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please remind me, nn-dmt freebase is the one can be used plugging?

@kev014 Good stuff. May I ask what dose and method was being used?

@Aldo Does Aldo consider himself a spiritual seeker?

@Truth Addict Completely true. Balance is the master key. @tecladocasio Yes, I am aware of that. I do help, at least am always trying to, my family, friends, people who seek support. What i meant by "really make a difference" was that enlightenment would allow taking on multiple perspectives and infinite understanding. Combining that with thorough analysis of human psyche would make me 1000x times more effective. How can one trust the mind without enlightenment? How can one fully give efficient help to others? If looking at the bigger picture, IMO, one cannot.

"Everything You see now, You see for the first time." "You can't see only because You don't believe in what You see." "You might not live in the paradise You create.. but You will." These were the phrases I wrote down while tripping couple of days ago. I was walking in the forest near the village I grew up in, picking up plastic bags and bottles lying around and I couldn't stop thinking - what is it that I can do so there wouldn't be any trash to pick up. Just cleaning the forest will not cut it. I figured that my current LP - architecture - is not good enough. The psyche of man allow this trash lying in our forests, oceans, ect. I've understood that the best thing I can do is to pursue enlightenment and study human psychology so that I would be able to really make a difference, help everyone and everything.

@pluto Thank you, sir. Yes indeed, I have noticed that if my practices are lazy for some time, I get this anxiety and overthinking prior to trip which ultimately lead to not so pleasant trips. Unable to let go of stuff. But that's all fine. Practices are the main pillar at this point for me. Well, I sort of felt that shaking is normal, just wanted to confirm. Love. ❤️

Experiencing rapid shaking, could compare it to feeling-cold-shaking on the calm down. Anyone can relate? Is this normal?

@Simon Håkansson After 4 years in I imagine that progress should be noticeable. Try and compare yourself at this moment with yourself 1year, 2 years, 3years ect. back. How has your mindset changed? What do you identify with now and what did you identify with back then? Do you see changes in those areas? If yes, are they worth those 4 years in your opinion? If the answer to those questions is no, then i would definitely try different practices. Also, why are you meditating?

@mandyjw

@Jkris "your perspective" is no longer "yours". it becomes "perspective".

@Jkris Nothing changes besides your perspective. It stops existing, actually.

A very nice video on how brain hallucinates all of reality. I hope you enjoy, i know i did.

Thank you for the replies, guys.

Hey guys, so for a couple of months now i have fallen back to my weed phase. Feel like i can stop it whenever i want easily but never do. All kinds of stories of excuses and even plans of how it can easily get out of it easily. Like "enjoy numbing yourself for a bit, you can get out whenever you want". Sneaky bitch. Broke my meditation for 7days now. Feel like i know exactly what to do bet cant get myself to do them. Anyone can relate? Any suggestions? I got behind with my studies, no motivation to go to work or do anything really. Anxiety building up cause of that too. Its this extreme laziness atm, i do enjoy it at some level but i still understand that this is extremely anti-productive. This pursue for pleasure is fucking hard to overcome.

Hello friends. I am not gonna get into all the details. Just want to share these insights with you all. Took about 185-190ug (375ug blotter split in half) with a nice set up. Just me and my doggo alone, a lot of silence, a sketchbook, some chill music and some Alan Watts philosophy. If you like to listen to Alan, i would love to share my favorite chillmix built around one of his speeches It took weirdly long time for acid to take an affect on me, around 2hours.??? It got me a bit off track so i rolled a joint. Now i know what you thinking, please, spare the criticism. The experience was so profound and deep i have no words to describe. A complete, utter and uncontrollable disappearance of all senses. I could feel the thoughts melting. The sense of sensing was melting before me. It was terrifying. It was beautiful. Impossible to describe. It was so whole it rose such a huge terror in me I can't describe. This rabbit hole is infinite. At one point i had to get out of the room i've been in because my reality started shaking really fucking bad. I thought I will go insane, just couldn't deal with all this clusterfuck of an Ego. The closest to what i can describe the experience is every cell of my body, every thought and emotion was raveling out and in to itself. Freaking fucking scary. Don't know how long it took me to get a hold of myself and get out of the bed, but i did and took my doggo outside. Doggy doesn't like strangers very much, so he jumped out on the street barking at the man walking on the other side so i pulled him back and shouted "Rio! Come here!" I got scared the cars will hit him. And he just looked at me confused as to why i just pulled him. That taught me something. The dog didn't care about the cars, he didn't care if he will die or not, he wanted to bark at the man so he did! I was amazed by the realization when we got home, almost crying and the dog just started playing with me, we were running around trying to catch one another. I got so lost in the moment, forgot about everything else, was just running around and playing with him. The dog did as well, started biting me and bark at me. In a playful manner. The connection between me and him was one of the deepest connections I've ever encountered. Spontaneous, uncontrollable joy and happiness. During a comedown i decided to continue watching Leo's Quantum Mechanics video. Right where he was talking about the infinity including all of the possible finites and how everything is infinite whenever we are not looking at it i glimpsed at my doggo.... and there he was. Just a regular doggo, looking at me through infinity. My body started vibrating a little, i immediately got into tears and laughter. Here are couple of sketches I sketched during the trip. The phrase below: Doesn't all this prove that fear is an illusion? We create our own fear.

@Joseph Maynor Just a pointer to you: based on posts and replies you wrote i am guessing that you might be confusing intellectual understanding and embodiment. But fuck knows. @Aaron p Hang in there dude. It will pass.

@John West I guess the worst thing that could happen is that you could vomit and choke to death.

@Highest I did not mean to offend, sir. I just find it really weird that one is seeking the approval/disapproval of others on such regard.

@Highestthe fact that you are asking us if you should marry means that you shouldn't. although i could be wrong. anyways, the whole post looks like a joke. sorry.

Have only just started couple of days ago, only doing the pranayamas atm, trying to get the hang of it. Kechari and other tongue tricks is practice as well. And ooooh boy, this shit is powerful. Yesterday after doing a number of pranayamas just continued to sit, basically do nothing meditation. Could barely feel myself breathing, this huge flow of subtle and warm energy filled the whole body. One of the deepest meditative states i've ever got to! And i will stress this again, did only the second session, did not count the pranayamas as i only wanted to focus on the technique. I can only imagine what this stuff will get me to in a year. Strongest practice I've done so far, and i wasn't even so serious about it! Left me truly amazed.

@Viking You are doing good, my friend. Your post is telling that you bumped into a wall of confusion there. Don't worry, you are not an exception, most of us just as confused. However, i wouldn't put so much effort in trying to conceptualise this. Everything is nothing, meaning is meaningless. The way you feel about this depends on the way you understand these concepts. I just love the way Alan Watts used to talk about these things. His speeches are a true goldmine.

@AlwaysBeNice can definitely relate. I have been practicing for around 9months now, best experience I've had were meditating in the bed before sleep. Been trying to get a lucid dream for a long time before, never occured. Had a lucid dream about a month ago with this method. Totally recommend.

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Good stuff Aaron

So I've been contemplating about the ego lately. I have noticed that the ego is getting a lot of judgment and hate due to its unconsciousness. Yes, its ultimately true that it causes suffering because of that. And that is fine! It is true that the ego has to be transcended if one is seeking liberation. Although the approach to the path will not get you anywhere if it is done in a brute, aggressive manner. I feel like the ego is treated like a dog who just peed on a carpet. Intuitively one gets mad at it, rubs its face in its urine. But is one conscious enough to remember that the dog was not taken for a walk in the morning? The dog didn't mean any harm. It just did what it had to do. It's natural. Same goes for that 'devilish ego'. So imagine. One has been doing all the practices - meditating, self-inquiry, kriya everyday for some time and then one day wakes up to be depressed, anxious ect. What is the approach to dealing with it? Does one start judging oneself ? Or does one brute force through it, doing the practices mechanically? Like a robot that is supposed to be programmed to keep going? If that is the case, how does one expect to 'achieve' infinite love, compassion and understanding that way? What are the odds? Wouldn't it be better to understand the motives of the ego? Wouldn't it be better to show love and compassion for oneself? The thing I am struggling and I feel, that majority of us is struggling with is lack of compassion and too much of ignorance, brutality towards ego. The way I see this concept 'ego', is like a child desperately wanting that sweet looking candy, willing to sacrifice anything just to taste it. Does the child has some other 'devilish' reason for wanting the candy besides the genuine desire? Does the ego want to sustain itself because it is 'evil'? Does it deserve all this criticism and aggression? I feel that ego is getting too much shit it doesn't deserve. It is only trying to keep you alive! Does it deserve all this negativity? Yes, it is unable to see the bigger picture. That is not a valid reason for judging it, can't you see? Do you go around criticizing high school kids for not understanding rocket science? It's all fine. Everything is a lesson. I hope one could get something out of this post. All is love, including ego. It needs to be loved just as much as anything else.