shrooms is a bummer. Yes. For me they were very potent, same as the other friend who took them with me. But for her there were no effects. She doesn't have a very clean diet too (this is where the question about diet came from). I do have a clean diet especially couple of days prior to trips, do not consume any food either before taking the substance. But wouldn't it make sense that even if the diet is bad, the substance would have to take effect sooner or later anyway? That was my reaction when she provided me with the list of medicines she takes. She told me that the trip she had isn't the reason for her "need" to take the meds. However, the reason she provided me with somehow does not sell for me. Maybe I'm just too ignorant. She is very, very closed up. Fragile. Her actions tells me that she doesn't trust her self. From where I am now, it's very hard, nearly impossible to shine at least a bit of light onto her emotional pain and help her understand her self. I don't have the understanding nor the maturity needed on my own emotional being to cope with the ignorance that she is in. "My doctor told me, so I must" is what she sands by. Either she is scared to shit to try and look in there for herself or she doesn't see the need for it and thinks that society will solve her life. And the fucking meds are making her numb as hell. She got very, very lazy too. Gaining weight, eating every two hours. Doesn't care what she eats, doesn't care about any exercise either. It hurts so bad watching her go through this.

Me myself have never taken any antidepressants ever. Any ideas why would the same dosage of the same shrooms would sometimes provide a powerful trip and sometimes would have little to no effect? I am getting more and more disappointed about shrooms as out of 5 times I took them, 3 times felt no effects at all.

@Fran11 Thank you very much for the info! ?

I see. This would make sense. Here is a list of medicines she takes: Leponex 0.1 and 0.025, Cyclodol 0.002, Depakine chrono 0.5, Quetiapin 0.025, Coaxil 12.5mg

Feels pointless writing a post about all this I am going through. I am still writing this nonetheless, which means that I do see some point in it, doesn't it? I do not know what I mean by saying "I". Can give it a name, one description or another but names and descriptions are in a different realm than what I experience myself to be. Almost as if this "I" is an activity rather than an entity. This produced numbness IME. Feels like all these happenings just happen. No effort is made for them to happen. Meanings dismantle. All the ideas are seen as ideas. Limited and unnecessary therefore no action is taken to embrace and make them happen. This state brought a feeling of what they call "non-doership". This sounds nice, right? Doesn't feel nice, though. Actually, it feels worse. And whats the worst about it is that I'm okay with it! Even feel happy about it. I feel like there is nothing to talk about, nothing to think about, nothing to do in life. This made me isolated AF. Friends are slipping away, family is slipping away, all meanings are slipping away. I am becoming lonelier and lonelier day by day. And you know what, I see no point in doing anything about it. It's like I really do not give a shit. On the contrary, I do care all about it. But this caring-not-caring warfare inside is what catches all of the attention therefore little to no attention is left for anything else. This isolated state is not satisfactory. No joy, no bliss. Only this "no-me" which is actually just a new "me". Sensations of frustration and wanting to get out comes up more frequently. I've caught myself wanting to brute-force abandon my mind while on DMT trip. I also feel like physical death wouldn't be something bad. That's one way of getting rid of this "I-thought". Easy way. Although even suicide feels ridiculously pointless. It's like I've reached a point where I no longer have a choice. All that is wanted is getting rid of the "I-thought". It feels like life is not worth living with this illusory assumption of a separate self. I am considering leaving everything behind and going completely quiet, although this idea feels even more vague and lonely. Paradoxical, but at this point I feel like making it further by myself is very unlikely, if possible at all. On the contrary, am considering to start attending vipassana retreats, meditation retreats, psychedelic ceremonies ect. At the same time, putting trust in teachers sounds like a joke. However, as I have stated before, all these ideas are just mere ideas. It's like being stuck in observing without the ability to act on anything. I want this to end. Feel like wasting my life being in this "non-doer" state of shit.

150ug Trip was much more intense than oral 150ug. The come-up was fast and concrete. Usually when consumed orally I start to feel the effects somewhat mild at the 1h mark and then it starts to accelerate as where rectally I was quite deep into the trip at 1h mark. Yeah, I inserted the blotter. (Had no means of dissolving it in water/vinegar due to reasons). Somewhat about 1.5-2inch deep. The trip lasted max 7hours. After 6hours the chemical started to wear off quite fast. Usually I find it hard to fall asleep for couple of hours after the trip is over, so I really do not think that I slept it off. It was smoother and clearer mainly because the body load was so easy to handle. Less random shivers, less irritation on the body overall. Visuals were the same compared to oral besides the intensity.

Confirmed this with LSD. Inserted at 9PM, intensity of the trip was definitely much higher, body load compared to oral administration was about 50% less. The trip was much, much smoother and clearer than usual. The chemical took over very fast. 1 hour in and I was tripping quite heavy. Reached peak ~3hours into the trip. Fell asleep around 4AM. Today the body feels nice, not exhausted at all. Don't think I am ever going back to oral administration. @Username Thank you for this great idea! This is gold.

Are you saying that we can put the tab in our butts and get shorter, 2x potent LSD trips compared to oral administration? How am I only hearing about this now.

Good, good. Really nice to see premieres like this on popular channels with famous people involved. Lets fucking do it!! One might suppose these things would plant a seed or two, maybe more in the heart. Get them interested at least! Helps the level of consciousness expand more exponentially.

The thread above will answer most of the questions on NN-DMT. From my experience i find a vape pen most effective way of vaporizing dmt although the vaporizer you have there should be gold.

@Peo Just to give you an idea on how irrelevant the dosage is I'll share some of my experiences. The first time I took LSD, i took 200ug. Was very cocky and macho thinking that this is just a piece of cake. The experience was beautiful for the most part, I felt very safe and took care of because my GF was tripsitting me. Going into the peak things started to get "slippy" and scary. The reality started to reveal itself in ways I wasn't quite yet able to stomach. Resistance started building up, beliefs I held true was crashing in front of me. Definitely not the way to go for everyone as this intensity of the experience can just be too much. Unless of course you want to be crucified the way I was. Overall I did enjoy the trip (yeah, I'm a bit masochistic ), gained a lot from it. Had a number of trips after that raging 100-150ug. Mostly beautiful. Numerous insights into who I was, what reality is, what relationships are and how I make meaning for them. All great and stuff. Felt quite grounded in that psychedelic space LSD provided me with so decided to up the dose. Took 300ug. Had a friend to watch over me and my GF was about to come back from work. The first effects of LSD hit me hard. Very intense visuals, overwhelming awareness of everything I felt at the time. Didn't take long, around 2hrs in and I wasn't able to communicate to my friend anymore properly. My GF came back home and that's about the last thing I remember before I blacked out. My GF said that she had gave me a glass of juice, I spilled it all on myself, literally. I pissed myself, mumbled stuff, completely disorientated, I had gone completely. I had blacked out for 6hours. Can only remember facing what I would call "infinity" but wasn't able to let go. Because it felt like I'd never come back from there if I did. Whoah that first time experiencing something like that was harsh. Didn't do any psychs for about half a year after I got this fucking. Coming back to psychs was scary. Started experimenting with DMT, had a couple of mushroom trips (all low dose) before I took LSD again. Started low and stayed low to this moment. Most I did after that 300ug trip is 120ug. This one time I took 50ug and the trip went so deep it felt like "insanity". Have a trip report on that one posted. Was literally started losing my mind, realized and worked through much more than on 120ug LSD or breakthrough DMT experience. So from my experience, the dosage isn't the key. Contemplation, honesty, concentration, intention ect. is much more of importance. Although experiencing these tough breakthrough trips might have been a push to do more meditation work, investigate myself more deeply ect. ect. Goes in circles this cause and action stuff. So there you go. Choose wisely, follow your gut. If you feel that you want to go heavy, do it. Just be ready for a good fucking. Oh and have a sitter so you don't do some stupid shit.

@ivory Method of administration is key with DMT. I've tried a number of methods with lots of trial and error, done 15+ trips of DMT so far and vape is my favourite. Very effective and convenient. Especially if you have a mod on which you can set the coil temp manually. This makes you guaranteed that none of the molecule is burned. I wouldn't be in a hurry to judge the molecule from the first 25mg trip. Do 10+ breakthrough trips and then come back. ?

@remember Have you heard of keto diet? If you are progressing towards vegetarianism/veganism it's the best one by far. I have been on it for a year now and have tried many different diets before. Overall well-being improved dramatically using keto. Wouldn't recommend anything else really. Eating one or two times a day, consuming less then ever before and getting more energy, less monkey mind, deeper meditation/concentration. Also, don't have to worry so much about the quality of your food as most of it is just nuts. I love nuts btw.?

Yes. Also, canned products are usually not the best quality. I wouldn't trust any brand either. I have worked in factories, I know how things are done there. It's really gross when you think about it. I used to eat tuna before i dropped meat/fish overall. If you love tuna, I would suggest buying freah steaks of it. They are usually put there with all the expensive fish on ice. Make sure they are the best quality you can get in your market. Saving a buck or two on it isn't worth your health.

Careful with tuna. I wouldn't recommend eating a lot of it as it possibly contains excessive amounts of mercury - a toxic heavy metal that has a variety of damaging effects on your body and brain.

@Average Investor @7thLetter Thank you guys for all the info! Much appreciated.?

@Average Investor Haven't looked into foundations just yet. Looking into currency pairs at the moment. Gathering info on it, checking criteria, trying to form a strategy around EMA's. I am thinking about trying it as a primary income although now it will be an investment as I don't see myself in a day job. I will have plenty of time in the months to come, a lot learning can be done. I know there are demo accounts that you can train on. Have any to recommend? What caught my attention is the possibility of spending so little time on meeting my survival needs.

Interesting. ?

CBD is a great tool although takes maturity (which I didn't, and don't have still ?) to use properly. My initial purpose was to reduce stress and help with anxiety, promote wellbeing. Ended up abusing it and it backfired. It's great as a tool however. I suppose it would be amazing for overall stress relief. Using it prior to trips would reduce fear I suppose.

Well, now, the thought of insanity is all it is - a thought. I can only conceptualise the experience I've had and it probably would not be as accurate as the experience itself. When I think of insanity now what comes up is losing ones sense of self. This sounds like a classic conception, almost like a fairytale spiritual communities are talking about and stuff. But man... going through that was threatening AF. It was like reality flipped upside down. Right was left, up was down, me was other and that's what felt like going completely insane. I thought I am not coming back from this one.?

Insanity doesn't exist. What seems to be insanity is the concept, mental construction of it. It felt so good going through it. Letting it go. Every trip I do lately gets me to a point where I literally feel like I am going insane. Automatically the question arises, what exactly is going insane and this just doesn't stop. The question is asked and it pulls me deeper into it. It's becoming harder and harder letting it go, symptoms of panic start coming up, these are hard to let go of too. It's like I reach "the line" of insanity, ask myself who reached it and what is this line, get past it and automatically ask the same again. This crazy loop. I was about to lose my shit, but am proud of myself I got through it.? Damn, so much heavy shit came to surface this time. All of my loved ones, characters that I am still attached to. My mother, my grandmother, my dearest friend, my ex.. All I had to detach from. This was very painful, however bliss is what I've found in doing so. I started contemplating after a while the appearance of other. This was so profound. I got revealed to a show, where first I was this being that realised it's existence. I was that for a while before I became everything I observed. Also, in that state there was no observer. Felt like I was looking back at myself and myself looking back at me. This state felt so powerful. Not long passed before this bliss started turning into deep, deep sadness which lead straight to Nothingness. I became absolutely nothing. And from this nothing, misinterpretations of it started appearing and before long I was asleep again. Everything just slipped away like nothing ever happened. This repeated some number of times. It was ridiculously beautiful and profound. What caught me off guard was that just 50ug LSD got me this deep. Had sample of 10mcg DMT mixed with vape juice, gave it a go too, that had to affect the trip I suppose. Thank you for reading. Something different is happening lately. Absolutely Love it.?❤️

I am so sorry You had to go through all that. Also am happy You pushed through it! Did not mean to judge Your spiritual development. What You described there, is that actual insanity? Is that the actual definition of it? We must have different things in mind when we talk about "insanity". I did not mean that mental disorders doesn't exist nor have I had in mind that people who has these shouldn't be cared for.

I wouldn't take the example so literally. It's just an example. Any number in a scale also has a .1, .01, .0000001, .2, .000002 and so on. You know what I mean. It doesn't necessarily has to be 3D either. What does insanity actually mean in Your experience? Note, You are using Your mind as a frame of reference to justify Your beliefs. Experiencing it is another matter.

@Keyhole 0 - ∞. That's the spectrum. Not a single digit means anything. Our minds project meaning onto 0, 1, 2, 3 and so on. So lets assume 0 is sane and ∞ is insane. Keep in mind at all times that You are assuming. From which number going from 0 to ∞ insanity starts to occur? Are all numbers insane? Are all of em sane? Which is it?? I am not denying any of the relative things you listed as insanity thought. However, it's not insanity. Question insanity, go through it if You want to understand what I am trying to say.

What do you mean by insanity and insanity from a trip?